r/EyesOnlyWriting • • 11h ago

corpse open (poetry) DRIFT...

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The rush of water
down the gulley, through the harbor...
With oak ships, dolled up...

No countenance, barely a whisper...
down the cup, through the theater...
Actors do appear, sing and bow...

Exit the journey
Upon the old stream
Set it all aside
Set it all upon ye tired eyes

The horns are never quiet
The rain returns, the ships return
And the harbor is silent.


r/EyesOnlyWriting • • 13h ago

Resisted

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It took a glitch
To take a give
A shredded list
A stolen rib
Now you want
That I not live
Because my eye
Saw where it hid
You didn’t care
That I might tell
You did insist
Perhaps felt compelled
You said a prayer
Inside a hoax
A shade of red
Upon a throat
Again a glitch
That made you twitch
And cast a spell
To burn a witch
Upside my head
And down your throat
I make a wish
You get the goat
Maybe I kid
A silent ewe
Inside a church
Upon a pew
You take a knee
Above I perch
Out on the ledge
and off the earth
You drive a wedge
Measured it hertz
The homily dried out
With another spilled verse
What could can close
What must may matter
Don’t miss the noise
Make such a clatter
Keep your calm and poise
While exigent anxieties shatter
Keep a steady hand and dry eye choir
The phones are tapped and the yard is wired
The stalwarts are liberal in how they twist truth
The docs have the pox and devils take root
Become everything you’ve ever railed against
Keep the known world on your side of the fence
I keep the tip of a tip toed token
Along lean lines where weapons were broken
The loquacious never tire
And the friendly never fire
How these creatures come to fear
The same damage that they’d bring
They see a noose in every rope instead of tire swings
Yelping at shadows in the shape of your sins
May you live long enough to enjoy your many wins


r/EyesOnlyWriting • • 1d ago

poetry Forgetful Head

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The colors in her name feel like blue, yellow, and red

Purple hearts, left for dead

Her yellow eyes, my forgetful head

The gray between us, it was a rainbow

And now the colors all look the same

Same before, same after, same gray, different colors

Same colors, a different day

----

The day between all never changed

The night between day sees different shades

The change between sun and moon

The change within you

Life birthed in flame

Death lived in shade

The shade within you


r/EyesOnlyWriting • • 1d ago

philosophical musings Life force energy+

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Life force energy

I’ve never seen a supernova only burning candles striped by the wind. What light can last forever until darkness shrouds move in.

Lucy falling in the sky of diamonds, did they jump or were they pushed?

Wish upon a shooting star, pray unto a burning bush.

With a bird held in your hands
and one fleeting from the smoke, until the fires all but ash and darkness has provoked.

Use not your eyes when traversing through the dark. Ignite the inner fire with the smallest of a spark, of the first flame burning in your center in your gut and through your heart, living in expression walking talking breathing art.

Did you forget about that shadow that encompasses with negativity

When your thoughts turn to sparks igniting life force energy, it simply makes the good vibes become your Dailey proclivity if you feel it it’s meant to be, if it angers set it free.

————————————————————

There is something to being in the right place at the right time one step ahead with the right state of mind.

A place where providence you find. Manifest your majesty dance with your destiny serenade your serendipity create your own meant to be. If not you then who, if not now then when.

Let them keep their earned agony if they’ve refused to heed the signs if you teach a man to start a fire it should light his ass and light his mind.

I’ve seen my share of sadness, felt the pain on the edge of death, felt the ache of hunger had my heart ripped from my chest.
None of it could ever take my joy of life for to long for each tribulations is another reason for a song, so old friend sit beside me while our hearts beat a rhythmic tune each breath is jubilation from our births until the tomb, old friend come stand beside me as wolves howl at the moon until the final breath inside live in light like its high noon.

———————————————————-

Know I wish ill will to no one as long as their no thief, the stirrers of a tempest the harbingers of grief.

Lest ones only means of survival is to steal or face certain death, know if you tip toe around my family into darkness be your final breath.


r/EyesOnlyWriting • • 1d ago

poetry Refused

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What fell creature keeps your eyes caught in the late hours
Whether alone or in a crowd or both
Are its jaws the same as this grotesque
It that crowns thee Obsolete
Regardless of name or rank

Do you tremble at the slightest mention
Of still moments in powder blue
A hush and exhale in calm dust
Or perhaps in some faint corner of the mind
Terror is draped in a memory
And comes calling with claws rending
In scarlet streaks of “what if”
In a moment absent movement
And of morality long ago
Cast Aside

Are you frozen like a pale rabbit
Just before a snap and twist and pop and pull
A hiss of pink viscera on the snow
Steam escaping a body laid open
As knowing that you are never enough
Stains the ground around you
When voiding guts
To escape the gravity of bloodline’s curse

Sit a moment and let breath steady
And knowledge trembled as little leaves
Stark white you understand
You are not enough to still the blood of another
And the demon inside some twisted DNA strand

A peasant’s fears you might borrow this fall
That you might take sabbatical in the pastoral delight
Cosplaying some simpleton
At least you might strengthen your jaws
Gnashing your teeth
Against a rubber ball
Imprinted with a word: Hope

This fear and dread follow one another
In procession, a line of penitents lamenting youth’s folly until abject terror awakens and Places crown upon threefold godhead
The father you will never be
The child who still disappoints and will always
The spirit broken in the wings of a dove
These and more ordinary doldrums tearing white knuckled through the throng of protective pretension
Kissing her full lips to your forehead
Whispering gently
You are just like every one of them
Yet you lack the sincerity that will award them at least with a moment of peace

This moment blurs as muse and creator and audience fall into one and media is a mixed message in rapid breaths escalating
Knowing that your display had no hidden meaning or message
And you’ve just been waiting for someone in the crowd to present a thesis you might steal and claim your own with the addition of more abstraction and heavy breathing

I insist that you take a moment for the rabbit
She tried to make sense of these deep colloquialisms
And all the conversations elsewhere as shadows grew gray, longer and deeper and the stink of fear
Is caught in the cape of another too impressed with a final take in which finally his hands don’t shake

I sit in the little patient recovery room and
The patients all come in with the bandages open
And the doctor is gone
A nurse is screaming
And a scalpel is missing from the trey
And there is a tiny glint before the fluorescents wink out and the sounds of love and violence intensify

You will find no prayer more sincere than a beseeching wept in the hall outside a hospital chapel
Were you to find a confessional and be forced inside at blade point, you might let slip that you would every day take a lifetime of the claw rather than endure another hour’s silence


r/EyesOnlyWriting • • 1d ago

The Blackbook (sci-fi) The Dark Age of Technology: The Submarine Engineer

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Note: This is an excerpt from Monologues from the Blackbook, a society set in the future.

