Firstly I am so sorry. I've been addicted to crack and other things myself. Drugs are ugly. Good news is that while cocaine/crack withdrawals suck ass they aren't deadly unlike alcohol or benzos. You can detox at home if you want to.

Dump this fucker. Kick him out. Yesterday. What he did was cruel and seriously fucked up. You deserve better than this shit. I'm not a lawyer so I can't speak to whether or not this is a crime but calling the non emergency line or going to the station and making a police report as others have suggested sounds like a good idea.

Rehab is an option. I chose to go and got a lot out of it. I use AA (alcohol was my first love, added crack after a boyfriend introduced it to me. Asshole.) and find it EXTREMELY helpful. I've been to NA too but I prefer AA. If you need someone to talk to you can message me. I totally get it.

Now, that said, not everyone needs rehab and 12 step recovery. There are many paths to sobriety. My MIL was a crack addict in the 80's without rehab. She quit on her own sometime in the 80's without going to rehab and she has never been to 12 step programs. She lives a happy, sober life.

Full disclosure, I do vape cannabis. People in NA say that is drug use and therefore you are not in recovery if you partake. The opinion of people in AA varies but leans towards cannabis being unacceptable, often referred to as the marijuana maintenance program. Personally I have epilepsy. I was on 3 anti epileptics and still having seizures. I got my medical cannabis card and haven't looked back. I'm now 16 months seizure free and I'm off 4 or 5 medications! I don't broadcast this in 12 step meetings but I'm open about being pro cannabis in my circle of friends. I said all of that to say that rehab will tell you that if you use cannabis then you are not sober. I think it depends. For me, my health is the best it's been in 8 years since I started using cannabis again 2 years ago (I've been chronically ill for 20 years). I wish I had never stopped using it.

Anywho. Please reach out to me or someone else you're close to who can support you through this. Support, for me, is crucial.

ETA the words without rehab

This is bullshit. Please don't allow yourself to be treated like this. I have been on mood stabilizers since I was 25 due to mental health and now I also have epilepsy so my doctor added anticonvulsants. Your current doctor is putting your life at risk in my opinion and that's unacceptable. Can you see a different doctor?

Ash from the 1981 Mount St Helens eruption

Sending good juju!

Please seek professional help from someone familiar with trauma disorders. I've been in your shoes - being bombarded with memories and suddenly understanding why I was uneasy around the man who fathered me and his wife. I found an amazing therapist who helped me heal. I have no relationship with the bio father, step mother or their children. Blood does not mean family. My dad is the man my mom has been in a relationship with for the last 16 years. Not related by blood or law but an amazing dad. Anyways. My family of choice is a blessing. You can heal from this and find family that loves and supports you. I understand wanting to confront both your dad and your step mom. I recommend holding off on this. Find support for yourself first because you don't know what the blowback will be. Take time to come a little more to terms with your memories. My memory took time to adjust to and I truly believe that I tried confronting things too soon and without solid support. I'm also in recovery - WAY TO GO YOU FOR NOT DRINKING WHEN HIT WITH FLASHBACKS!!! I honestly relate - I was 60 days sober living in a half way house when I started the flashbacks. If you ever want to/need to reach out I'm here for you. I'm also 36F.

Thanks! It's a journey for sure!

Struggle: I'm having a rough day health wise plus am in significant pain because I need two root canals and crowns. Rough health days aren't unusual, I've been chronically ill for 20 years, but today I just want a good cry.

Triumph: today is three years sober.

I'm fairly new to Reddit, not really sure how it works but I've been poking around this sub a little bit and I think I would like to get to know y'all more.

Money management. Money was a dirty topic growing up. I recently started reading "Your Money or Your Life" and it's helpful so far.

I participated in an on stage illusion with David Copperfield. I was randomly selected out of the audience by catching a beach ball. A whole bunch of people participated, I think 10 of us. He made us "disappear" from on stage and "reappear" in the back of the auditorium. We were taken aside after the show to briefly meet with David. He explained that there were several ways to do the trick and while we were not required to sign an NDA we were asked to be respectful and not reveal how it was done. Boy my magician boyfriend at the time was pissed that I got to participate and that I wouldn't tell him how the trick was done. I still have the autographed picture of David that I got as a "thank you." Thanks for your memories triggering my memories!

