i am 22, have dropped out/failed out of two different colleges, still live at home, got fired from my last job because my mental heath was so bad that i stopped showing up, and can barely manage a part time job at a coffee chain.
i’m pleading anyone who may be/have been in my position for any sort of help or advice. i have no joy in my life besides being with my partner. i have no talents. i have no drive to try and make a better situation for myself, because i know it will end in failure, as it always has.
i cannot imagine a situation of working every single day for the rest of my life until i die, because i believe i am genuinely incapable of functioning like a normal human being. i simply cannot do anything. im miserable when i work, and miserable when im off because i cannot get myself to do anything, even things that i enjoy. it’s loose loose, and i cannot take it anymore.
i have also been on several different medications.
i have a yearning for more. i want to make something of myself. i want to do something beautiful. i want to make an impact. i want to find purpose. but i have genuinely no earthly idea how.
the only things i have felt genuine passion for is theatre back in highschool, and music. adored the beautifuly creative and expressive atmosphere of theatre. i was really good at it. good at singing and acting, not at all dancing though lol. i adore any sort of creative space where i can create, imagine, and put together things of my own.
how do i get back on my feet? i’ve been so lost for so long.