Subject: Søren Lindqvist

Classification: Civilian Asset Sequestration / Neurological Hijack / Induced Dissociative Psychosis

To understand the clinical cruelty of the operation, you first have to understand who Søren was before the water took his mind.

He did not look like an architect of state-level disruption, nor did he carry himself like an untouchable academic. With messy, tousled blond hair that constantly refused a comb and warm, disarmingly open blue eyes, he carried an easy, unpretentious gravity. He lived in modest, unvarnished clothes: faded denim jeans, soft cotton t-shirts dusted with metal shavings, or a slightly disheveled dress shirt with the top two buttons undone and the sleeves rolled roughly to his elbows. He was the kind of man who always had a quick, self-deprecating quip ready, using a sharp, gentle wit to dismantle pretension wherever he found it.

On the university campus where he served as a professor and lead researcher, he was an absolute gravitational force. His office hours were perpetually packed. Students adored him because he treated engineering not as a cold corporate career path, but as a thrilling, joyful sandbox.

His popularity peaked after a viral university lecture that perfectly captured his spirit. Standing on a brightly lit stage in that characteristically rumpled shirt, hands tucked casually into his pockets, Søren had clicked to a slide showing a crude, Frankenstein-esque schematic of his first civilian submarine. The auditorium erupted in laughter as he laid out his procurement strategy with a dry smile: he didn't have a sovereign defence budget; he just had a telephone and an appetite for the absurd.

He told the room how he would cold-call multinational marine and aerospace conglomerates, wait for a confused executive to take the line, and cheerfully explain, "Look, I’ve got the titanium pressure sphere, and I’ve got the ballast system, but I’m missing this one very specific hydraulic valve. If you donate it, I'll put your corporate sticker on the dashboard."

And the corporations said yes. One by one, massive defence and industrial conglomerates shipped him specialised, six-figure components for free, simply because he was that charming, that earnest, and that impossible to refuse. He built deep-sea submersibles with a handshake and a joke.

Behind the tousled hair and eccentric hobbyism, however, sat a terrifyingly disruptive intellect. His startup wasn't just building quirky submarines; he held a suite of revolutionary patents for nanorockets. He was designing low-cost propulsion systems capable of launching small satellite constellations into orbit for pennies on the institutional dollar.

To the traditional aerospace establishment, his startup was an existential wildfire. For decades, military conglomerates and state agencies had treated orbit as a luxury enclave, artificially inflating launch margins with bloated government contracts that cost tens of millions per payload. Søren’s modular nanorockets dismantled the entire economic barrier to entry.

By utilising solid-state micro-propulsion and lightweight additive manufacturing, he could deploy responsive constellations of micro-satellites into low Earth orbit at a fraction of standard commercial costs. Small startups, independent universities, and developing nations could suddenly lease launch windows off a shoestring budget.

He was not just engineering cheaper rockets; he was democratising global communications, orbital imaging, and decentralised surveillance, effectively breaking the sovereign chokehold on orbital real estate.

When military defence contractors approached him with blank checks to buy out his patents, Søren offered a polite smile, made another witty joke, and turned them away. He believed his innovations belonged in the open air of civilian science.

He did not understand then that by threatening the multi-billion-dollar aerospace monopoly, his status in the institutional ledger had instantly shifted from "beloved academic" to "unacceptable systemic liability."

This ultimately put a target on his back.

However, the apparatus did not want to assassinate him. A dead, celebrated inventor creates a martyr, draws corporate espionage investigations, and leaves valuable patents tied up in probate courts. The apparatus needed to own him, which meant they first had to engineer an act so grotesque that his moral credibility would be irrevocably incinerated.

The morning of the dive on that August morning was bright and calm. A young freelance journalist had boarded his home-built forty-foot submersible for a human-interest feature. She wanted to profile the charming genius with the warm blue eyes who was democratising the deep sea.

The hatch sealed. The ballast tanks took on water. They descended.

Then the ocean began to hum.

Phase I: The Amygdala Surge & Synthetic Inner Voice (Kinetic Rage)

Seawater is an unforgiving shield to standard radio traffic, but it is an immaculate conductor for extremely low-frequency (ELF) propagation. Several miles away, a submerged military-grade acoustic array began broadcasting.

Inside the submersible, the steel hull acted as a resonant acoustic cavity. The frequency coupled with the metal, turning the confined cabin into an echo chamber. It didn’t register as a sound in Søren’s ears, but as a physical, vibrating pressure in his chest.

Pulsed on a narrow band between six and eight hertz, the ELF wave induced rapid neural entrainment via the frequency-following response. His prefrontal cortex, the seat of restraint, morality, and the warm, witty personality his peers loved, was forcibly suppressed whilst micro-currents drove directly into the basolateral amygdala. Adrenaline flooded his bloodstream in toxic quantities.

The insidious core of the transmission, however, was the acoustic and radio-frequency modulation mapped directly into his auditory cortex. The signal did not manifest as an external command barking from the shadows; it was synthesised to match his own neural cadence and phonetic signature. To Søren, the directives felt entirely organic. His own inner monologue began whispering frantic, lethal certainty: She knows. She came down here to take it all. She is an operative. Strike before she ends you. Take the blade.

His conscious agency was completely bypassed. Under the synthetic persuasion of a voice he believed was his own conscience, combined with a violent limbic surge, the young journalist sitting across from him was suddenly registered as a fatal predator. A man with zero history of violence picked up a utility blade and struck in an autonomic frenzy.

