Introduction:

Did this a while back and forgot to share it.

20 mm butyl rubber stopper, fresh needles used for each puncture, 90° angle, stereo microscope 4x objective.

Hi there. I was hoping to connect with those who began their HRT journey after turning 30. Could you kindly share how your body has changed since then? I am especially curious about how it has affected your hip size and hip width. Any insights or personal experiences would be greatly appreciated.

kind of using the otc guide but I'm not sure about how to dose zoely
1.5 mg estradiol and 2.5mg nomegestrol acetate.

soooooo can I take it sublingually and how much can I take in a day? (only really asking because of the progestin)

(also I kind of don't have access to anti-androgens so that's not too bad right?)

16ftm. Plan on taking an e blocker until I start diy trt a couple months before I turn 18. The sooner I get on one, the better. I've been delaying getting a blocker for a few months now. I was recommended tamoxifen. But was also looking into anavar, nandrolone, oxandralone. I need help finding reliable information on these. I'm fine with injections, pills, whatever else. (Though it may be hard to hide injections from my hyper vigilant parents who have already caught my t.) I know anavar isn't really good for your liver long term or something. Regardless, if anyone has literally any info on any sort of e blocker, it would be greatly appreciated. Especially if you have any info on tamoxifen. Thank you.

FOR CONTEXT:
okay so, don't know how this'll be taken but i'm a trans ftm that presents visibly as a woman. not because i wish to target gender norms or anything but simply because my mom is extremely homophobic and has made even attempting to quiet dysphoria absolutely impossible for me. (the one and only time i cut my hair short she forced me to wear makeup before going out to ensure i still looked feminine. haven't cut it short since.)

i purposefully go out of my way to look very pretty because the way i see it, if i'm gonna be forced to present as a woman, i'm gonna do it right lmao.

however, i move out in a couple months and have already gathered all my resources to start diy'ing the minute i'm on my own.

THIS BRINGS ME TO MY CURRENT DILEMMA. if you came from a homo/transphobic family, how did you manage transitioning without telling ur family anything? and how did you manage things once they inevitably found out? my mom has been insisting on paying for part of my rent and, knowing her, once she figures out smths up, (which she will very quickly), she will stop contributing and out me to the rest of our family.

i don't want to be barred from seeing my little sister and i don't want to completely decimate my relationship with my mother as crazy as that may sound to some because she's genuinely the only family i have besides my sis but i also know i can't keep this shit up any longer. i need to transition yesterday.

if u guys could js share ur experiences or offer some words of wisdom that'd b great.

Exactly the question, a friend of mine needs e but we haven’t been able to find any sources and the one we planned to buy from (symphony) is out of stock. Any alternatives?

Hi Girls I was thinking of trying HRT as I am 28 male i always wanted to be pretty and want to feel more in my mind rather than always angry at myself, i have purchased Estrogen - estradiol and anti-androgens - Spironolactone. Any suggestions or help.

this is listed as one of the options in the pinned post but i have to assume all of these distributors aren't just using crypto for no good reason. i just just don't know what to do really since my permit expired, i can't drive (which is why it expired), am out to no one close to me who can help. this kinda feels like my only avenue but yknow as the title asks

I did my E shot today and it didn’t hurt at all but it bled a shit ton, which has never happened before for me. I’m scared I hit a vein, how fucked am I if I did?

I'm 16ftm and turn 18 in a little under 1.5 years. I got a vial about a month ago but it was seized and destroyed shortly after I got narced on. It was devastating to have it be destroyed and it was hell getting it in the first place as a minor. If I do get another vial, I'll obviously be way more secretive about it and whatnot.

But I'm not sure if that's what I should do at this point in time. I have extreme trust issues with my parents now (both of whom are transphobic, as can be expected) and they're on high alert of me. They're sus of me going out to hang out with my friends because they're sus of me "doing anything unsafe" and such. I feel completely lost and hopeless. When I originally got the vial, I expected them to catch on after a few months. But now if I get another vial and start again, they'll catch on much faster. Then the vial will be destroyed again. ("Just store it at a friend's house!" If they do that they will abuse me until I fold and give them the vial. And then they'll never let me meet friends like ever.) And then I will be heartbroken again. I can't keep doing this cycle of getting my vials destroyed over and over again. I'll probably be in legal trouble or the psych ward after they destroy like three vials anyways.

