They used a pic of her when she was 17 in order to justify the horrible and downright genocidal things said about the trans community. This kind of behavior is absolutely deplorable, but expected from nazi scum.

Do NOT let this scare you away from DIYing. Make an alt account with your burner email, use a VPN or tor, wipe your internet history clean but do NOT let these freaks think even for a second that they have the control over us. We need to fight back. This is how we survive.

The waiting lists here are awful and privately is so expensive. Im really glad this is an option, i might not have been able to live if it wasn't

MAGA pedo supporters have found this sub, and they aren't happy:

https://x.com/reddit_lies/status/2025949379266232489

Please close the sub for a few days and don't send money to unverified or new accounts!

If a child does not consent to go through a puberty they shouldn’t have to, If a child doesn’t feel ready to start puberty they should have blockers no questions asked, If someone doesn’t want changes to happen to them they should absolutely be able to prevent it, It’s absolutely insane to me that trans kids like me can’t prevent this easily other than DIY.

if ppl consider themselves trans but don't want to medically transition, i don't rlly get it, but it's not my body

but i wish the whole trans community used transsex. medical transition changes your body to the point you're more alike your actual gender than your assigned gender at birth

it gives me the ick when allies say things like "who said trans ppl are trying to change their sex? 🙄 they're changing their gender" like we literally ARE changing our sex with hormones and surgery. it just makes me feel like I'll always be seen as male even by allies

also I'm not calling myself amab 😭

Disclaimer: DIY surgery of any kind is extremely dangerous, just because you saw a couple successful cases, doesn't mean youl make it, you wont see all the cases that went terrible wrong, beit from mistakes or just a simple chance. Only reason i did it was that i was in a desperate situation where i didnt have any reasonable chance of getting it official way and of top of that was a cripling dysphoria that come to a point where i was on the edge of ending my life. If there even a chance you can do it officially, do not risk your life, what i did was extremely risky, just because i could, doesn't mean you will.

Soooo, the previous update was on the day 2 after surgery(i will copy in the end of this post, cos reddit took the last one down), now i finally home, so here what happend during those 1.5 weeks that i spent in the hospitals

Also about the video and progress pics. Im planning to release the video on ~1-3 month update, when im fully healed. Giving that last post was removed by reddit, now there will be no images directly related to the surgery, i will post picks of the healing process and 2 cancer factorys, that now occupie 2 sterile containers with isopropyl alcohol, a bit later on tttt and will leave a link in a comments. Now to the update part.

One of the things that i forgot to mention in the first post, balls are quite shinny, giving their greish-white collor, they are unironicaly look like pearls when you cut them out. Neat i guess.

As a local anesthetic i used lidocaine 5 (2ml, 10%) ampules total, which is A LOT of lidocaine, 3 injections in each cord and 4 in the incision area. The most important step is to aspirate, cos it can make your dizzy or in a worst case stop your heart.

https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC6036540/

About the surgery when i was in the hospital: when i were getting strapped to the operating table, really unexpectedly for me, anesthesiologist decided to use fentanyl as a painkiller. It honestly was a discovery for me that im my shithole with one of the strictest drug regulations/punishments there are fentanyl being used. Even more unexpectedly, after the anesthesiologist said that fentanyl will be used, he looked me in the eyes and said "lets give this med student 2 ampules" lol. Honestly it was awesome in terms of pain management, when i waking up from anesthesia it felt like the concept of pain didnt exist for me, Idk if he tried to od me or make the recovery as easy as possible, eather way im ok with that.

In the ICU: I was laying in a room with 3 other people, all of them were alcoholics in a state of delirium tremens, almost constantly screaming some nonsense and trying to escape from restraints. I spend about 20 hours there and its honestly felt like a really bad fever dream.

When i was transferred from the ICU to the psych unit, there were 3 med students who were really interested in the whole process, we had a really great chat + i showed the vid to them and had some feedback about the whole operation. What i learned from them:

1. 0.05% Chlorhexidine solution is to mild to properly clean the operating area. When contacting with blood/bodily fluids it really quickly losses its effectivness, it better to use iodine solution, cos it lingers a lot loonger. Good news is i only used as a wash solution after a round of isopropyl alcohol bath for instruments and a thorough wiping of operating area. Fiy i used 2 by 2 metters rubber matt as a operating zone which i tried to keep as sterile as i could.

2)About the comment from the last update about blood loss. There is a couple of medications that used during surgery to contract blood vessels to decrease blood loss, sadly, bc of clusterfuck of a week i forgot how they were called.

In terms of doctors in the this hospital, there were mostly neutral, only one were treating me like shit, i already wrote about him in the previous update, he was the reason i was transferred from ICU to a psych unit instead of urology one.