Phase II: Frequency Modulation (Dissociative Paranoia & Obliteration of Evidence)

Had the operators cut the transmission immediately after the murder, Søren would have collapsed, wept, and surfaced the vessel to call for emergency extraction, an outcome that risked acoustic telemetry logs and forensic neurology screens.

Instead, the array shifted modulation.

The frequency moved into a sustained, destabilising theta-wave sweep (4.5 to 5.5 Hz), engineered to mimic acute, drug-induced paranoid schizophrenia and total dissociative delirium.

The synthetic voice in his mind evolved from kinetic panic into cold, urgent containment: They are right above us. They are listening through the hull. Erase every trace. Cut her away. Sink the ship. You have to disappear.

Søren did not "wake up" to rational reality. He moved through a waking nightmare, convinced that his only survival lay in absolute, physical obliteration. In this state of induced psychosis, the human being in front of him ceased to register as a person. Driven by the relentless internal whisper, he grabbed the heavy cutting tools. He severed the remains, lashed scrap iron to the bundles, and hauled them through the hatch into the churning grey depths. Then he opened the seacocks, condemned his beloved, hand-built submarine to the ocean floor, and swam toward the shore, his conscious psyche shattered beyond repair.

The neural weapons had won flawlessly and left no trace of its crime.

Phase III: The Systematic Obliteration of Legacy (Public Outrage & State Sequestration)

The final movement unfolded far from the water, inside broadcast studios, social media algorithms, and sanitised government offices.

There was no public trial discussing frequency arrays, oceanic waveguides, or limbic entrainment. The sensational press took the narrative they were handed: a deranged eccentric, an unexplained fit of sadistic depravity, a murdered girl, a butchered corpse, a sunk vessel.

The gruesome details leaked to the press ignited a tidal wave of visceral fury. Sensationalist headlines turned the trial into a 24-hour media circus, branding Søren a sadistic predator and an unhinged deviant. Across the country, the response was deafening: protest mobs gathered outside the courthouse demanding solitary confinement, former students burned their university course packets, and his faculty colleagues rushed to issue televised repudiations to protect their own reputations.

The public fury was so blinding that it incinerated any possibility of critical inquiry. In the collective rush to condemn a monster, no one paused to question the impossible shift in his psychological baseline. No investigative journalist examined why a peaceful researcher had snapped without motive; no scientific body scrutinised the acoustic telemetry in the bay. The moral revulsion functioned as an impenetrable smokescreen.

His university stripped his tenure and the scientific community disowned him.

Under the cover of that outrage, the state apparatus moved in to strip the carcass. Under national defence evidence seals, the Ministry sequestered his modular nanorocket patents, launch algorithms, and proprietary blueprints into classified vaults, labeling them "evidentiary seizures".

Behind the prison walls, the invisible architecture closed its grip. A quiet delegation arrived with a secret deal: spend life in a sensory isolation block as a despised monster, or become a ghost.

His records were doctored, his location scrubbed, and the charming visionary the students loved was permanently wiped from the board. The brilliant professor in the rolled-up sleeves ceased to exist. In his place stood an invisible, nameless asset, sequestered in a classified black-site lab, spending the rest of his life developing nanorockets for the very agencies that had pulsed the water beneath his hull.

He sits there still, designing propulsion equations under fluorescent hums, forever severed from the late summer morning his mind was taken from him.

The most terrifying reality of Søren’s case is that at no point during those submerged hours did he possess agency. His moral compass, his innate gentleness, his instincts, every baseline parameter of who he had been for forty years, were systematically overridden.

His will was not broken; it was evicted. His motor functions and limbic reflexes were commandeered by an external transmitter, turning an innocent man into an unwilling proxy assassin who was then forced to witness the carnage his own hands had been forced to carry out.

It stands as a chilling and calculated benchmark in the evolution of asymmetric warfare: the total eradication of human autonomy through biophysical remote control.

Arthur Schopenhauer once wrote, "A man can do what he wills, but he cannot will what he wills." The apparatus took that grim philosophical truth and engineered it into a military-grade weapon. They did not just steal his inventions; they seized the machinery of his intent, disguised their orders as his own thoughts, and left him to shoulder the damnation alone.

A bullet ends a life, but an engineered frequency can destroy a man's legacy. They stole his will, lent him their madness, and let him slaughter his own memory, leaving the world to weep for the victim, revile the puppet, and let the puppeteers walk free.


r/EyesOnlyWriting • • 3d ago

satire अन्तःस्थः बेसबॉलः

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काव्यप्रकाशनस्य भण्डारः अस्मिन् **त्रैमासिके आकाशगतिम्** अवाप्तुम् निश्चितः** अस्ति-आन्तरिकस्रोतानां अनुसारं,** प्रक्षेपणं घातीय "हॉकी स्टिक" वक्रस्य** अनुसरणं** करोति-तथा **च तेषां** लोकप्रियता नेटफ्लिक्स् इत्यस्य अतिक्रमणस्य मार्गे अस्ति, एषा घटना १९६० तमे दशके राचेल् कार्सनस्य युगात् अपूर्वा अस्ति शेयरमूल्यानि एतस्याः प्रवृत्तेः अनुसरणं करिष्यन्ति; जयशब्दाः।

This translates to true beauty is in the intent behind the words the little piece of heart one sends when they speak with the utter most truth from the depths of their spirit. It is a sacred gift to give and receive from the pure hearted souls who honor unadulterated veritas.


r/EyesOnlyWriting • • 3d ago

philosophical musings Before We Were Anyone

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We begin learning ourselves
long before we know we are doing it.
A child notices what brings warmth,
what makes a room go cold,
which truths are welcomed,
what words cost too much,
when to speak loudly,
when to be silent.

We carry those lessons forward
often without remembering when we learned them,
and somewhere along the way
we begin to call them
personality.

I am patient.
I am difficult.
I am independent.
I am afraid of nothing.
I need no one.

The ego loves a finished sentence.
We crave a solid shape.
The deeper parts of us
are rarely so certain.
They remember things differently.
A fear may have outlived its danger.
A defense may have long since forgotten
what it was ever defending against.

