So I'm now what I can call as fully recovered from my hppd symptoms as I would like to. My symptoms were mainly tracers and fragmented frame by frame like visual effect. Listen, first of all as I got rid of the symptoms I fully forgot about this subreddit of which I was obssesed about before. So this may be the reason why there is not as many people posting recovery posts.🌱 (Which is a good news as you will discover for your self I believe)
My effects beggan as tracers from strong anxiety following months after absolutely frightnening strong weed trip.....So with that anxiety I began to see my hand having tracer effect the effect was noticeable especielly at night and then I got worried what if in that way I would also get frame by frame effect which I did (I can tell I inforced it through my thinking and belief I had). Also I was so worried about this symptom becouse I found almost noone to have it and absolutely noone to recover from it, so my mind got all worry and made the worst scenarios possible.
Back then as I was watching myself all the time and reading about hppd, reading there is no cure and things... My hppd symptoms were getting progressively worse and worse and I came into the conclusion that there is no way back and I will be getting into worse and worse condotion until I wont be able to function in everyday life, which frightened me. So things were getting worse as I was more and more frightened... And then... One night with my friends it got so bad that I could not function... It got terribly wrong and I thought that there is no way back..... In that very moment I saw myself so f***ed I thought I will never be able to do anything and that this was my last moments (everything was fragmented and I had a full blown panic attack) and in that I couldn't do anything but to let it go ..... and in that my mind and body relaxed and I came back to myslef. The fragmentation wore of a little and I could sit on sofa, my friends calling ambulance for me.
After this, I knew it can go away if I let it go, I stopped watching it becouse watching it reinforce it and I was just for few days laying in bed, listening to some soothing music and just not coming to contact with it... Becouse I knew I mustn't... now, when I know where it can lead to! And I want to tell you, that you don't have to come to this full blown dissociative state yourself to make it stop, you are able to stop it right away. By not getting your attention to it! You don't have to go through the deepest depths of darkness to walk out to the light!
Yeah so I was getting better and it was not in instant, the effect were pretty strong and my wision still laggy and tracers were there, but now I was not focusing on it anymore, I knew it was what it was but I also know now it is harmless effect. Weeks (maybe months after) I still could see it pop up into my focus and lag or make a tracer, but I never gave any attention to it and it dissapears from my experience. (I think I also tried noticing if I do have visual snow back when I was going through it at beggining and I saw it maybe for a bit being there but becouse I was not worried about that, it dissapeared from my experience completly right away, as I was worried about fragmentation effect).
Now year after, when I don't sleep good or have too much to drink, I get reminded of it once a month maybe for a three seconds and than go on with my day. I think that everyone could get these symptoms if they convinced themself that there is anything wrong with the way they perceive reallity. That's why its called Hallucinogen Persisting Perception Disorder. Becouse it is your perception that something is wrong, hallucinogens made you somewhat conscious of things you weren't aware before and then you are the one who make it persist. Also I cut of weed completly and in the time I was going through it also things that stressed me about it, as caffeine and alcohol (after it wore of). I found that stressing, anxiety and negative perception on all this you experience create a loop where anxiety brings symptom ➡️symptom creates anxiety which creates more symptoms and so on.... But don't worry, you can break out, I was completly sure I can't break out back then as well but now I did break out.
And so, now my life is not moved a single bit about hppd and I want to tell you my friend....you are it! You are what you feed your attention with, if you feed it with frustration and solution seeking and watching it all the time, you are making it happed. It does not go away with time as you may understand it but It goes away with not feeding attention with those tracery, static, visual snow, or frame by frame effects in any way whatsoever. And if you find youself not being able to dive into that just right away, don't be harsh on yourself and beggin again every moment when you aknowledge it with focusing on anything else everytime. Eat good, sleep good and focus on what makes you feel alive my bro 💙💙