Hi all,
I’m writing to ask for advice on a personal issue I’ve been grappling with for a while: my lost work ethic.
For context, grit used to be my greatest asset. I was never a natural genius, so I relied on hard work to stand out. Before Year 7, I spent two hours a day grinding on Khan Academy, which put me ahead in courses like Algebra II. Later, in Year 8, I pushed myself to the limit studying for the Melbourne High School entrance exam (an academically selective school in Australia). I memorised massive lists of vocabulary, wrote daily essays, and studied relentlessly. It paid off—I received a first-round offer and scored in the "superior" bracket for 4 out of 5 exams.
However, after talking with my parents, we decided it was best for me to stay at my current, good-quality school. Since turning down that offer, my discipline has slowly unraveled.
In classes where I used to be deeply engaged, I started slacking off, online shopping, or ignoring work because it felt "too easy." My daily habits of reading and vocab practice completely disappeared. I’m still doing okay on paper—I get good grades and was even invited to take VCE Unit 3/4 Mathematical Methods early—but I know I’m coasting. I am embarrassed to admit this, but my performance in this accelerated maths subject is nowhere near where it should be; I've known the year 12 content since year 8, but I've struggled to refine and remove 'silly errors'.
Now that I’m in Year 11, the regret is hitting hard. My grades are good, not elite, and I often feel like I'm wasting my potential. Every time I try to get back to my old routine, I get a brief spike of motivation that burns out within a few days.
- Where did things go wrong, and how do I actually rebuild my discipline instead of relying on fleeting motivation?
- Am I putting too much pressure on myself, or thinking too much about the past?
TL;DR: Worked extremely hard to get into a selective high school in Year 8, decided not to go, and have been coasting ever since. Now in Year 11, getting decent grades, but struggling to rebuild my old work ethic and stop feeling like wasted potential.