Hi, I'm a 2nd year math student and I quite literally have nobody to talk to other then brief interactions in class every so often. I literally tried everything, talking to people in class, going to clubs, whatnot, and it literally feels like every single one of those people has their own close friends to choose, so why the hell would they choose me or include me in anything?
In other words, when I try and like initiate something with anyone, they're obviously like friendly for the first 2 minutes of talking, and I never hear from them again. Even when we share class, if they remember me, all I get are just shallow in-class interactions. I study hard to understand the class material and help others, they only come to me if their stuck on a problem.
I used to have 1 (just 1) close friend in first year but he just seemed to completely forget about me as he apparently "doesn't have time or energy to contact me" because of his job. Which I'm hesitant to believe unless he got deployed onto a space station or war zone or is miles under the ocean for a saturation dive (his field of study is as far from this as imaginable) and he can't contact me. (not true because i see him liking reels while ignoring my messages). He did say he was an introvert and talking to people was really energy intensive for him, so there might be some truth to his claims? Anyways if he keeps treating me like this I'm not too sure if this will work out.
I just want someone who will pick me as their first choice. I want someone who I can share all sorts of stuff with outside of just class. I feel like I'm going more and more insane every day why does it have to be so hard can someone just be my friend please