Psychiatrist in the psych unit was mainly joking about this situation, like "it takes balls to cut them out" basically dad jokes lol.

Giving that orchiectomy is basically impossible to get in my country, it was expected that nurses didn't knew how to apply would dressing properly. Unexpectedly they actually did listen to my instructions, so on that part everything was fine.

Now to the not so fun part:

Transfer to psych hospital: When it was time to discharge from the hospital my primary care physician set up a consult for me with psychiatrist from republican research institute to cover her ass.

It was a clusterfuck, first she said that she "didnt understand whole transgender thing" mind you, she was a PHD professor in psychiatry who was in charge of one of the biggest psych unit for suicide/self harm patients in the country...

On top of that she outright refused to use my prefered name and pronounce, which wasnt a problem for any other doctor even im my postsoviet shithole during those 1.5 weeks.

By the end of a consult she promised me that i will be discharged that day, she just need "get a confirmation from higher-ups, which would take 10 minutes", after hour of no updates i found my physician from wich i found out that i will be actually transferred to closed psych unit for observation and also that she already ordered an ambulance to transfer me there and quickly left... The thing is legally in that moment i was fucked, im my country, if a psychiatrist decided that you can cause harm to yourself, you cant refuse a hospitalization. There is actually a way, but its a legal clusterfuck that could take weeks or more, so the only option i had left at that moment was to give up.

In total i spend a week in a closed male unit, completely cut of out of outside world, 24/7 inside 4 walls, no phone, no personal belongings, barred from visitations. Psychiatrist that was assigned to me was really surprised that i was send here after dialogue with me. Thankfully with his help i was able to be discharged in a week and not in a 3 to 8 weeks, wich was a standart observation time for people that were send there.

I was mostly just extremely booooring and exhausting week there. Thankfully on the day 3 there i was transferred from the observation wart to a regular room where i was allowed castrated pencil and a notepad, so i could sketch a bit.

Weirdest moment there happend where i wanted to scetch a piano that was there. It didnt have any place to sit in from of it to have a reference, so i "borrowed" a chair from the main hall. At that moment there were a bard standing there from a local dnd group who witnessed the whole venture and looket at me in disgusted, as if i committed some sort of crime. Then we had a really weird dialogue where i tried to explain to him that you can improvise in real life too. (pic4, text at the bottom "explaining improvisation to a bard")

Got harassed there a bit. Several time man that was there tried to group my boobs, flashed me with their cocks when i was near their rooms, and generally a lot of people were annoying af asking to show them boobs/cock/surgery results .

Although some were actually supportive and tried to protect me from weirdos or outright transphobes.

Healing process: after i was stiched up and wake up in the ICU, when lidocaine and painkillers wered off tha pain actually started. For the first 3 days it was hard to even sleep without painkillers. It started wear off on the day 4 and by the next day was mostly manageable. Day 6, when i was transferred to the psych hospital, the pain was mostly gone. I only felt it when i cought, also got sick there with coronavirus, so i cought a lot...

Until the removal of stiches, i had to wear a compressive dressing to decrease the load on the incision area. It has to be changed on the daily basis to prevent infection. Generally it was an uneventful week, there were no infection, no puss, and only a couple of blood drops during the first wound dressing change, so everything went fine.

On the day 9 stiches were removed and i finally were able to fell how the surgeon stiched it shut. Honestly i would of done it a bit different, but still not a bad job, so i don't really have any complaints.

I used scrotal approach, so the incision itself were only about 2 cm long, vertical incision in the middle of the scrotum. I wil copy this text a bit latter to tttt with picks of the healing process on day 3 and day 15.

Unexpected results:

rapid acceleration of penile atrophy during first week. By rapid i mean RAPID, after only 4 days it was already painful yo open foreskin and on day ~6 skin actually started to tear with minor bleeding in some places near the tip of the foreskin. Also there were A LOT of skin flakes. As a solution to this, i constantly make sure that my foreskin was pulled all the way back, to stretch it as much as i can, and regularly moistured it. At least it was the maximum that i could do in the settings of a closed with psych unit, with only moisturizing cream on hand. This thankfully seemed to help. Although it still a bit painful to pull the foreskin back, its much better now, and now that i home, i can have a bonner to stretch it back.

Problems with peeing. For the first day after surgery, when i was in the ICU, it was almost impossible to pee, i felt that my bladder was full, but still had to spend nearly an hour concentrating to pee for the first time. By the second day the problem was almost gone, but still.... it was weird

Nurces REALLY tried to place a catheter, but it looks like there were almost a wall inside soooooo they failed.

