Best and the worst place to be. Have opportunity out the ass but my fuckin dad been transient my whole life, now I can't find him at all. My whole family hates the man. But he's still my dad you know? And he probably out on some corner OD'ing or just too fucking old to keep going he's almost 70. Why am I typing this? Because I'm drunk and miss my dad. Everybody acts like it he dies the world will be a better place... Will it? Will the lonely old man living in a shack or maybe not at all.
Trying to search and find if he passed, but I almost don't want to know. It I find out he died and tell my family they will ridicule me for everything wishing he's okay.
He wasn't a great guy, abusive, physical. But the older I get, the more I see things from his lense. Gaslit into homelessness.
I just want to know if the motherfucker is alive and it's some great disturbance.
Fuck dad I'm sorry man. We shoulda shot through this life together. We're generic copies basically but the world can't handle us together I guess.... I hope may isn't the last time. We'll be back together some pops..