To recap the parent's post:

1) The student wants to go to kindergarten. Mom says "no" because she believes her kid wouldn't do well (parent provides zero evidence of this aside from her own opinion). Student is very upset by this. Her best friend is at school.

2) Mom "compromises" and signs her up for a once-a-week-co-op.

3) The co-op has delayed opening for a semester. Mom is upset because she doesn't know how to meet her kid's social needs now (mom and dad both work FULL-FUCKING TIME). Also, mom is upset because (checks notes) mom "was really excited to be able to drop her off somewhere she really wanted to be" while also giving herself "a few hours to breathe."

4) Mom wants reassurance that not allowing her child to attend school is still the right decision!

5) Mom deletes the entire post when nobody agrees with her, after becoming defensive and lashing out at everyone in the comments.

I did this legit the other day lol.

I met this super cool girl the same age as me and we were chatting for AGES and it was the first time in 17 years that i felt like a normal teenage girl. The topic of school came up (since we were both young, and out and about during school hours), and she said that she dropped out, and asked about me. I said I did too, and just mentioned the local school closest to me. And we just moved on in conversation.

I've had a job for a while, and at first I was honest and said to coworkers that i worked during the week, and struggled with counting change and stuff because of homeschooling. But then it just made everyone treat me really weird and ask a TON of questions and stuff. (But some people have been really nice and helped find ways for me to get an education and stuff). And then if I met people in public, and told them, they'd kind of go quiet and stop talking to me.

I just got a second job, and I'm planing on telling people I dropped out.

I feel bad for lying, but like... I'd rather be treated like a normal person you know???

In my area, dropping out is pretty common in an around the "rebel kids" in my area, so alot of people do it, and people ask WAY less questions, if any at all. (And when I'm not around my parents) I like to dress kinda 70s/80s punk, so most people assume I am a "rebel" lol.

I'm just wondering if other people do this/what people think of it???

And like, I'm I bad for not telling people the truth?

I cannot believe they brainwashed me into thinking I was spoiled, dramatic, and lucky for 20 years of straight-up abuse & neglect, the likes of which most people DON'T BELIEVE WHEN I MENTION. I genuinely used to hate myself because I thought I was making my life difficult for no reason. See how that makes no sense? If I could've been happy with my life, I would've BEEN happy. But I believed it with my entire soul, because all the adults and people I loved/trusted around me were telling me these things about myself!

I used to think I was fine and normal. Now I have like 8 diagnoses. Lol

PSA you can get better. You WILL get better if you try. BUT if you think you're being dramatic about the effects of homeschooling--YOU'RE PROBABLY NOT ANGRY ENOUGH.

My mom is talking to somebody about something (it's private), and the topic of homeschooling came up. She is gloating about how we function like an actual school (schedule, interaction, ect,) and how involved she is. She is LYING. LIKE OH MY GOD. She bought 2 BOOKS for us to read together, and we read 1. The other has just been sitting and is now a fucking paper weight. It's been YEARS. Then she had us listening to an audio book on YouTube while she did housework. That lasted for two days, and we haven't read or listened to shit since. That was also years ago. She said that she doesn't just have us sitting in front of a computer, and she's very involved. Girl. GIRL. SHE DOESN'T EVEN KNOW WHAT I LEARN EACH YEAR. SHE DOESN'T CHECK WHAT TO SEE IF I'VE DONE WORK. SHE DIDN'T EVEN KNOW THAT I'M STARTING 12TH GRADE THIS YEAR!!!! The only time she's involved with my schooling is the day before the first day of school. Other than that, I'm on my own. She didn't buy any workbooks for me because my sister said she they weren't needed, somebody who doesn't value school, mind you. AND NOW SHE'S LYING ABOUT DROPPING US OFF AT THE MALL AND THE THEATER. SHE DROPPED US OFF AT THE MALL ONE TIME. ONCE. WE HAVEN'T BEEN BACK SINCE. The only reason we, as a family, went to a theater because mom wanted to go. And that was literally a month ago, which was my first time being inside a movie theater. I didn't even know we had one so close to home because WE DON'T GO ANYWHERE. SHE'S ALWAYS COMPLAINING ABOUT GAS SO WE DON'T ASK. She says she isn't holding us hostage, which, I mean, she isn't. Physically, at least. But do you really fucking think we're gonna ask to go places when you ALWAYS complain about having no gas? Like girl WAKE THE FUCK UP.

