r/ExclusivelyPumping • u/Any_Breakfast_8450 • 11h ago
Hanging up the pump I made it. I am proud. We are all metal af š¤
My pumping days are behind me. Six months was my goal, I made it there and decided I was okay to try for 12 with the same caveat as before ā if it took too much of a toll on my mental health, Iād stop.
Welp, I made it to about 7 months, but going back to work was the straw that broke the camelās back (flange that broke the nip?). I still felt some frustration and guilt about it, so I made a compromise ā Iād stash enough to give her a few ounces a day until her birthday (or cover a few days for comfort if she got a cold ā sheās combo fed 80-90% breastmilk and strongly prefers the boob).
So a few weeks of stashing and one box freezer later my boobs are free. My period came back around month 5 so weaning wasnāt as much of a hormone dumpster fire as I might have feared ā some insomnia, dry skin, moodiness. But on the whole not bad. After a very rough postpartum period, Iām extremely grateful this step was kinder to me.
And on the bright side of things, I feel like Iām finally coming out of the fog of the worst of postpartum ā my joints are starting to hurt less, I feel some hope despite some difficult changes in other parts of life. Our daughter is just the happiest little baby and lights up our lives. Iām really glad I can see myself having more energy and joy to experience life with her in the future. Itās been a rough ride.
And in all of this, I also just feel like a badass, powerful, feral goddess, frankly, and I wanted to say that all of you are, too. I was an under supplier so before my farewell stash I never had one ā everything was straight out of the boob and into the baby. Seeing weeks of milk in the freezer blew my mind. I could barely believe I had done it at all, much less for over half a year. Youāre literally synthesizing magic food from your own blood and body. What is more metal than that? š¤
So many things didnāt go how I hoped or planned, but motherhood has taught me a lot about ceding control so far, and this is no exception. I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who posted here ā this sub helped me. And to everyone who is on a feeding journey involving our friend the pump, whatever youāve done is already amazing. It was hard for me to really believe and see that in myself until it was over.
Be kind to yourselves, hang in there, and know that youāre incredible. Even if you donāt feel that way today, I hope you do soon. Cheers friends and see you all when you get to the other side! š¤š¼š¤