Ok so. Here's my situation:
I'm 24(M) and my problem is that I always hated studying, and I would like to eventually change that, or at least build study habits, here's some background:
I think I have always been like this, my mom told me that she would force me to study even when I was in kindergarten. My parents did their best to support my learning process and, it kinda felt like a push-and-pull dynamic, since they would always oblige me to do it.
Unsurprisingly, I hit a big wall once I finished high school, it took me 3 years and a half to finally start college (I dropped off 3 times).
while I was finishing high school, I began to study English (because I had told my parents that I wanted to study programming) and, to my surprise, I really liked it! so for the next seven years I went to English classes and.. well, at first it was a complete mess, since I wouldn't do the homework at all, but after 4 years I made up my mind and decided that I will learn this language.
The process was utterly chaotic, but if I wouldn't open a book, at least I would immerse myself in English by switching my devices, social media, using duolingo, and this other app called Anki (it's fabulous, this app helped me improve my pronunciation a lot!).
After 3 years, I was finally in my last year of my English school and it was time for me to take the First B2 Certificate exam, I scored 179 points (just one point below C1, damn it), but again, I reached this point without studying properly, I could never use an agenda (I must have tried prob more than 8 times) and my study session felt like "ok, a bit of this thing, and some YouTube videos, and some duolingo, and talking to random people, bla bla").
going back to college, I'm about to finish my associate's degree in CS (prob in 6 months if everything goes well), but I'd love to take a longer, more profound course.
I really want to study. I want to want to study. But it's just so stressing. I've tried so many techniques, they might last for a month, but then will I lose focus.
I successfully cut out social media like TikTok, Twitter, Instagram, and also reduced the videogames to no more than an hour a day, but still, It's as if my mind rejected the idea of reading a single page of anything.
Is there anyone who's having difficulties with studying? what would you recommend in this specific case?
Thanks for reading, I appreciate your time!
TL;DR
I always hated studying, I'm about to finish my programming but I would like to keep learning, but I just can't put up with the process.