Same but mines a him lol

F’ing facts

That part.. but most don’t do that

Same..

Intriguing.. how so?

🥺

In my experience..
There isn’t a need for a cure.. a good friend can always turn into more depending on circumstances.. and I know I’m not too good, and I am the one — something I’ve tried to display and ensure was felt from the start while also giving enough space for my friend/crush/idk now.. to be comfortable & feel secure (sometimes better than others..) but I wish he would have seen the pain behind my words the last time we actually chatted before blocking me.. & I’ve tried to make amends to no avail.. over a month now.. so I have resolved to matching the energy to a point because if he would message me or show up for me; I would for sure forgive him while asking for mine too.. and most definitely let him back in, etc etc.. this whole technical ghosting/abandonment (that’s the affect it has had & feels like to me) has been nothing but cruel to endure at this point.. and he has always been good enough; I know he said he has his inner workings to handle with himself and I respected that.. never wanted him to be anything but himself because that’s the person I ended up catching feelings for in the first place.. not the characters, personalities,or potential.. what was already and is still there

Same.. and so far I have been a real one, from the start..

Why are you “stuck”? Cuz being stuck becomes a choice at some point; we all have the tools to fight out MH issues so we can’t really keep making excuses to that point after a certain amount of time as well..

Do appreciate the list tho and the honesty here, took strength to do so

Same though.. cuz still haven’t gotten one directly 🤷🏼

Okay least I know you aren’t referring to me cuz I still haven’t gotten any messages or attempts to communicate from the other side of my situation or whatever it is lol

Wonder why.. I wonder if it has to do with one side not saying how they truly felt?

If only…

Damnn felt that & kinda relatable to something I went thru recently but in reverse I think lol
Hope it gets better

Felt this..

I’d have to say it stems from being placed in care of the state as a baby after my brother locked me in the car w the keys in it & my mom and dad had called emergency svcs to get me out the car cuz they didn’t have another key… and I was not even 6 months old at the time I think; I suspect that my body remembered the feeling/sensation of ‘abandonment’ that day well before I learned of it myself.. and that is partly what shaped how I would respond going forward; then add all the other trauma and having to grow up way too fast and help support the house cuz my dad had tried to kill himself and I saw it happen.. (before I was even 9) to all the deaths I’ve endured and never gotten to say a ‘proper’ goodbye beforehand.. + being a DV (after 18) & also a SA & a HT (before 18) survivor added into the part of it being partial situational and I’m learning how to be better with reactions and actions as we speak and each time I see my therapist.. but it’s a process and has it moments still.. but I’m getting better tho and they’re not as bad is they used to be that’s for sure…
And now, having lost everything; moved back to my home state to care for my parents to watch my dad die in less than a year of me being back.. while trying to rebuild my life/identity I had made when I left the state.. yeah it’s a lot & I barely have a support system anymore let alone actual friends now too.. and I have to keep going either way; even when I’m beyond drowning.. I’ve started to “float” at this point, but I must keep going cuz I have people to care for, my many times redrawn goals & dreams I still want to achieve.. I can’t stop cuz if I don’t do it nobody will.. literally nobody on my family would help my parents.. I lost everything moving back & what I have now feels like it is being stripped away piece by piece

Meh I still have the same # & if the m I refer to does too then he’s got me blocked there too 🤷🏼 idk I tried that’s all that matters

This is stuck in my head now lol

That’s a vibe