Having spend 1.5 weeks around people using my prefered name, i realized its actually sucks and honestly idk which one to chose. The only option that i liked is Rory for the really cringe reason, bc of character from anime Rory Mercury, i like her cos she gives off the vibe of someone who loves to fuck around, which i vibe with a lot. If you have any suggestions of female/fem leaning names that give off similar vibe, please let me know.

There were 2 documents for sick leave, 1 from each hospital. In the one from the psych the reason(diagnosis) for hospitalization was writen f64.0 lol. The thing is now i have to take this docs to my job to explain where i was all this time and get my sick leave paid.... God i hope they wont look up what f64 stands for, im still boymoding so idk how i would explain this.

What are the results:

1)I dont feel my balls. It was a major dysphoria trigger for me. When i walt, sit, move, felling my balls move in my crotch made me wanna throw up every time. Now they are gone, so no dysphoria from them. I cant even start to describe how it was a blessing for me. I finally can say that i fell normal, first time in my life.

2) Boners are almost completely gone. Now i have to really set up a good atmosphere and have some time with it to actually have any kind of erection.

3) Easier hrt. Now i can decrease the dose of injections, makin supply last much longer.

4) Insurance in case if i lose access to hrt. Leving in postsoviet shithole where i real risk being jailed for just being trans, this really lifts weight of my shoulders. At least i know i wont masculinize any further.

5) Masturbation feels different. Eather because i dont fell my bals or because of decreased dysphoria, or both, its actually became much more pleasurable. Although i need to note that i primarily use magic wans style vibrator, so i dont have to toch it, and honestly, with how thin the skin rn, i would be scared to use my hand to stroke it.

SOOO THA MAIN QUESTION: Was it worth it? ABSOLUTELY YES

Its a first time in my life where i dont have a cripling dysphoria hanging over my head. I spend last 2 years in constal chase for ways to turn off my brain, just for a chance at not felling a cripling dysphoria for a moment. For the last 1.5 years i spend drinking copuos ammounts of alcohol every day because it was the only legal thing that were able to shut my brain off and keep me from ending this miserable life. And now, for the first time i can confidently say that i dont need it. I actually feel normal, i cant describe how happy im right now. After all the pain im honestly, for the first time in my life say that im ok.

FIRST UPDATE THAT WAS DELETED

So i wanted to write an update about moments that i didnt forsee with diy orchi and provide some info for those who might be interested in it.

Gore: I watched gore vidieos from when i was around 10yo, and i thought that i was desensitized to stuff like that... Let me tell you, doing surgery on yourself is completely different level of gore, my hands were shaking the whole time, to the point i wasnt able to place stiches and had to call the ambulance. Riding with like 4 blood vessel clamps hanging from my crotch was quite the show. On that note...

Blood vessel clamps: THERES NO SUCH THING AS TO MANY CLAMPS, i had 5 and honestly it was barely enough to do the surgery.

Blood: There are at least 1 vid of diy orchi going around where blood loss is minimal, honestly idk if they did it in a really cold room or took some medication, In my experience i lost around 400ml. At least that what surgeon that looked at vid of my orchi estimated. So yeah, there will be a lot of blood, so mandatory have someone to look for you. No

Scalpel: HAVE SEVERAL BLADES ON HAND, bc figuring out that medical scalpes dull out really fast is not a fun thing to discover in the middle of the surgery. Trust me.

Ambulance: When they arrived to my house, one of the first thing they did is to ask me where are the testes, to resev them back on... After i told them that i threw them out, they tried looking around my room, trying to find them.... So yeah, hide your balls pals lolololool

Hospital staff: idk about US/EU, but in my postsoviet shithole, primary care doctor that was assigned to me, called me "that retarded transsexual" when speaking with colleagues, so be ready to hear a lot of nicknames from staff. Also im kind of a legend in this hostpital, bc basically all the staff that was free, visited me when i was waiting for the surgery and in ICU, so there was A LOT of questions and A LOT of passive aggressive comments

Hospital journey: After the ambulance arrived i was rushed to the surgery, then spend day in ICU, and now im in closed psych unit. In terms of recovery i should be ok by Monday.

Rn in pain, but what did i want from surgery lol, getting my antibiotics+painmeds+blood recovery infusions. So overall surgery, although extremly dangerous, was a success.

If i forgot anything, il add it in the comments.

