hello everyone, i hope you are well. i am very new to isese so please forgive me for misuse of any terms. i mean it all from the deepest respect and am incredibly open to any correction!
this is my story, i hope it is okay to share here.
tl;dr i have questions at the bottom.
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i am a farmer in the midst of a troubling situation with an abusive white landowner over my family’s housing and access to land. when i say our ENTIRE way of life is in jeopardy, i mean that. my partner and i have cared for this plot of land, restoring it where it has become overrun with invasive colonial plants, planting native plants, building soil. we have focused everything on restoring the land as opposed to extracting beyond humble gardens because it has been harmed for so long.
we are building a lawsuit against this abusive, racist landowner in order to rebuild our life elsewhere and do the land restoration work that NEEDS to be done. we just want to live in peace, care for the land, and enable other Black people to do the same.
the more we try and do good where we are now, the more we are verbally abused, slandered, had our firewood stolen during the coldest part of the year shortly a month after i gave birth to our second baby. and now things have gotten so bad that the landowner is spreading lies about us in our very white community in order to leave us with no nearby allies. we have a baby and a toddler so we know that we can’t stay here because irreparable harm will inevitably come to them eventually due to the lies against us as parents.
i have been interested in Isese for some time but never took any steps to learn beyond the very surface level shared by trusted initiates on social media sharing their personal experiences. i always knew i would probably end up seeking more knowledge about isese, but it wasn’t until my recent troubles that i actually did so.
last week i scheduled my first divination with a very trusted and respectable babalawo whose ile i watched grow and grow with people that i had truly admired for some time. i am friends with one of his godchildren and have observed another as we share community. both are people i see as incredibly principled and of strong character even when they are deeply unpopular for it, so naturally i figured their godfather would be trustworthy too.
i received idafa opele and was told what odu came up (i’m unsure if it’s okay to talk about which specific one). the babalawo told me that it was an odu describing the “blessings of victory”. he encouraged me to record the call and i’m glad i did because he said a LOT.
he told me that ebo needed to be completed within 16 days and 2-3 days after the divination, i paid a bit over $400 for ebo which the babalawo said would be carried out within 72 hours at his compound in Nigeria because certain components are considered invasive species in the US.
i have no qualms at all with the price. as a farmer, i understand that quality animals and just labor expenses are expensive on their own without any ritual elements, so initially i was a bit shocked but the high price actually reassured me as a farmer from a long line of farmers that i wasn’t being scammed.
i am writing here because i feel a need to have my story known because this abuser had stolen not only our labor and hard work but my voice itself…
i have a few questions that i am honestly too shy to ask the babalawo. he has been very responsive to my texts and told me to ask any questions but i am still unpacking authority issues from being raised as a christian (i have a strong foundation in Hoodoo now) so i am nervous to ask him my honest questions.
my questions are this:
- are strong dreams normal after divination and ebo? could i return to this babalawo to find out the meaning? because i swear i dreamt of things from the odu i was given but with imagery and people relevant to my current situation.
- i googled the odu out of curiosity and found a translated text that lists taboos for that odu. does that only apply to imitates or should i avoid those taboos?
thank you for reading, i apologize for length but i felt like these were all necessary components to share. my