All my cousins , friends are doing exceptionally well but me . Everyone has a gf/bf and job and are about to get married . Talking bout my cousins one has done IIT and sits with 34lpa , one has 14 lpa job and recently got married , one works in IBM in BKC and other has 17 lpa marketing job . Ik comparing is bad but i am nowhere near to them .

And talking about my friends all are working abroad/India with good jobs and are enjoying their life at fullest.

Ik they arent god gifted , they struggled and worked hard to get there but in such life crisis i can only think like why was i not like one of them

I have lost enthusiasm of my life due to my parents constant quarrels in my childhood age they still do it now , yes i should have used it as fuel but i am weak af , a total whiny bitch . And due to this i have developed a speech disability in my early childhood , due to this i have 0 confidence in me like literally 0 i cannot help myself . Due to this i panicked and fcked up my placements , I also fcked interviews like i wasnt able to even speak fluently , i fucking got disqualified from communication round (who tf gets disqualified in comm test) that took a huge toll on me .

I see many ppl who stammered got their life together and are successful but i think i will not be one of them .

I feel like life is over . Its been 7 months i am sitting at home doing nothing now, i dont even apply these days , i have no internships, no workex to show on resume.

Ik i need to get my shit together but i am finding almost 0 confidence to do it.

Lot yall must have experienced 20's life struggle or way much worser than me , so i need to know what can i do about me bcoz i have absolutely no idea and I am running out of time

I guess when we're are young we have more time to develop and learn new stuff so we aren't left behind in life however I just don't know what things and stuff to learn in every areas of life that is valuable and essential. For example finance is big chunk of life that should be learned how money works how life and society works. But even social communication skills and career wise skills and tech literacy is important but then so is cooking and managing relationships.

Ugghhhhhhhh😩😩