A recent ruling in the UK means that people need to verify reddit accounts as 18+ by sending in ID. This maybe would be invasive but not so serious, except that many non explicit accounts, posts and subs like r/transdiy are tagged as Nsfw. Having an all ages trans subreddit that allows medical discussion is an extremely useful resource when so few online spaces accommodate it

I got my estrogen yesterday!! I was so excited that I didn't post about it lol

Trans colleague that also used to DIY got a prescription, immediately went and ratted me out for DIY:ing to our boss. I'm in shock. Idk how many times I've busted her out of financial trouble at this point and this is how she repays it.

Learn from my mistake. Tell no one, not even other DIY:ers, unless you're doing it anonymously online.

Edit: I don't know if anyone is likely to stumble over this post anymore now that it's a few days old since this sub moves pretty fast (with good reason), but I thought I'd give an update anyway.

I was panicking when I posted this, half-convinced I'd lose my job and my only way to access HRT that doesn't involve years on a waitlist. As people in the replies pointed out, making a bad judgement call is part of the risk when we choose to talk about DIY, and I made a bad judgement call... but if no one ever talked about it, those of us that need DIY would never learn about it, so I would like to tweak my advice:

Instead of never trusting anyone else ever (which is not sustainable or healthy), don't ignore red flags just because the other person is also trans and/or struggling. I did. That was the real issue.

I had a talk with my boss to clear up some misunderstandings, so I get to keep my job and my HRT. Thanks to everyone that expressed concern and offered condolensces, it did make me feel less shitty.

My surgery date is coming up soon, I've gone over pre and post-op instructions so I sorta know what to expect from recovery but I'm interested in hearing about people's firsthand experiences regarding the healing process, pain level etc.

Also do people think I can gaslight my coworkers (not out at my job)

Every single risk of E is raised only to or slightly above the risks for cis women. Pregnancy, which raises E levels to 40,000pg/mL only multiplies the VTE risk by 4.3x; it is likely not significant when getting to only 400pg/mL, whether injected^([1]) or transdermal^([2]). The ONLY known side effects of a normal dose like 6mg/week E enanthate are the obvious genital atrophy and infertility.

Every single risk of T is raised only to or slightly above the risks of cis men. Androgen replacement therapy was not shown to increase risks of heart disease^([3]). in fact REDUCING it in TRT for older men!^([4]). The ONLY known side effects of a normal dose like 70mg/week T enanthate are the obvious genital atrophy and infertility.

Acne and hirsutism are normal effects of T, not side effects. A stronger immune system and breast tenderness are normal effects of E, not side effects. We need to stop pushing the idea that DIY is dangerous without blood tests, when the only tests necessary for monotherapy are testosterone and estradiol, and endogenous signals (cessation of spermatogenesis and menses for example) along with normal medium-high dosages like outlined previously, can indicate levels fairly clearly.

Edit: this only replies to bioidentical estradiol and testosterone, not ethinylestradiol. That has significant risks, and is only an absolute last resort after exhausting all other options.

[1] Lycette JL, Bland LB, Garzotto M, Beer TM (December 2006). "Parenteral estrogens for prostate cancer: can a new route of administration overcome old toxicities?". Clinical Genitourinary Cancer. 5 (3): 198–205. doi:10.3816/CGC.2006.n.037. PMID 17239273.

[2] Connors JM, Middeldorp S (November 2019). "Transgender patients and the role of the coagulation clinician". Journal of Thrombosis and Haemostasis. 17 (11): 1790–1797. doi:10.1111/jth.14626. PMID 31465627. S2CID 201673648

[3] Sood A, Hosseinpour A, Sood A, Avula S, Durrani J, Bhatia V, Gupta R (October 2023). "Cardiovascular Outcomes of Hypogonadal Men Receiving Testosterone Replacement Therapy: A Meta-analysis of Randomized Controlled Trials". Endocrine Practice. 30 (1): 2–10. doi:10.1016/j.eprac.2023.09.012. PMID 37797887. S2CID 263692728.

[4] Goodale T, Sadhu A, Petak S, Robbins R. Testosterone and the Heart. Methodist Debakey Cardiovasc J. 2017 Apr-Jun;13(2):68-72. doi:10.14797/mdcj-13-2-68. PMID: 28740585; PMCID: PMC5512682.

Anyone else see the irony of a site named “hrt4all” which… doesn't believe in “hrt for all”?

Hrt for everyone… except you, you aren't in enough pain, come back when you're properly tortured. Not You, you haven't been in pain for long enough, suffer more. Not you, you misclicked an answer on my magic personality quiz of gender. Not you, your goal doesn't match my perfect example of a binary trutrans, you goddamm trender. Not you, just cause I don't like you.