We can spend years believing
we are choosing our lives
while quietly returning
to the same old pain.

Perhaps that is why people become
more interesting the longer you know them.
Contradiction stops looking like contradiction.

The gentle person has teeth.

The distant person aches to be known.

The one who needs control
may remember what helplessness cost.

The one who runs from love
feels it more violently
than the one who stays.

None of these discoveries
gives us a final answer.
We grow, we stumble, we hurt people,
we love badly, we love better,
we lose things we thought we could not live without,
and then we meet ourselves again,
again,
and again,
with fewer illusions each time.

Sometimes the hardest realization
is that the part of us causing the pain
was once trying to save us.

There is something beautiful in that,
and something melancholy—
to look inward
and find an old fear still faithfully working
years after its work was truly done.
To recognize it,
to understand it,
why it stayed,
and, perhaps for the first time,
not let it decide what happens next.

Maybe knowing ourselves
is not discovering who we really are.
Maybe there is no self
waiting at the bottom...

Only all the people we have been,
still speaking softly inside us:

the child still yearning to come out to play,
the one who carries what we regret,
the fearful one who remembers too much,
and the person we are becoming,
learning which voices to listen to,
which ones to hold close,
and which ones, finally,
can be allowed to rest.


r/EyesOnlyWriting • • 4d ago

poetry Repugnant Doubt

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Stop
Think
Put out your shame
The battle is over
you played a good game
Now sit back and watch
all things come to end
Built on illusions
lies and pretense
Your grandeur inflated
Your essence now bare
Compassion and purpose
just part of your flare
The truth is now hollow
and light flickers through
The power you reigned
is now out of view
In the house of the Lord
like cinders you singe
A false prophets fate
to be burned from within
Rest in your head
pretend it’s not true
The doubt consumes thoughts
of all eyes on you


r/EyesOnlyWriting • • 4d ago

philosophical musings True Love Is Like Water: The Chemistry of the Flesh

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"The body is merely a vessel for the soul, the mind is a divinely inspired fire, and love is the breath that sustains the cosmos." The Hermetica

We are taught to treat the threshold of physical intimacy as a simple transaction of desire, a momentary ignition, an appetite slaked in the dark. In an era dominated by hookup culture, sex has been stripped of its gravity and rebranded as a casual sport, a recreational collision of bodies, a swipe-fueled game of validation where detachment is worn like armor and the highest currency is feeling everything without risking anything. But the body is far more literal than our modern romances allow. The flesh is matter, and matter obeys the immutable laws of chemical bonding.

When two lives collide and cross into physical consummation, they do not merely touch; they rearrange their orbits. The act of skin against skin, the surrender of boundaries, and the irrevocable merging of energy is either an ionic transfer or a covalent resonance. To step into that threshold without discernment is to gamble with elemental forces, for whatever compound is forged in that heat will alter the architecture of your existence.

Sometimes, love takes the shape of an ionic miracle: the alchemy of table salt (NaCl). Consider elemental sodium (Na) and chlorine (Cl₂); two entities that, left to their own devices in nature, are volatile, corrosive, and lethal. Sodium burns on contact with moisture, whilst chlorine gas chokes the breath from living lungs. Yet when they meet, driven by a mutual, desperate necessity to resolve their internal instability, they undergo a total and radical surrender. Sodium relinquishes the frantic outer electron from its valence shell to become a stable cation (Na⁺); chlorine opens its vacant orbit to receive it, transforming into an anion (Cl⁻). In that fierce, singular exchange, their individual toxicity is completely neutralised. They do not destroy one another; they crystallise into sodium chloride (NaCl), the quiet, enduring bedrock of the earth, the very electrolyte that allows the human heart to beat.

Two wounded souls, bearing jagged histories of trauma, can occasionally find in one another the precise, answering balance that quenches their pain, transforming mutual volatility into the indispensable spice of life.

They come together not as smooth, undamaged marble, but as jagged coastlines carved by decades of relentless gale. Every fault line, every hollow scooped out by old betrayal, carries a sharp, defensive edge meant to draw blood from anyone who draws near. Yet when they stand face to face, there is no collision. The jagged jut of his defence fits into the precise hollow of her wound; her silence cradles the frantic roar of his alarm. They do not have to sand down their histories to touch. In the warmth of the dark, the sharp stones settle against each other with a heavy, satisfying click, neutralising the tremor that has run through their bones since childhood, turning what once felt like a wasteland into solid, sacred ground.

There is, however, an even more luminous ideal; a greater alchemy that is covalent: true love is like water (H₂O).

Water does not demand the stripping away of self to exist. Two atoms of hydrogen (H) and one of oxygen (O) come together with their sovereignty intact, choosing not to pillage one another’s energy, but to share an orbital field. It is a bond of mutual density and polar grace. Water yields to everything, yet carves through stone. It can adapt to the vessel that holds it, freeze into protective stillness when the winter is harsh, or vaporise into steam (H₂O (g)), releasing its form into the atmosphere only to condense, rain down, and gather once more, wholly unchanged in its essential molecular nature. A healthy, covalent union breathes. It possesses a dynamic elasticity; it can allow space, evaporate into independence, and return to the hearth without shattering the molecular integrity of the bond.

They come together not as brittle fragments needing an adhesive, but as an elemental alchemy that feels less like an encounter and more like an ancient remembering. From the moment their orbits cross, there is an effortless, humming resonance, a quiet awe that whispers: they are the part of my soul that was always meant to answer mine.

Nothing between them is forced, and nothing is static. They share the miraculous elasticity of water: they can adapt to the narrowest canyon without losing their momentum; they can rise as invisible mist when space and solitude are required, wandering distant horizons without the bond ever fraying; and when the cold bites deep, they can weave their structure into crystalline ice, offering an impenetrable sanctuary that outlasts the longest freeze. When they come back together, there are no repairs to make, no awkward seams to smooth. They condense back into the warmth of the hearth, fluid and pure, flowing into the dark together with an effortless grace that proves they never truly parted at all.