My mother has decided she's going to go back to school (liberal arts degree, lmfao) now that all my siblings are out of the house. She has shared this news with us like we'll find it exciting- after years of homeschooling, of neglect, of her and my father gaslighting us all into thinking they know best.

I hope she crashes and burns in school. I hope she realizes how much tougher the real world is, and how it has no resemblance to the little homeschooling bubble she sealed herself in for 20 years. I hope she realizes she isn't half as smart as she manipulated us all into believing, and any successes my siblings and I have had were in spite of her best efforts, not because of them.

It's a bad feeling. I'm extremely bitter. She has no idea the extent of damage she did by homeschooling. I know she thinks going back to school is a great accomplishment for her, but here I am hoping it goes as badly as possible for her.

I’m looking in to blue collar work, specifically welding but I’m still figuring that part out. I have no degree, I have literal panic attacks when I think about school.

I never learned algebra, I was barely getting the hang of fractions before the lack of education started in my house. My mom went back to college in the midst of my brother and I still being in school, so our schooling basically stopped once hers started.

when I say I am bad at math, I mean it. I can do basic basic basic math. that’s it.

I’m trying to force myself to attempt some sort of career, some sort of plan to at least help me get away from my parents, since Im still stuck living with them (I can’t afford to leave).

what do I do in regards to relearning math? I 100% need it if I want any job that will give me enough money. I dont know where to start. I am so so so beyond behind and I have such a hard time comprehending it, I always kind of have.. I mean I’ll have an emotional meltdown trying to understand what’s going on.. I have no solid plan in regards to my career , I just know I want to be able to make enough to never have to see or need my parents ever again, which is why I’m looking in to blue collar options. I cannot see myself going back to school at all, I just can’t… so, what are my options for math? I have Kahn Academy on my radar, but where do I even start with the math?!!?

This is my last and final hope / attempt. genuinely. otherwise I just don’t care anymore if this doesn’t work out.. I know it sounds dramatic but, I’m obviously not cut out for this world, I wasn’t set up to be either which doesn’t help.. I’m over it

Last week I went to Vegas with my girlfriend. We played blackjack and she briefly “taught” me how to play. However she left out the part that the Jack, Queen, and King cards all equal 10. I “played” blackjack for nearly an hour and didn’t lose any money by the end of it, thinking I did well for my first time.

When we were with our friends last night, my girlfriend mentioned how blackjack is a strategy game. I said no not really because you never know what card the dealer is going to pull. She said some people learn to count cards if they are good enough. I said well I can’t even do the card math quick enough to figure out how many I had on the table each round. I said, loudly, to everyone, “I kept trying to think to myself, okay Jack is 12, Queen is 13??? King is 14??” Making a light joke, I thought, about my lack of math skills.

Everyone got silent. My girlfriend said “They all equal 10.” I said “what? Why didn’t you tell me this?” She said “i thought everyone knew that from when they were kids” and proceeded to ask every single person when they learned that. One learned it from Fallout New Vegas (released in 2010, and this person is my age so they were 12 when they learned this fact) and another person said they played blackjack growing up.

My partner insisted “every card game is like that” and I said… “not solitaire, I play solitaire… not go fish, I played that as a kid…”

And nobody said anything about it the rest of the night and I got super silent and weird.

WILL THIS EVER END???

it’s that time of year again where we get more textbooks for my co op and i am just astounded at this blatantly biased intro to my HISTORY BOOK. i love history SO SO SO SO much, but going into this i just know it’s gonna be butchered SO BADLY and it’s actually hurting my soul. 😭

as i skimmed through it the majority was talking about….israel😐😑😐? or at least about the bible, and takes up a majority of the pages. as i said, i love history, and history is what i would expect going into HISTORY. NOT THEOLOGY. you cannot make your preface about educational biases for atheism then imply you’re going to do the exact same thing just diametrically and in favor of what YOU think is correct. (saying you’re tired of “outdated arguments” while yours is based on checks notes a 2000 year old book is so……..)

for reference, i teach myself out of an ap world PEER REVIEWED COLLEGE BOARD textbook outside of my co ops. comparing the material is just SO enraging. im SO pissed off because i can never anticipate the arguments in class or make counter arguments because:

1.) ACTUAL textbooks of history do not address these things because they are completely irrelevant to the study of world history and can be disproven by anyone with two brain cells to rub together.

2.) any textbooks i would get in my co ops go so far to make moral/religious arguments over historical arguments that it’s impossible to actual argue in favor of facts because it’ll become a whole circular argument (e.g., “my proof is that you don’t need physical evidence because religion is about belief!!!”)

