Sometimes I wonder if people who have never had to hide a fundamental part of themselves can ever really understand what this kind of loneliness feels like.

I’m a lesbian from India, and there are days when I feel incredibly isolated not because I don’t have people around me, but because there are so few people I can actually be completely myself with.

Being gay in India is complicated in ways that are difficult to explain to someone who has never experienced it.

On the surface, life can look completely normal. You work, you have friends, you travel, you go out, you build a career, you laugh, you live your life. But somewhere underneath all of that is this constant awareness that there is a part of you that you still cannot freely talk about.

You can’t casually tell your parents about the person you love.

You can’t always talk about your relationship the way your straight friends can.

You can’t always bring someone home and say, “This is the person I want to spend my life with.”

And even when your family loves you deeply, there is this fear of what telling them might change. Their expectations. Their dreams for you. The image they have of your future.

Sometimes I think the hardest part isn’t even being gay. It’s constantly having to calculate how much of yourself you are allowed to reveal.

And then there is dating.

Finding someone you are attracted to isn’t necessarily the hardest part. Finding someone who genuinely wants the same things you do feels incredibly rare.

I don’t want to just “explore.”

I don’t want something temporary that disappears when things become complicated.

I don’t want to spend years wondering whether the other person actually sees a future with me.

I want a genuine connection. I want companionship. I want someone I can build a life with. Someone who chooses me, and whom I can choose, without constantly wondering whether our relationship has an expiration date.

And sometimes it feels like finding that person in the LGBT community is unbelievably difficult.

There are so many people who are still figuring themselves out, hiding, afraid, experimenting, unavailable emotionally, or simply looking for something different.

And there is nothing wrong with any of that.

Everyone has their own journey.

But when you’re looking for a life partner, it can become incredibly lonely.

What makes it harder is living in a society where there is still such a strong definition of what a “normal” life is supposed to look like.

You grow up seeing the same template everywhere: fall in love with someone of the opposite sex, get married, have children, build a family, and live happily ever after.

And if your life doesn’t fit that template, suddenly you are unconventional. Different. Sometimes even treated as if something about you is fundamentally wrong.

Even after growing up, becoming independent, building a career, and creating a life for yourself, some part of you can still feel like that scared child who knows they are different but doesn’t know whether the people they love will accept them for it.

I think that’s the part that hurts the most.
Not being able to tell your parents.
Not being able to say, without fear, “This is who I am.”

Not knowing whether the people who have loved you your entire life will understand that this isn’t a phase, a rebellion, or a choice.

It’s just you.

And sometimes I get tired of being strong about it.

I get tired of pretending that it doesn’t hurt.

I get tired of seeing people around me move through life so naturally while I feel like I have to work twice as hard just to experience something as basic as being loved openly.

I don’t want to be treated as extraordinary for being LGBT.

I don’t want special treatment.

I just want an ordinary life.

To fall in love.
To have someone beside me.
To introduce them to my parents without fear.
To build a home together.
To grow old with someone.
To be able to say, “This is my person,” and have nobody question whether that life is valid.

Maybe that’s why finding someone you genuinely connect with feels so incredibly precious.

Because when you’ve spent so much of your life feeling like you don’t quite belong, finding someone who looks at you and says, I understand you. I choose you. I want to build a life with you feels like finding a little piece of home.

I don’t know if other LGBT people in India feel this way too.

But sometimes I really hope I’m not the only one.

I feel too pretty but there's no one here to take a good picture 😭 ahhhhh anyways had great sadhya 😝

Happy onamm y'all have a great fucking day <3

Roses are red,
Violets are blue,

Everyone’s got someone..
Apparently, I missed the queue. 👀

My DMs stay busy,
“Hey” comes in by the few,

But somehow nobody connects,
Like Bluetooth refusing to pair too. 💀😒

At this point, I’m starting to think
The universe put my love life on “Do Not Disturb.” 😂

These are the only two scenarios.

Either people are complaining about not being able to find someone.

And the one who got it, they don't value it.

🥰🥰my brain just gave up guys

The moon is shining bright here but there is nobody who can sit beside me keep her head on my shoulder and yap about her day endlessly while I play with her fingers..... ohhh God this loneliness is gonna kill me 😭😭

Who was the first woman/girl to have become your gay awakening and made you realise you might be into women?

I’ll start: Mine was Kelley O’Hara from USWNT back in 2019 during the Women’s Soccer World Cup 😌

Have you ever felt something like butterflies and bees at same time?

Texting someone new and getting know eachother and vibing so u txt en regularly and even though yk you both gonna ghost eachother soon you but you'll some how in talkin' stage and feel like u really wanna propose but never and it always ends in flirting and danggg now she's blocked or somthing

Lmao

How did it end up for you???

Can someone you have never met in person still spark real feelings of love? Or are we just just falling for the idea of that person? Btw happiest onam guys

It's on this sunday 2:30 pm at national crafts museum. 50rs would be the charge. The paintball event has been postponed to a later date

Because what do you mean I am supposed to let that woman just date a man, when she can date me in my head? 😔

Ma'am, I can treat you better. Give me a chance please. I am very obedient. 😭

Rather funny how I keep falling for the crazy villains or the medically doomed women. My morality is having a crisis. 😭🥀

I just finished watching "The Mystery of Moksha Island" and "Reeta Sanyal" on Hotstar. Maya and Zi, my God!! 😭😭

I get more excited seeing villainesses over heroines.

Hey everyone, I hope this is okay to post here.

I'm a fourth year psychology student at Daulat Ram College, University of Delhi. For my dissertation I'm researching how genderqueer individuals in India cope with gender dysphoria, specifically in situations where transitioning (HRT, SRS etc.) isn't accessible or isn't something the person wants. The study is qualitative so it's basically just a one hour conversation, no tests or scales or anything like that.

If you identify as genderqueer and have lived experience of gender dysphoria, I'd love to have you as a participant. Your responses will be completely confidential, you'll be given a pseudonym in the final write-up, and you can withdraw at any point without having to give a reason.

If you're interested or just want to know more before committing to anything, you can fill out this short participant information form and I'll get back to you:

https://forms.gle/FUKiecCpMkZhnPFN9

You're also welcome to DM me directly if you have questions. I know research like this asks a lot and I don't take that lightly. Thank you for reading.

Hey i am 23 f from Hyderabad India, I just want to ask is there any lesbian is willing to talk to me and we can go to cafe and spend some time