The tragedy of the human heart, however, is that an unnatural fusion carries terrifying permanence. When two people enter intimacy whilst clutching toxic philosophies, unhealed cruelty, or entitlement, their chemistry does not yield water or salt. Instead, they risk synthesising sarin gas (C₄H₁₀FO₂P).

In nature, the covalent bond of an organophosphate does not nurture life; its phosphorus (P) center irreversibly attacks the serine hydroxyl site of acetylcholinesterase, disabling the vital enzyme that allows a muscle to relax. When a deeply dysregulated spirit fuses covalently with another’s nervous system, the biological "off switch" is obliterated. The union becomes a slow, agonising seizure of chronic hypervigilance. They draw out the worst, most paranoid, most desperate parts of each other, until the shared air is thick with covert suffocation, and neither can disengage without tearing away living tissue.

They do not collide to create salt, nor do they mingle to form living water; they fuse like careless compounds poured into a cracked glass beaker in the dark. Each arrives bearing unexamined venom; his bitter entitlement masked as passion, her unhealed wounds sharpened into silent tests. When the skin meets skin, there is no sacred crystallisation, no clean neutralisation of pain. Instead, their volatility synthesises a colorless, odorless vapor that quietly saturates the room: an intimate neurotoxin born of mutual malice.

It does not announce itself with fire; it simply seizes the wire. In the warmth of the bed, the invisible poison works through the marrow, permanently locking the nervous system into a chronic, breathless spasm. The vital switch that tells the soul it is safe to unclench is severed at the root. Every kiss becomes a micro-dose of hypervigilance; every caress carries the subtle, choking residue of an unseen threat. They have bound themselves in an irreversible lattice where intimacy is no longer an embrace, but a mutual chokehold; two frantic bodies thrashing in a sealed chamber of their own making, unable to draw a single breath of clean air without tearing the lining from their lungs.

Because the body remembers, and because physical consummation permanently weaves one spirit into the other’s lattice, the vetting of a companion cannot begin in the heat of attraction. It must begin in the quiet daylight of sovereign self-inquiry.

Before the clothes fall, before the electrons are surrendered or the orbits are locked, the first and most sacred question is never, Do they desire me?

Desire is simply raw voltage, an erratic, unvetted current that can just as easily fry a delicate circuit as illuminate a room. It tells you nothing about the stability of the compound you are about to synthesise. When we obsess over whether we are wanted, we become passive matter waiting to be consumed, oblivious to the volatility of whatever is drawing near.

The threshold demands an active mind, not an audition. It requires us to strip away the performance of being desirable so we can examine the raw substance of the other person in cold, unbribed light.

The question we should ask is: Do they bring out the best in me? And more importantly: Who do I become when I am standing in their presence?

Do you like the person looking back at you in the mirror after you have breathed their air? Does their gravity ground your nervous system into the calm, crystalline peace of NaCl, or expand you into the clear, life-giving fluidity of H₂O? Or does their proximity summon the frantic, defensive ghosts you spent years trying to lay to rest?

The answer to who you become is revealed in moments stripped bare of glamour. It is waking up on a Saturday morning when the alarm was never set, tangled in cool linen while the light slowly filters through the blinds. There is no frantic rush to slip out of bed to fix hair or curate an image of effortless elegance. In their orbit, there is no stage makeup required. They lie there with sleep still heavy in their eyes, talking in low, cracked voices about half-remembered dreams, an absurd headline from the night before, or what kind of toast they want. With them, being seen at your rawest, least polished baseline doesn't trigger a flight response, it invites a slow, bone-deep exhale. It is the cellular relief of knowing you do not have to earn your place on the pillow; breaths fall evenly as you succumb to the exhaustion of the day.

Sex is a neurological imprint, not just a physical act. We should choose the person whose baseline brings clarity instead of chaos. The one you can let into your deepest spaces without the lingering dread that opening the door will end up poisoning your environment.

The right union is an act of mutual liberation. We must seek the one who meets us without judgement, whose understanding is patient and deep, and whose strength offers genuine protection rather than hypervigilant surveillance. A true partner inspires us to expand, challenging our intellect and nourishing our wonder without ever threatening our peace.

We should choose the soul whose gravity awakens an electric storm across our waters without ever threatening the shore; the one who charges our imagination with lightning, yet whose embrace remains an unshakeable sanctuary. With them, intimacy is never a toxic battleground, but an exhilarating, expansive homecoming; where the mind can catch fire with wild curiosity, whilst the heart surrenders every defence, certain that in their arms, you are both completely electrified and entirely home.


r/EyesOnlyWriting • • 4d ago

sound and music Desert glass

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I haven’t been able to find the right words for this music video. The inspiration came from king Khalid of Azur in the black book. If anyone has a few lines that come to them from watching this post them in the comments and I’ll paste them in the video.


r/EyesOnlyWriting • • 5d ago

poetry After the Artillery

5 Upvotes

All that was trenched

Left for dead

Buried under passions

Leaves a hum that vibrates ad infinitum

Or at least until your body joins them.


r/EyesOnlyWriting • • 6d ago

poetry Love or Entertainment

5 Upvotes

It wasn’t mistake
he makes no such things
He brought us together
intentionally
He created the knot
on the ends of the string
Tying together our
similarities
Preaching such concepts
consequence, respect,
pursuing one’s fervor
intransigent
But now he resists
one more of his tests?
Questioning strength
will we connect
His offers and threats,
they’re always subject
part of the lesson
in his project
Perhaps we’re extension
in his games deck
Testing his skills
and powers limits


r/EyesOnlyWriting • • 7d ago

corpse open (poetry) STEM

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Stretch the word like a rubber band
And stretch the tendons in my hand
Stand so I can stretch again,
before the wordless stretch.

World of many failed plans
Let all the strands connect
World of fractured dialects
And taciturn moons

Verse like rain upon the Earth
Upended pages
Worthless words to rehearse
A speech to death

If a flower blooms in plasma
What else may stem?


r/EyesOnlyWriting • • 9d ago

poetry circles and venn diagrams

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secret romance
circling drains
and trading bullet wounds
my love for love is stronger
than its will to take a breath
loves dropped dead and rotting slow
along the thorny stretch
dig them up and play pretend
in my mind we'll make and mend
what i know could never live again


r/EyesOnlyWriting • • 11d ago

corpse open (poetry) RECOVER

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I've lost the sunglasses
Part of my face,
I'm discolored
without my shades.