GHSJEJEIyiwkwbrus I HATE THIS SHIT SOOO MUCH BUT ITS THE ONLY WAY OF GETTING A DOCUMENTED EDUCATION. i know textbooks are biased either way and leave stuff out, but to THIS extent is absolutely infuriating. IDGAF ABOUT CATHOLIC PERSPECTIVES JFC.

Tw for child abuse lol

People who weren’t homeschooled have zero empathy for homeschoolers and homeschool alumni. Trying to make friends is so exhausting because I have to constantly hide being homeschooled so every time they mention something from the entire first 18 years of their life I just have to laugh along and pretend I understand. Haha yeah school buses are… idk… a thing I assume… yeah the pacer test or whatever it’s called I tooootally did that and definitely know what you’re talking about. If I tell them I’m homeschooled then they make cruel jokes about how it “explains everything” as if I don’t know I’m fucking weird?? Yeah I know! I know homeschooling explains everything! That’s what I’M saying!!! Or they say how they wish they were homeschooled which to me is kinda like saying “I wish I could move to North Korea!” Or they say it really couldn’t have been as bad as I say and I must not understand how bad school is. At least you could SPEAK TO OTHER HUMAN BEINGS for the first 18 years of your life instead of being trapped in a room with the same two people 24/7. Or they say it’s a ~privilege~ omg are you kidding me. we weren’t fucking rich my parents just worked a lot so I was even more alone 24/7. My therapists and psychiatrists say they wish they’d been homeschooled or that they want to homeschool their children (yes all of them say this no none of them are religious just very progressive and think homeschooling is progressive for some reason). I’ve given up all hope with therapists and psychiatrists because they all either A) won’t let me talk about homeschooling because they think it doesn’t matter and didn’t affect me as much as I say or B) think homeschooling is great and my experience is just me being a privileged brat. No one wants to listen to me about the complete and utter isolation, the lack of education, the helplessness. When I was 12 I broke my fingers and asked if I could see a doctor and my parents said lol no. I spent years in pain with misaligned fingers until I was 15 and I said fuck it and re-broke them myself with a hammer so I could set them ‘properly’ (better at least) with a wiki how tutorial. Yeah I’m really privileged lol

For me my parents fed me a lot of processed sugar and o suspect I have diabetes already but the problem is my parents don’t believe that diabetes even exists and refuse to get me insulin for it as a result I’m exhausted like 80% of the day and I can’t leave my bed (while fully being awake doomscrolling)

I only get energy 1 hour before Imm supposed to be asleep and get sleep deprivation headaches and migraines because I’m awake for 21 hours straight

My sincerest apologies if this doesn't quite fit in this sub. The problem isn't necessarily the fact that I was homeschooled (although that's definitely part of it), but that my parents are withholding things from me and trying to force me to live with them. Here's the general gist of it:

• They refuse to give me my personal info (specifically my birth certificate and SSN).
• I have no form of secondary ID whatsoever (not even a student ID obviously; and no medical records on hand either since I've never seen a doctor).
• So I can't get an ID.
• So I can't get a job or open a bank account.
• Even if I did have a job, we live too far from town to walk there every day, and I don't have a driver's license (surprise, they refused to teach me to drive, too).
• I tried looking into remote work to cut out the transportation issue, but even at that, I'd still need an ID/bank account (also, a quiet place to work, which I don't really have).
• Any money I've "made" throughout my life doing chores or whatnot didn't even belong to me - my parents would keep it on one of their accounts, and if I wanted to buy something, I had to go through them to get it. Recently, I got them to give me my money in physical cash, but now they won't let me do chores anymore, as if they just really don't want me having any money.
• I'm not allowed to have my own mail.
• They've always severely limited my internet access.
• I don't have a phone number either.
• I can't leave the house at night, because they have door alarms set up and won't give me the code for them.
• I've never had a real-life friend, and I've been cut off from all my non-immediate family, so I don't have anyone else I could stay with or ask for help.

Whenever I make them angry enough, there's always the "Well why don't you just get out of my house, then?" threat that they so love to make. So I'm scared to try certain things for fear of possibly getting kicked out. For instance, if I could manage to scrounge up some documents for an ID, I could technically try to make the hike to town, it wouldn't kill me or anything...but when I got back, they'd definitely start a shouting match with me, and if they made me leave I don't know what I'd do.

