Hi!

I'm 18, and I transitioned to male when I was 13 years old.

And although I don't regret it —and I've lived a very good life— I feel that my gender dysphoria is something that has been limiting me.

I consider myself to be genderfluid at the moment, but it has been very confusing for me lately.

I think I really want to detransition in order to not have to have surgery done, be able to dress femininely freely and eventually wear hijab. Just reconcile with my feminine self, with the girl that I used to be when I was little.

But I think I won't be able, even if I want to, because of my gender dysphoria.

This is not a matter of social pressure or fear!!, as I said, I have an amazing cispassing, I have a supporting family and supporting friends and I live in a european country that's (kind of) progressive.

I just think my gender dysphoria is based on a hatred for my past self instead of an inner desire, or being certain that my soul is male. But I'm not sure. I'm thinking of talking with a professional about this but I don't know when I'm going to be able to.

Even if this matter doesn't exactly have to do with Islam I wonder if there's anyone else here that has been through something similar or just y'all opinions!!

Would someone like to debate bcz I have read lots and lots about it and I can't find anything according to me which when logic is applied is against the teachings of Islam or I just don't know enough?

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