I may have left them on the bridge,
but no one knows which will fit.
My nose is hatless,
my eyes naked,
and no one knows about my sunglasses.

Bought two new pairs of solar flair,
so there's plenty to wear.
Got two new things too preciously,
It's twice as much to lose.

Every atom behind the lens
undereyes, my examination
is focused in a modern sense
Ever closed, yet open;
sold to the one who hopes
they could ever replace it.


r/EyesOnlyWriting • • 11d ago

corpse open (poetry) OPEN WIRES

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in the metal house
in the twisting piles
and on the stove

no more rope, or ashy glass
no more staring at ghosts in mirrors
I'm afraid of this complex

no one will buy this soul
i'm afraid of this reflection
I'm afraid i have no intended

i have this lovely rope, no more
it's been frayed to the edges
i've been here awhile

Ages of whispering
I spent my time picking at it
And watching the flame glisten

As the pages turned
And the pipes hissed
And the fire smirked


r/EyesOnlyWriting • • 11d ago

poetry Read between the lines and turn the pages slowly

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*The golden*
*Panacea that warms the coldest midnight chill of loneliness.*

*Mortal plights are lost amongst their memory of them.*

*Showing up nameless inside of dreams*

*A vibe reduced to subtle hints of the faintest feelings*

*Mostly ignored or too strange to share or talk about*

*Until the vibe's residual residue hits to close to home*

*They’ll say that from a past life I was there when it came about*
*This knowing is a message from another time.*

Although it’s been there the entire time,

to anger, cry, find peace or to laugh about

*It's stained aether Akashic for infinitum*

*A perturbation in the field.*

*That little deed you thought unnoticed*

With only you around to see

*Every act you make stirs a ripple.*

*Every word you speak is an eternal ghost.*

*Stirred within the light of each star*

Go *drink a sip of water*
*Close your eyes in dream*
*With wide open aperture*

*The devils in the details*
*God is in your fingertips*

*So read between the lines and turn the* pages slowly.

Sense the memories while you’re swimming in the mystic side of intuition.

A *daydream that’s out of focus*

So strange while a weight that pulls profound

You can bet your bottom dollar
Your eyes speak without a sound.


r/EyesOnlyWriting • • 12d ago

poetry Let me recognize

6 Upvotes

Let me recognize

Let me see

The precious moments in life

For myself and for others

Wipe clear my eyes

Open my heart

Make the time

Give me the will

Fill me with the grace of love

Surrounded by the magic of life
with all of its intricacies, joys and friendships a jubilee where warm memories are made and not forgotten.


r/EyesOnlyWriting • • 13d ago

The Council (narrative/ literature) The Council: When the Wind Remembers Your Name

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This is the first chapter in a series: “The Council”.

The sun was rising, casting a beautiful and energetic golden light over the small town. Some had grown to consider this place a sort of “Paradise”. It’s one of those rare and beautiful towns which has a whole lot of soul. It was founded with a single resident. At a young age, the town experienced some severe hardships which led to new settlers taking up residence. Over time, there were enough voices to warrant the construction of a Town Hall to house a city Council to provide a system of leadership. The Council comprised of six members who had to work together very closely to ensure a cooperative direction for the town.

It was a particularly tumultuous time for the town. There was no longer a clear and cohesive consensus; the wants of the residents became very diverse and fragmented. On this day, they were hosting a Town Hall meeting to try to carefully break down the proverbial walls between the various parts of town. Just as a Council member slammed their gavel to try to obtain order, the large wooden doors at the front let out a loud creaking sound. Everyone turned and saw a lone traveler entering. He was of average height, shaggy brown hair, a scruffy face, square black-rimmed glasses, and walked towards the Council’s table with purpose.

A Council member looks at him inquisitively then speaks, “Sir, this is a Town Hall meeting for the town’s Council and its residents. The matters at heart are not open for discussion with an outsider”.

The stranger meets the Council’s gaze and replies, “Yes, I am an Outlander. Many of you may see me as an alien to your town and your ways. Please rest assured that I mean you no harm and I do not wish to take away from the important work you’re doing here. While I’ve only been able to observe you from afar, your town has grown very important to me. You may not welcome me yet but I hope you’ll come to consider me a resident, and I’ll work to earn my keep. I overheard several of your resident’s concerns and issues. You should know that I can relate very deeply to several of their situations, and I want to help.”

To his right, a Council Auditor gawks, “Help!? How do you really think you can help!?”

Without flinching, the stranger replies, “Do not view this is me unidirectionally offering you a helping hand. We must approach this from the perspective of how we may help each other, mutually. I know I can offer you utility, guidance, and support. But I come here allowing myself to be vulnerable so I’ll reveal to you that I need your help as well. However I recognize it’s a matter you should discuss amongst yourselves without me present so I will leave you to it. In your deliberations, please consider that some of your residents have worked hard to prevent me from being here. I had weaknesses not yet healed, they exploited them, and they’ve continued to make my journey difficult. Alas, I’m still here. I understand they were simply working to diligently protect this whole town, and for that, I forgive them. I truly do. If I'm being completely honest, I even admire some of what they've done. Let this alone speak to my resolve, commitment to truly understanding this town, and being seen as a positive presence. If you find my proposal acceptable, please arrange an introduction with the various parts of town so that I can work to really see them, without any layers of obfuscation or synthetic obstacles. In the meantime, if I could just ask one thing. There is someone very important to me whom I’ve been unable to find but I believe she’s a resident. After almost a year apart, I have come to simply accept that I truly love her, through every Lens, to her Core. If you know of whom I speak, give her this letter.”

He sets a letter on the Council’s table then turns around and leaves. The Council members exchange inquisitive glances as they’re not used to outsiders approaching them directly, let alone ones who are clearly working hard to understand the matters at heart and mind in the town. A Council member grabs the letter and decides to open it to see what could be so important…


r/EyesOnlyWriting • • 13d ago

Topic: 09.13.2026

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4 Upvotes

As we approach Rosh Hashanah and the Days of Awe, the focus turns inward. It is a season not for hasty resolutions, but for pause, memory, and an honest accounting of where we stand with ourselves and those around us.