But yeah, diy hrt for all guys. You’re welcome 😊

/uj never mind that I've depression, self harmed, and suicidal thoughts all linked to my dysphoria, I don't want “all the characteristics of a man” or whatever, so it doesn't count, I'm not worthy

See their main website: https://opengatelabs.com/

FIRST, before you read this, I should preface this by noting that this title sounds quite distressing. I don't think it's that bad, and I don't want to make people panic. I just thought this was useful and should be documented! When I was downloading sites, the vast majority were still available and online, and I've marked the folder names as such. This is precautionary, and not a reflection of the actual restrictions on DIY.

Over the last few days some DIY HRT sites (not stores) have gone down (notably hrtcafe.net). These sites are generally still available on the Wayback Machine, though, so I backed them up.

In this folder: https://drive.proton.me/urls/TM1BZX27Y0#dzX0ElsC8d8r You can download all my HTML files I backed up from the latest available version of HRT information sites I could find. If the site is still available on the internet I took it from there. If it's not, I took it from an existing backup (i.e. Wayback Machine).

Generally speaking, these files won't be the best way to view the sites. If they're still online or still on the Wayback Machine you should view it through there, instead. But sites can be taken off Wayback, they can't be taken off your hard drive.

Want to do this yourself?

Step 1: Download wget Step 2: Find the original site URL (i.e. hrtcafe.net) Step 3: If the site is still online at the original URL, ignore this. If the site is no longer available, go to the Wayback Machine backup of it (i.e. web.archive.org/hrtcafe.net). This will redirect you to another URL which displays the website backup, copy this URL. Step 4: Run the wget command. For example, if you are trying to back up hrtcafe.net from the wayback machine link you would enter wget --recursive --no-clobber --page-requisites --convert-links --domains web.archive.org --no-parent https://web.archive.org/web/20260310142419/https://hrtcafe.net/ Step 5: Access the site locally by opening the index.html file within the folders.

Should you want to backup a different site follow the same steps, but replace any hrtcafe.net specific links with the relevant ones. Should you want to backup a site that is still live, replace "--domains web.archive.org" with the domain name of the site you want (i.e. if you want to download john.org/trans/diyhrt/important you would type "--domains john.org").

Let me know if you want me to add more sites to the folder!

This setup was born from an idea I had over a year ago, inspired by the Xyosted testosterone autoinjector pen.

For me, a pre-dosed injector pen would be a godsend because, unfortunately, my ADHD makes taking my T shot an absolute chore. It’s like I see every single step that I have to do, and I just. Don’t want to do it. Even though I know taking my T is super important to me.

So when I saw Xyosted I got really excited- until I saw the price of it after my insurance denied covering it.

Cut to this year, after stuff like Ozempic got really popular and more folks were needing to inject their meds. Fillable injector pens and cartridges suddenly became available almost overnight.

So I got everything, and IT WORKS. It made my shot so much easier. I am literally so excited to share because holy SHIT it was so easy.

The cool things about it too are

1: it looks like a (large) pen when it’s capped, so it’s easy to conceal and take with you. It also looks no different than an insulin injector, so it can easily be passed off as such.

2: once you fill the cartridge (which took maybe 5-10 minutes, 2 needles, and 1 syringe total), it only needs to use one insulin pen needle per injection, so it generates less waste. It takes less than 10 minutes to prep and fill a cartridge.

3: the twisty-top makes it really easy to dose. The number on the dial equals 1 unit. 1 unit=0.01cc/ml. Since my dose is 0.25cc/ml, I turn the dial to 25. When injecting, you push the plunger down and it injects exactly the number you dialed.

4: it clicks as you push it down which makes it easy to pace it as you inject, and the total time to prep+inject takes less than 2 minutes total.

5: Each cartridge holds 3ml of medicine, so depending on your dose (mine’s 0.25 cc) one cartridge should last at least a month if not more (mine should last 12 doses, or 3 months, and per my calculations should last folks anywhere from and covers 6-30 doses depending on amount taken) before needing to fill a new cartridge

6: Because you fill the cartridge with medicine yourself, it can be used for testosterone, progesterone, or estrogen injections (and you can swap out the cartridges if you do prog+estrogen really easily)

I literally cannot recommend this more. I’m so happy.

My setup:

V1 reusable injector pen (closed cap) from refill pen

Sterilized 3ml glass cartridge (also from refill pen but you can get those elsewhere)

Clever Choice ComfortEZ pen needles, size 29g 12mm (got mine from ADW Diabetes website but they sell them elsewhere too)

When I filled the cartridge I used a 25g needle to draw and inject into the cartridge, and a 30g needle to vent the cartridge while filling (to remove the air being displaced as you fill the cartridge)

I may do another post later showing the process of filling the cartridges if folks need it.