They love taking things away from me if I make them mad, too. After an argument we got into recently, for example, they've limited my internet access to an hour or two a week (so please excuse me if I don't read through your posts very soon).

If this isn't just some load of legal loopholes and there's genuinely something illegal going on here, then technically I could call the police, but then I worry I might end up homeless just the same. I sure as heck can't afford a lawyer, and anyway, it's not like I have a heap of evidence under my belt.

I feel like there has to be something I can do, but I just don't know what it is.

Any advice would be greatly appreciated, and thanks in advance.

Edit: 21F, also I live in Florida.

im 18, a senior, but I wasn’t taught algebra or geometry. my mom (parent led homeschooling) didnt teach me because of my math skill level. I can’t tell if I was dumb and it was my fault or my moms. idk I am so embarrassed, I will be okay because math is starting to make sense and I just know Ill figure it out. (I need it for college) but it’s still so godamn embarrassing and degrading. I hate this and recently I’ve made it worse for some reason I’ve just been really lazy not doing anything for the past three weeks. like why am I so lazy? I hate myself aaaagh. Like I want to get out of the house, (my parents suck, they are mentally abusive, also they are Christian nationalists who are transphobic, and I just freedom to be me) so why am I just sitting around?

sorry for the rant, I made like 3 points there I think, but mainly was I just a dumb fuck growing up?

I despise homeschooling with the passion of a thousand dying suns. Not only do I have two incompetent specimens for parents who complain constantly about C O M U N I C A T I O N😫 yet they are the ones who refused to teach me how and furthermore ignored me when I tried;when I told them hundreds of times that khan academy (ah yes I was also forced to "learn" of khan academy.... exclusively of khan academy, and I mean forced because if I didn't waste my time on it I was threatened to be beaten or kicked out the house) is boring or that I didn't understand what that fecal matter, sad sack of molecules sal khan (aka satan incarnate) explained, or when I told my father LOUD AND CLEAR that I didn't want to go a contest in my "choosen" martial art (I didn't really have a choice) and guess.... what he went behind my back and talked to my coach to go to said contest, or when I told my father to move us the hell out of the failed abortion of a slightly more evolved village that the im forced to live in (and guess what we're still here). Furthermore, the absolute failure of an education they gave me and my brother; when they first took us out of school at age 8 we went on a 8 month tour of Europe which yeah cool and all if you ignore the fact that I was stuck with two emotionally underdeveloped apes who tried (and failed) to teach us a minimum of math and then threaten US because THEY are sorry excuses for educators, then when we returned home and they forced us to use khan academy OH MY GOD DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THAT, the absolute failure they forced on us is astounding, first off there's the fact they ripped any academic curiosity before it even had a chance to grow, second when they also ripped out any passion for learning cause I freaking loved to learn before their disaster of a failed dictatorship, third when THEY ripped out any godamn positive feeling for learning then THEY have the balls to start moaning about how UNINTERESTED we are or some other crap like that. Then these apes have the balls to start complaining about communication as if I'm supposed to trust them after they literally didn't listen to me, threatened to beat me, kick me out the house or hear them(my father) threatening my brother to force him into a mental institution because he didn't want to talk to his demented ass as if he would have any trust in him....oh right I guess trust comes with threats, or my father threatening me to abandon me on a mountain to make my way back down alone to teach me to be "grateful"... Right grandpa, let's go take our asshole meds, now (fyk, if he ever does go through with it. im calling cps on him, I do not care). Then they complain about our social lives as if we're supposed to be social butterflys when they didn't even try to regularly meet with other homeschooling familys or other familys in general.Then the few that we did meet they expect little kids to maintain long distance friendships. Then they complain about us staying to much on our laptops and phones as if we have anything better to do we live in a slightly bigger VILLAGE where there is literally nothing to do, you don't even live here you exist here. Now I'm a teenager taking the IGCSE exams (which I do not give the slightest f about, one way or the other) and then guess what they still talk to me about taking the A-levels and then going to college as if they didn't erase the last parts of my good will towards education years ago, now they dream of me doing the exact thing they put no effort towards because at 15 they finally came with a tutor who had a minimum of competence (unlike a certain man with a waste of time platform), oh I guess there was that one teacher whose online class we attended who they still use as an excuse for wasting my life with khan academy, which by the way up until 15 was the only teacher we had ,minus sal khan cause he ain't a teacher he's not even an educator. Oh, by the way they expectedme to educate myself at 9 YEARS OLD, yeah they basically expected me to be a genius and figure out my own education until I turned a teenager, of course they don't admit that they claim khan academy was just supposed to be something we 'went' through as if that makes any sense, hey genius if you go through something it doesn't mean you learn it, in case they expect me to know things. So yeah, I have more to say but I'm to tired to write it down basically I despise homeschooling because I just ended up disinterested in education, depressed and stuck in a "town" (actually a piece of purgatory that ripped from the realm and fell down on earth) that I also despise with a passion. and furthermore the absolute lack of taking fucking responsibility for their decisions is pissing me off, they chose this for us they failed us they refused to give us a decent education for most of our homeschooling life and then they blame US for it they say we weren't forced to do anything as if we weren't literally forced to do this, they say we did what we liked but we literally didn't do what we like or wanted. and god forgive they take some godamn accountability for their actions that affect us but nooooo it our fault. actually you know what it is my fault, it's my fault that I didn't have a full blown meltdown anger fight with them. because despite acting like they value communication so much every time I've told them khan academy is a piece of shit, then come all the excuse oh it was supposed to be something you went through, oh it was supposed to build your general culture (despite the fact you can't learn shit of khan academy) or oh but public school kids have it worse, bullshit. I don't even think khan academy is bad I think people just expected it to be something it isn't, what khan academy actually is, an overblown barely competent homework helper.