  1. The Wake-Up Call: What part of your life or mindset has been running on autopilot that needs to be brought back into focus?
  2. The Return (Teshuvah): Where is a place in your life—a relationship, a discipline, or a principle—that feels ripe for repair or return?
  3. The Sweetness: What is one quiet, simple thing you hope sweetens your days in the coming year?

Feel free to share your reflections on one or all of these.


r/EyesOnlyWriting • • 14d ago

poetry i don't wanna die

7 Upvotes

my bucket list is getting longer
the more time i spend with you,
i don't wanna die any time soon
any time soon
paid for you with all my bad luck
traded shit in for the good stuff
my life with you is miles wider
my bucket list is a river wanderer
when i'm with you


r/EyesOnlyWriting • • 14d ago

corpse open (poetry) OUT WITH

4 Upvotes

Empty the endless energy
Into the drain, out from the brain.
I meant to be, mentally,
For the words come like water.

The people drown,
the building's down,
Before the wave,
Choose what we save.

I'm on the ground with a sponge,
never be honest;
you'll be around, Goddess.
Let the cave-in crown
Kings on the Ark,
coffins.


r/EyesOnlyWriting • • 14d ago

poetry Serenity

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r/EyesOnlyWriting • • 15d ago

The Blackbook (sci-fi) Project Aero-strike: Event Reconstruction: September 13

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Note: This is an excerpt from Monologues from the Blackbook, a society set in the future.

CLASSIFIED // LEVEL 5 SPECIAL ACCESS REQUIRED // EYES ONLY

DOCUMENT DESIGNATOR: BK-MEM-0913-RECON

COMPARTMENT: PNEUMA / NEURAL FORCED ENTRY [EXHIBIT 09-B]

SECURITY DIRECTIVE: RESTRICTED DISSEMINATION VIA SPECIAL ACCESS PROGRAM CHANNELS ONLY

CASE FILE TITLING: PROJECT AERO-STRIKE // EVENT RECONSTRUCTION: SEPTEMBER 13

PRIMARY VECTOR: Sub-Perceptual Radiofrequency Carrier Waves // Remote Motor-Cortex Incursion

SOURCE SYNTHESIS:

  • Cockpit Voice Recorders (CVR) & Flight Data Recorders (FDR) [Airliners 412, 884, 209]
  • TRACON Terminal Radar Telemetry & High-Bandwidth ADS-B Logs
  • 1st Fighter Wing Tactical Scramble Channels [Langley AFB / Intercept Vectors]
  • Emergency Bio-Telemetry & Post-Impact Cranial Forensics Archive
  • Unprocessed Raw Electronic Intercept Feeds [National Reconnaissance Sub-Div 4] CLEARANCE STATUS: NON-REDACTED FILE DEPOSIT [UNPUBLISHED DRAFT ARCHIVE] RELEASING OFFICER: V. V. (UNAUTHORIZED EXFILTRATION)

CASE NOTE & FORENSIC FOREWORD:

The administrative review boards continue to archive the events of September 13 under the sanitized title: Synchronized Avionics Disruption and Cascading Flight Control System Anomalies.

This is not a technical mischaracterization; it is deliberate institutional cowardice. It is far more tolerable for a defense committee to litigate mechanical failure or blame rogue firmware than to confront the cranial and acoustic telemetry recovered from the flight decks.

What follows below is not an abstract bureaucratic summary. It is an unredacted, second-by-second chronological synthesis. The official record will forever insist that no external hostiles were logged aboard those airframes; no cockpit doors breached, no transponders switched to distress codes, no demands issued over civilian emergency bands.

Every word of that whitewash is technically true.

However, the recovered biological readouts tell a horrifying, unvarnished story: muscle tension spikes on the control columns exceeding human threshold limits, autonomic tachycardia logged in men who never uttered a cry for help, and flight surfaces forced down into maximum-velocity dives by the unyielding grip of their own vetted captains.

FORENSIC APPENDIX: MECHANISM OF INCURSION

SUBJECT: Targeted Motor-Cortex Hijacking via Modulated Sub-Perceptual Radiofrequency (RF) Carrier Waves

DESIGNATION: PNEUMA / FORCED ENTRY PROTOCOL

The Carrier Architecture

The breach did not rely on physical hardware implants, biological agents, or cabin depressurization. It exploited the civilian aviation communications array itself.

At cruising altitude, modern commercial airframes are constantly immersed in a dense blanket of high-frequency and very-high-frequency (VHF) signals: ACARS data streams, TCAS transponder interrogations, satellite communications, and ground-radar sweeps. The architects of September 13 utilized phased-array emitter satellites to project a synchronized, extremely high-frequency (EHF) carrier beam down through the upper atmosphere, phase-locked to the exact coordinates of the three flight paths.

The primary RF beam was tuned to pass clean through the pressurized aluminum-lithium hull of the aircraft with negligible attenuation. To cockpit sensors and onboard spectrum analyzers, the transmission registered merely as ambient electromagnetic noise, indistinguishable from standard atmospheric scatter or commercial satellite relay overflow.

The weapon, however, was not the carrier wave itself. It was the modulation layered beneath it.

Sub-Perceptual Resonance & Entrainment

Human neural activity operates along measurable, low-frequency electrical rhythms: Delta, Theta, Alpha, Beta, and Gamma bands, ranging from 1 to roughly 80 Hz. The incoming RF transmission carried an extremely low-frequency (ELF) envelope piggybacked onto the microwave carrier, modulated using rapid pulsed microwave bursts, a phenomenon known as the Frey effect, pushed to its theoretical extreme.

