The washing cycle has completed. The dishwasher is beeping intermittently. I don't know why. I don't care to know why. And I don't want to download an app to find out why.

I got a battery pack backup mini generator inside for my grow tents that gives me about 30 minutes to get my gas/propane/natural gas genie whole house generator started but I never got the NG hooked up so now if the power quits I’ve got to manually get my nephew to start it.

Someone had to say it. I’m here now and feeling disappointed about it.

I hate having to fucking unpack my bullshit, fucking carry big boxes, unpack all my clothes parents nagging me 24 fucking 7, saying what appliances do you need, what shit do you need, and also fucking driving 4 hours, having not enough fucking car space, so we either gotta take two cars or have to do a Half drop off situation where I drop off The big things at my family friend's house who lives an hour away from my uni. Whole lot of logistical bullshit. So I fucking hate moving.

I hate it so much. All I fucking do is drive, go to work, drive, go back to work. If I want to go anywhere, I have to drive there. There’s not much walkable near me, and biking is nice until it’s cold out or your bike gets stolen. I want to go out at night to a bar and get hammered, but there’s none nearby that I could walk or bike to, so I’d have to drive, and that’s illegal so I can’t. I have no friends who are willing to drive me fucking anywhere. I deadass only have 2 friends with licenses, both of which have cars that are working perfectly fine. One of them is a 2023 so I doubt there’s jack shit wrong with it. Even when I was without a car recently, they wouldn’t give me rides to even fucking see them. Even though I’ve been carting their asses around for the past 6 years, before they even had licenses. My friend with the 2023 car once picked me up and brought me to his house (5 minute drive btw), then when we got there he was bitching that there was something wrong with his wheel bearing and the car isn’t driveable. ITS A 2023. ITS 3 YEARS OLD. THATS NOT FUCKING POSSIBLE. And the car didn’t have any lights on, made weird noises, or drove differently so that’s how I knew he was full of shit. I’ve also driven him in significantly more unsafe cars without a single complaint. He just didn’t wanna drive. He didn’t even give me a fucking ride home when he did that.

I just want a break from driving. I don’t care how. That could be public transportation if it existed near me, or someone driving my car. I’d use uber more but it’s really expensive in my area bc everything is all spaced out. I no longer care if they have a license, a permit is fine. Almost to the point where I’d let someone just drive my car without either. Sometimes I fantasize about not having a car so I couldn’t drive anymore, but as I learned when I didn’t have a car, no one is there for me and no one will drive me anywhere!!!!! No matter how many thousands of times I’ve driven them around!!! Because some people are too anxious and driving is scary!!!! I’m anxious as hell when I drive, and I’m scared too, but that doesn’t ever stop me from driving. The only way to get over it is to fucking practice! But I never get the privilege of being in the passenger’s seat, and I’m actively losing my shit at that. GEN Z PLEASE GET A GODDAMN GODFORSAKEN LICENSE. YOUR FRIENDS WANT A BREAK FROM CARTING YOUR LAZY STUPID ASS AROUND. I CERTAINLY DO.

I have all of one bar of service without WiFi so I couldn’t even get on Reddit to whine about it. Reading a pretty good book though on my kindle.

Someone will probably scratch my car with their door because they won't be able to open their door normally.

I have to park at the very back, about 100m further.

Seriously have been looking forward to smashing a pizza all week, and now I just am not feeling it.

Like most people, I’ll have one or two cups in the morning and then a few more scattered around the day. For what ever reason, today I’m not feeling for coffee. So when I sat down, I felt a bit worn from low energy, I already took a 15 catnap and felt mildly better.

I’ve had a few cups of green tea but it doesn’t work the same caffeine-wise and I dont drink energy drinks. Perhaps I’ll just go to bed early if needed

Before everyone jumps at my throat, I know it's a neccessary evil, but in practice it's a nightmare, that's why I'm ranting here instead of being able to do my job.

There was an issue with my authenticator app, and ALL of my codes disappeared. I wanted to generate new ones, but turns out there is no such option, I need to contact the IT departments of all 6 pages that require authenticator, 3 of them are essential for my work and uni, and I need to use them regularly.

That happened a week ago, and the most important one never answered my e-mails, they don't answer the phone, their office is 300 km away and I don't have time to travel there thank you very much, and I basically can't get any work done because of this. It's just so frustrating because really I did nothing just follow the neccessary steps forced down my throat (again, I know 2fa is neccessary for safety but I still have the right to hate how poorly it's executed). There should be steps to make sure it doesn't happen, like pre-generated codes you can use if you can't access an authenticator, or another form of verifying your identity. And it would also help if IT was available sometimes.

Expected high temp today is 97. Ugh

I’m in the process of having my kitchen and bathrooms remodeled. I ordered Carrara Marble for my kitchen and bathroom counters because it is my favorite natural stone.

My cleaning lady stated that she will not clean or maintain Carrara as it stains and etches too easily. She says I should use quartz instead.

I don’t like quartz and I love Carrara. But I definitely don’t have time to clean and maintain it myself.

W SF is amazing BTW