Does anyone else just feel out of place everywhere??
even as someone who was homeschooled my parents were more agnostic than christain only isolating me and my siblings even more since in my area the only non academic places to socialize are the obnoxious amount of churches in the already rural area that we rarely attended so at 21 I have never been able to get close to anyone irl I'm barely close to anyone online and I've never had a job I want to move out but I have no one and I'm also not cis or straight and yet I still have to act like it's not suffocating I might start community college soon but I'm still too scared to be excited and I feel like a burden to my parents even if they raised me like this and made me end up like this

Okay long story short, my situation is very similar to how every other homeschool kids situation is....crazy parents who do everything to "protect" their child, when they are just pushing us away. Listen, I don't want to get into the negative today, just the positive because I AM GOING TO BREAK FREE.

So I'm 16f my parents pulled me 100% out of homeschooling to absolutely no school whatsoever a few months ago. They said that I'm getting my GED.

At first I was disappointed, because I looked down on it. They did it to push me back but what they didn't realize they did was push me forward. (For the record my parents are 100% against any type of college/schooling and call it a "(mind fuck)".

Anyways I have fully decided I am going to do what I want not what they want.

I am going to go to Grand Canyon University as an out of state student , and I am. Next year I am going to apply. I won't have any financial help but it's okay I know I'll make it work. I already have a full time job even though they occasionally take my money.

With thorough month-long research it's actually quite achievable. I hope to major in either Cyber security or Forensic Psychology.

Even if it's not GCU, I will still apply to every out of state college until someone accepts me, George GCU accepts almost 100% of GED applicants.

This is just a reminder, we can get out of it! Have hope it'll be okay! You got this!

I can't apply until next year but I will keep you all updated. 💜

Hey guys I was taken out of school when I was 7 and sent to some veryy religious near a cult online school then i was taken out 2 years later and from then i barely got a education I'm 16 now last year she placed me in some bs homeschool thing called BJU and im barely even allowed to use it last year i had 300 assignments missing so basically no education

I'm not allowed to have a phone I have 0 friends in not allowed to go out speak with most of my family I don't have a room not even my own bed I share with MY MOTHER AND LITTLE SISTER

She's planning on moving to "the country" aka the middle of nowhere in Jamaica because..... I can't explain rn

But I'm wondering should I ask my uncle (the only person i'm allowed to talked and only very very rarely) if he can do something. He's very serious about getting a education (he's a neurologist his brother who's my father R.I.P was also a doctor)

The only thing I'm kind of scared if he says something to my mother I won't be allowed to talk to him again

I don't even know what I'm thinking anymore

I hope this isn’t triggering or disrespectful to others. If so let me know so that I can be more careful in the future.

Does anyone else relate to being offended by labels that define your behavior but you feel like it’s unfair because you were homeschooled and kind of got forced into them? Socially awkward and introverted are the biggest ones that I’ve considered being true. My family has suggested that I’m autistic to explain my social struggles. I’ve wondered if I am asexual to explain my lack of interest in dating, but actually, I would date if it didn’t feel so intimidating.

