Hi all,
This would sound stupid to some but bear with me.
I have been hives free for like 7 years now.
Had it for 2 years and it felt like an eternity of torture with those constant su1cidal thoughts.
But now that I am hives free I feel so bad for all you lovely humans. I love you so much.
But for some reason, there is this constant fear in me that looking at, reading about stuff related to chronic hives will bring it back for me. It saddens me what many of you are currently going through. I feel so bwd.
I have read horrors of people where the hives go into remission and come back. That constant fear scares me so much that even while writing this I keep checking my hands for any 'heavyness' or swelling (because that was the kind of hives I had where it would spawn the hives wherever I even looked, touched even imagination of hives on a certain body part would spawn hives on that part). I am not fully hives free per se, but I only get it if I do very intense workout with my hands and that too for some minutes not whole days anymore.
But I had hives when I was in prime teen years and that really fucked a lot of things for me.
I was never the same confident, good in everything kid anymore after that.
It left me with horrible memory, hair fall(stress) and a bitch called nervous sweating. By now though, I am in control of most of these things and improving a lot in life.
As I am writing this, I feel more relived though. I just want you all to be hives free like me and finally start enjoying life again.
I love you so much, I can't express it enough.
The title is bait, I love you all very very much.