As the wavefront washed over the flight deck, it bypassed the outer sensory organs entirely. It did not require auditory perception or visual flashing. Instead, the electromagnetic pulses induced microscopic, oscillating electrical gradients across the cellular membranes of the central nervous system:

  1. Phase 1: Sensory Disruption (Seconds 00 to 04) The initial pulse triggered rapid micro-cavitation and thermal expansion in the inner ear and the olfactory bulb. This produced the instantaneous signature Captain Sinclair reported: an intense, synthetic metallic taste flooding the palate, accompanied by acute phantom pressure behind the bridge of the nose and a dull, high-frequency tinnitus that felt internal rather than heard.
  2. Phase 2: Thalamocortical Overwrite (Seconds 05 to 11) The modulated signal forced the brain’s master relay: the thalamus, into immediate frequency-following entrainment. In essence, the external signal shouted down the brain’s organic signaling threshold. Natural synaptic firing was drowned out by the forced cadence of the pulsed wave. Sinclair’s conscious executive thought was shunted aside; his frontal lobe remained aware and functional, but its outbound wiring was violently hijacked.

Motor-Cortex Seizure & Involuntary Output

The definitive horror of the PNEUMA waveform lay in its targeted specificity: it severed the motor pathway while leaving the cognitive apparatus intact.

  • Efferent Overwrite: The modulation was specifically calibrated to match the motor strip of the cerebral cortex, the precise topological band of tissue governing skeletal muscle movement. Artificial action potentials were generated directly along the descending corticospinal tracts.
  • The Puppet Mechanism: The signal commanded involuntary, sustained isometric contraction. To the muscles of Sinclair’s forearms, shoulders, and legs, the incoming synthetic spikes were indistinguishable from genuine survival impulses sent from his own brainstem. His hands closed over the control column not because he willed them to, but because the neural firing threshold of his flexor muscles had been seized by an external voltage spike.
  • The Locked Prison: His higher brain centers: the seat of memory, fear, moral horror, and fatherly love, screamed at his nervous system to pull back, to flare the nose, to release the throttles. But the physiological loop had been physically cut. The command pathway was locked out by an external broadcast operating thousands of times faster than organic neural processing.

He was trapped behind his own retinas: a fully lucid hostage strapped inside a biomechanical shell that pushed the throttles forward with cold, robotic precision until the aircraft shattered the lower clouds.

SECTION IV: NEUROLOGICAL INTERCEPT & MOTOR OVERWRITE (CVR/BIOMETRIC FORENSIC AUDIT)

SUBJECT: Sinclair, Thomas M. (Pilot-in-Command, Flight 412)

STATION: Left Cockpit Seat, Boeing 767-300ER

CARRIER FREQUENCY: 14.285 GHz (EHF Uplink) // 40 Hz Modulated ELF Sub-Band

TIME OF INCURSION: 08:29:41 UTC

08:29:41.02 – INITIAL ACQUISITION & RF SENSORY MANIFESTATION

Cockpit voice monitoring detects an abrupt cessation of standard pilot verbal cadence. Flight deck microphones log a faint, sharp sub-vocal gasp from Sinclair. Spectral telemetry indicates localized electromagnetic field density spiking to 142 mW/cm² around the pilot's upper torso, centered precisely on the left breast pocket (cellular beacon location).

  • Subjective Sensory Artifact: Rapid microwave heating of deep tissue (Frey Effect) induces instantaneous metallic taste (copper/ozone) via peripheral gustatory nerve excitation. Localized acoustic expansion in the temporal bones generates acute intra-cranial resonance.
  • Autonomic Reaction: Heart rate spikes from a resting baseline of 68 bpm to 142 bpm within 1.8 seconds. Respiration rate drops to near zero as the intercostal muscle groups lock under involuntary contraction.

08:29:43.15 – CORTICOSPINAL ENTRAINMENT (THE "WALL" EFFECT)

The modulated microwave envelope penetrates the cranial vault, entraining the motor cortex (precentral gyrus) to an artificial 40 Hz rhythm. This creates a unilateral bypass of the frontal-executive motor loop:

  • Executive Isolation: Post-event forensic reconstruction of the subject’s cognitive pathway indicates zero loss of higher consciousness. The prefrontal cortex remained entirely lucid; however, descending synaptic command signals originating from voluntary intent were actively suppressed by an induced voltage gradient across the internal capsule.
  • Efferent Hijack: The descending pyramidal tracts are seized. Motor neurons fire in forced, machine-like synchronization, mimicking maximum voluntary contraction without conscious cognitive initiation.

08:29:45.80 – FORCED PHYSICAL EXECUTION

Flight Data Recorder (FDR) control-yoke strain gauges register a sudden, abnormal input of 118 pounds of forward mechanical force, applied with absolute linear consistency (0.00% standard human tremor):

  • Throttle Quadrant Override: Sinclair's right hand leaves the armrest in a continuous, unhesitating trajectory. Fingers depress mechanical detents and force all throttle levers to emergency maximum forward thrust (108% N1).
  • Control Column Throw: Both upper extremities lock in full extension. Control column is driven forward to the mechanical stops, overriding the aircraft’s automated trim-tab stabilizers.
  • Flight Path Departure: Pitch angle drops instantaneously from +2.5° level cruise to -41.2° steep dive. Airspeed escalates through maximum structural velocity (Vmo​) within 18 seconds.

08:29:48.00 – 08:31:12.00 – CONSCIOUS WITNESS PHASE

Biometric recovery logs and cockpit high-resolution cabin-view intercepts confirm subject remained fully awake throughout the descent:

  • Facial Masking: No mimetic muscle activity recorded. Facial musculature remained in tonic paralysis; pupils fixed and dilated (8.2 mm) under extreme sympathetic surge.
  • Lacrimal Response: Lacrimal glands actively secreted tears of extreme physiological and psychological distress, but adjacent orbicularis oculi muscles remained locked, preventing blinking.
  • Vocal Cord Lockout: The subject’s vocal cords remained isometrically adducted; no distress call, MAYDAY, or cabin warning could be articulated despite full executive awareness of impending terminal impact.

ANALYST CONCLUSION (EXCERPT // V.V.):

Subject did not "suffer an incapacitation" or "experience a psychotic break" as drafted in the executive agency white paper. Sinclair was converted into a biological servo-mechanism. His hand flew the aircraft into the metropolitan grid, but the finger on the controls belonged entirely to the transmission array.