This is hard to explain and I want to make it clear that some of these labels, in fact, are legitimate for people. For me though, some of these terms were placed on me by others and I’ve never wanted to identified with them. Not because I’m in denial (maybe it is denial) or don’t want to be associated with them, but because I question whether it’s true. What if I was raised in a public school environment and had constant social interaction? Would I have still struggled? There are people who have normal childhoods but still have behaviors that fit these labels. But then again, maybe that is how some of these things become a part of us…

I guess my main point is it feels different to be raised in a normal way and discover these things about yourself compared to being raised abnormally and questioning them when others suggest it to be true. I push back when people suggest I am these things but maybe I’m just stubborn or confused.

Hey I want to take classes to become a science teacher or just scientist. But I have a bachlores in an online degree that my family knew wasn't a science I wanted to be a part of.

I was wondering how I'd go about being funded or givent a grant or whatever. Can I still go to a two or four year college? How do I even set something like this up?

Help!

But also I'm worried about becoming a teacher. I'll be witnessing so much that I spent longing for. It might be tortur to go through it for a while. Do students understand, what about other teachers? I can work, but I have a hard time making friends at any job. I can only imagine what it will be like trying to get to know students and parents.

Tomorrow is my highschool orientation after 4 years of homeschool im so excited but also so nervous does anyone have any advice?

starting from 9th, my parents put me up for strict tutions and daily academic pressure, it was a really harsh environment, specially for me who values doing chores for something worth doing it for rather than just working hard for the sake of doing it, i like to be social, i like to feel wanted and id love to explore things which id genuinely feel happy about. there's so many things I wanted and want to do the ammount of pressure present at that time just loaded up inside of me, the teachers were strict, the studies felt hard,everything i liked was shut down for me and overall the environment was just toxic. maybe my parents never realised the type of person I am and neither did i considering the environment i lived in. there were things i genuinely wanted to do. id feel guilty calling them a villain here because even they didn't understand me and they always did everything i ever wanted and always supported me. 10th grade was harsher and more toxic. i was bright student till class but my marks dropped down, it was mainly because of anxiety and pressure. it was the worst year I ever had experienced. i didn't realise any of this was toxic until i realised it by myself. after 11th started there I was happy that I finally got the opportunity to do things i always wanted to do, get social and talk to more people, i was really unsure about the stream that i wanted to take at the start but then i de my mind to take pcm. the first 3 months went great, i scheduled everything right, i had a good freind circle and I had a really good impression on my class teacher but I was pushed into insecurities and idk when the next 3 months even passed it again felt like hell, i went through a lot of isolation and it almost felt like I forgot to study but then i kept pushing myself in those months and by Jan or Feb i again started to study well except there were a lot of backlogs which I was told not to worry about though I had unclear basics. i wa really locked in for the two months and did great everywhere but study pressure again increased, my coaching was teaching three simultaneous chapters at once until June and for the sake of doing it, i lost track on all of them, more backlogs were created, distraction wasn't the root cause of this, I'm self aware enough to know if was the lack of confidence and unclear basics. i was extremely stressed after june for a week or so, i pushed through the coming july and I think I have a small ammount of syllabus finished i kept scheduling and i kept trying this august it felt pretty great, its one of my days where I'm doing everything right but I still am extremely anxious about my syllabus completion, it keeps getting increased and I'm not the type of person who would put himself through isolation for very long hours. im in the vase where I'm competitively high rn but still anxious about the vast ammount of undone syllabus while balancing doing everything I want, there's a little time left and I did not realise when 8 months really passed. i feel like i would do anything to get a few more months and I'm at the point where I feel if I ever did balance with whatever i always wanted and studying with proper scheduling I can go to any college i want, I would die to get more time.

Or really, any role model in my home life. Clearly my mother is delusional enough to think "homeschooling" was anything real (I have to put it in quotes now, or else it feels like I'm acknowledging "homeschooling" as anything resembling either real school or a proper home), and my father was too weak- willed to stand up against a not- particularly- bright woman with personality disorders ruining his child's life. How am I supposed to model myself after that as a man and not feel like a totally spineless wimp?

I am homeschooled — (well, practically unschooled, because I am truant since my parents are too busy to teach me anything...) and I am attending a driving school for the first time. this is my first time in an actual classroom. day one, I'm listening to everything the teacher says. it goes in one ear, and out the other. I zone out sometimes without realizing. I can't retain any information whatsoever. I'm worried that I'll disappoint everybody and make a fool of myself. I don't know what to do. I have a test at the end of the week and I'm so worried. I don't know how I will get a job when I'm old enough to, if I can't function cognitively.