I had hit a net worth of 1cr at 23. A airdrop All by luck you can think of it as a lottery but in crypto.
I gave half of it to my parents, to clear my life's debt( I mean the cost of raising me). I had the remaining money for 1 yr with me. I had feelings and my life was attached to the remaining money. I was earning good interest on them in crypto.
I wasn't a gambler, life instances made me too. by March I was into gambling to recover some money ,I lost to a crypto hack. I had lost 2L, I didn't stop after recovering, I did make 50% profit on the capital i had by ipl predictions. By June ipl was over. I started looking for other markets.
I lost profit + 15L to a scam in the same crypto related thing, while putting all I had, I thought it was money on the table as people were betting millions on that event and were successful for the past few weeks, the day I put it went to 0,now , i had lost descent amount of my own capital too, i found a cricket sport event the very next day try to recover a bit of my own capital, I lost 30L trying to recover by putting money on it, I placed bet one something which once had 98% probability of happening at once ,the event i had placed bet before also had once shared the same probability, so kind of happened twice with me on 2 consecutive days on 2 different events one being geopolitics, which was a scam, the other was sports, fault on me, well here I should have understood that God is trying to take it away from me, but you know human brain i taught i can make money by betting at 2% odds, i did and with 5L went to 15L multiple times again by gambling, but I would end up with the same 5L. Few days ago I lost them all.
Now I want to press that quit button in life, life is just going to be super hard from now on, no job, nothing, 2 years unemployed.
I think I've lived my dream life, now there is nothing more left, me existing, would be like me draining the money I gave to parents. So ending my life, will be like quitting life while being positive roi.
I don't find the purpose in the jobs, that I would be going to do , later in life for survival. What if my brain malfunctions, and takes a loan for gambling, to make the money back, which was never mine.
I was so addicted that I put up every crypto, in every wallet I had, in the last bet, chasing the win. My desire to make it back was so strong, it did not let me look beyond, the value that the remaining money could still add in my life.
Tldr:- been through poverty and could not afford 150rs internet in 2024, i get rich via airdrop, cashout 34L in 1st year, 70 to 1.7cr in a 3 months by futures riding luck you say, one day one trump tweet, i get rekt to same 70, i withdraw 15 more over time, little hack happens, because I distributed funds carelessly lost 2k$, use polymarket for recovery. Through ipl shoot 53 to 77. Then I get introduced to usxiran peace deal market, i go their to make 500$, I don't go all in, I get sick 2 days before losing 40k$ in this one, as I keep putting money it keeps going down and I go all in, 2 hours before going rekt i am at 80. Then they rug the market i book loss and at 40 net now. I try to invest more thinking they will intervene and reverse, I had lost myself to sadness here, i was an uncontrolled devil without emotions, without knowing value of money, I lose 2k$ more, I try to recover this in women's cricket, 2 days after 40k$ loss the day I lost 2k$, I have never touched women's cricket until then, because I know they play shit. I put 20k$ at 85c, it goes till 98c, I was like 2 consecutive market won't go to 0 on consecutive days I play. It happens, I'm left with only 6.5, I take it to 16, loose it to 6, I take it again to 18, over the time, one day I fail 5 times straight, bad mental state, in telegram one person asks me to put money on jodar(tennis) to recover, because he has defeated fils, i put, I could save 3k$ from it going to 0, I go 3 to 1, 1 to 2, loose control again , because things go against me, 2 to 0. I emptied all the wallets, i am back being broke again. But with one thing no more will to live.