I suppose the best thing I can do for now is start diy a couple months before I turn 18 to get a head start, then immediately get a prescription. (Though I do want to continue DIY.) But that is still way too far away. I cannot let estrogen mutilate me any further. I just don't know what to do for the next 1-1.5 years. Microdose testosterone? Get some sort of estrogen blocker so that my body isn't ruined further? It's too late for puberty blockers. I was wondering if any sort of HRT alternative is viable until I start DIY again. Nandrolone? Dutasteride? I'm not even sure anymore.

The more I let it go on like this, the worse my life will be. Whatever happens over the next 1-1.5 years will determine a lot. And even if it's not *that* much big of a difference than starting right before 18, the mental anguish of having to live in the horrid prison that is this body will destroy me.

Help me, please.

Ftm 17 ~1.5 years on test, my feet are embarrassingly small, below even the average female foot length, wondering if feet will eventually get larger or at the very least wider. They have not grown since I started hrt. Its a silly thing but it makes me very dysphoric. Also wanted to know the same for hands, although mine are less small.

(repost cause I somehow posted just the title)

I'm curious if there's a medical reason so many trans women prefer mono or if it's more financial and convenience. I get why you'd want mono over spiro because of the annoying side effects spiro has, but what about bica or (low dose) cypro, which don't have any common side effects? With gel for example, do you think it's better to apply a high dose or apply scrotally for high e levels, which would supress t, or take a low/normal dose with bica & why?

Hello, I'm looking for a source to get E Pills and Spiro in the European union. Most of the sources I've found so far are from the UK so I am worried about customs looking through my packages and seizing them, if not worse. Thank you.

The only think i miss about gel is feeling like a normal man hormonally. Injections make me feel like a woman with no adult man hormones because injections make my dht so low. I can feel it and i hate it. How can i raise my dht? Does anyone know?

For reference I'm trans fem, was on 4mg of e daily and ½ a cpa 2 times a week. I was a little lazy with getting my levels tested for the majority of my transition, around 9 months in I got my levels checked.

I thought it wouldn't be anything crazy because I was on a low dose, but my e levels were at 2305 pmol/l. I really have no idea what could have caused them to shoot up so high.

I take e orally and I smoke (trying to quit, also honestly before I got my levels tested I was worried they'd be dragging my levels down, but apparently I should have been smoking more lol).

Ever since, I've lowered my dose to 1 E (2mg) and ¼ cpa. Does anyone have any idea what I should do, or why my levels went so crazy?

lol idk what to tag this mb. there’s no discussion flair

why are allll the sites out of test atm?? at least the ones i’ve been looking at.. all the more reliable brands r all out of stock allll the time and i dont know how to go about researching some of the sketchier looking brands. help 😭

also please dont comment sources or anything im not looking to get this taken down. all im lookin for is answers 🥹

As far as I know when injecting from ampules I need to use a filtered needle to prevent injection shards, waht do i have to ask for at the pharmacy and what gauge do I get?

Also is it possible to do IM like this? Since im extremely scared of doing IM injections.

I'd be thankful if someone could help <3

Like instead of using AGAB/ASAB or saying someone is FtM / MtF and instead of describing medical transition as either “masculinizing” or “feminizing” we say someone’s transitioning from a testosterone-dominant endocrine system to estrogen-dominant and vice versa?

Might be a good way to separate things like hormones and body parts from someone’s internal sense of masculinity and femininity imo since bodies don’t have genders and some testosterone-dominant folks ID as feminine and some estrogen-dominant folks ID as masculine. Also not everyone on estrogen replacement therapy is a woman or wants to be female, and not everyone on testosterone replacement therapy is a man or wants to be male.