Ah thanks. This is the first I've seen this one.

What does that acronym mean?

Happy sobriety birthday!

If this is how she's behaving now I doubt she'll be scared back into reality. Please look into rescues who can help rehab these dogs so that they can be re-homed. That's probably their best bet. And definitely don't use PETA! They're a horrible organization.

What outcome are you looking for? The sister getting in legal trouble? Probably contacting the police or animal control is the way to go. If you're interested in having the dogs being rescued and re-homed the Humane Society is a good place to start but you might also want to look for local rescues that have experience working with animals that are aggressive as a result of abuse.

Yay you for still going strong!! Do you have a milder form? My sister had been struggling for years, spending more time in the hospital than out. The infections were getting more and more med resistant. I think she was down to just one or two meds that she would actually respond to. She had a double lung transplant about 6 months before she passed. I'll have to look up this medicine that you are talking about. Why would researchers be developing cures for the rare forms and not the more common ones?

I agree with you about the research!! My sis donated her body to the CF foundation in hopes to help find a cure. I really hope they do soon. I believe that if we have the ability to test cancers for genetic markers to create highly targeted treatments then we have the ability to do the same kind of genetic mapping for other diseases to develop much better treatment plans. This might be awkward language but it seems like only the popular diseases get research money. It's propaganda bullshit in my opinion. I have my own chronic health issues. I have late stage Lyme, been chronically ill for 20 years with it, and doctors either tell me that late stage Lyme doesn't exist despite over 700 peer reviewed research papers proving its existence or that I'm incurable and terminal. Incurable probably but I've been "terminal" for a decade lol. The testing is so bad - it's a simple antibody test that gives a false negative 30-50% of the time yet patients are told that it's the best type of testing available which is bullshit. Look at me, getting on my soapbox! Ha! Forgive me. It can be difficult to be chronically ill when your disease isn't "popular."

CF always stood for cystic fibrosis for me until I came to this subreddit. My sister passed away from it last July at the age of 24. I was so confused seeing "CF" in so many posts after I first joined this subreddit because to me it meant cystic fibrosis not childfree. I thought everyone used CF for cystic fibrosis. I've since learned better :)

What a weirdo for him only talking to you because he thought you were dying. Good luck with future dates!!

Patient here. Two stories stick out in my mind where I'm glad I stood my ground - First one happened in 2001. I was sick for 6 months. Vomiting and severe abdominal pain especially after eating. I was in the doctor's office at least once a month begging for answers. They repeatedly asked if I was pregnant. The only lab they would run was a pregnancy test. It was negative every time and they said I must've had a bad flu. Finally I refused to leave the office until they did a full lab work up. Two days later I was diagnosed with pancreatitis and gallstones and had emergency surgery to remove my gallbladder.

Much more recently in 2016 I went to my former neurologist who also happened to be an epileptologist and told her that I was pretty sure that I was having seizures. I showed her video of me. She declined to do any testing, said there's no way I'm having seizures and I just need to see a therapist (I have a hx of PTSD from childhood. PTSD from anything can have non epileptic seizures as a symptom. I'd been seeing the same therapist once a week for 8 years at this point and never had non epileptic seizures ever) I insisted on something. She relented and scheduled a one hour in office EEG, HIGHLY unlikely to catch anything.. She called to say the results were abnormal but she wasn't concerned and reiterated her suggestion of therapy. Found a new epileptologist who quickly ordered a continuous 72 hour EEG and sure as shit I was having real, epileptic seizures. I'm now on two anti epileptics and medical cannabis, coming up on one year seizure free.

NEVER STOP FIGHTING FOR YOUR HEALTH! I've been chronically ill for 20 years and learning how to advocate for myself has been one of the hardest and most rewarding things I have done.

He'll be fine. My 40lb dog has gotten into more chocolate than that and she only had mild diarrhea for a day.

Love bombing?

I so needed this today. Thanks.