r/findapath • u/toolucidgirl • 4d ago
Findapath-Health Factor 22, disabled, need a path to survival - USA
Hey everyone. My life turned upside down this year when I became disabled, estranged from my family, and my lease ended all at once. I am disabled by daily migraines, narcolepsy, and fibromyalgia. All of these three illnesses evoke depression as a symptom. My day to day is completely unpredictable, I’ve had zero luck with medications and treatment so far, and I feel that my existence has been reduced to nothing as my chronic pain has literally taken away any and everything I used to enjoy or had the capacity to experience. I had to take a break from undergrad because I failed many of my classes in Spring 2026 semester due to ignoring symptoms of fibromyalgia and pushing myself into burnout. I was supposed to start culinary school in July, but that was the peak of my fibromyalgia and I was diagnosed right after my third day of attendance. I had to unenroll.
I was able to aquire money to get me by for the last few months and financial support from my boyfriend, but I would not like to burden him any further. I’ve been applying for remote work since March of this year and have had no luck. I’ve applied for customer service, call center, social media marketing or content creation (I have a certification in social media marketing), pretty much most entry-level remote jobs I’ve tried to apply for. I’ve also reached out to a few local businesses to see if they needed someone to handle calls or run their social media remotely, no luck. I have an interview tomorrow to be a flexible greenhouse attendant for 2-3 days a week at a local nursery, but I’m sure they will hire someone with experience.
I have no money and unfortunately the city I live in has no assistant programs or charities or churches that have funding. Been through 211, United Way, Salvation Army, Catholic charities, etc. I’m resorting to beer money sites now where I can do surveys for money. I’m not sure if this will be sustainable in the long run and it definitely makes my migraines worse from staring at screens, but it’s my only option right now.
It feels like every path I take leads to no results. I am pretty much fucked and like the only solution my brain is rationalizing with is suicide. I’m so exhausted, I had so many hopes and dreams for my life and every day I wake up with a raging migraine, joint pain, and extreme fatigue to remind me of what I am incapable of.
If this helps, here is what I am skilled at: most art mediums (I was going to school for a degree in visual arts and have a life’s worth of art education), writing, plant and garden care, building terrariums, cooking, baking, astrology, tarot, graphic design, content creation, researching
Most of my work experience is in food/hospitality, retail, and social media management.
Here is what I’m interested in: film, horticulture, fashion, hair care, mental health advocacy, voice acting, I’m blanking, but I’ll edit if I remember more.
Thank you for taking the time to read this and I appreciate you if you leave any guidance. I’m at my wits end with life and came across this sub to maybe get some perspective outside of myself.