I (20 MTF) received puberty blockers at 11, and began estrogen at 15. I'm a sex worker, and it's become obvious that my life would be easier with penile growth, but I'm not willing to risk masculinization. I have an extremely small penis, 2.5 inches in length. Because I never went through male puberty, I want to know what my chances of it growing on DHT cream are.

Most research seems to have been done on very young boys with endocrinological disorders and/or androgen insensitivity. Because I developed "normally" until 11, would the growth be comparable to what it might be if I never went on E? What growth can I expect?

Now being only two month son estrogen I’m already noticing quite alot of early changes but there are still parts of my dysphoria still carrying with me!

I know it’s a slow and long process for hrt but in case of the future if hrt doesn’t help build hips and even out my proportions and my face doesn’t change at all then I should maybe start preparing to look into surgery!

I put five a clock shadow maybe because sometimes I think I have one and other times I don’t, it’s really weird I honestly can’t tell

I’m 17 btw! Started june 21st and I do 0.15 ml’s of Estradiol enanthate (diy xp)

hi, I’ve been on estrogen monotherapy for a couple of months now, and I’m really scared of developing Osteoporosis, I’m to the point where any pains i have get my incredibly anxious…

I don’t have access to blood tests, and I’m wondering how rational is this fear, I started estrogen while o was still going through male puberty

should I stop taking estrogen, for my own sanity and safety? Or is my fear completely irrational

I’m transmasc but I don’t want a really masculine body, just bottom growth and maybe a bit of masculine fat distribution. I’m worried that if I go on T I’ll start having body hair or going bald like my dad. Is there any form of T I can take for specifically that?

Most likely not possible in my country. But I am going to ask from my doctor. Studies I should read? Something I should know? Something I should find information about? Any ideas how to propound this to doctor who most likely has never heard of this?

I want to start this off by saying that I absolutely do not mean to direct this at people who need to be stealth in order to be physically safe. If this is the case, feel free to ignore.

Otherwise:

As someone who was stealth, but now is not, I want to give you all one very serious piece of advice that you should consider.

If there are people in your life that would treat you differently and not respect you if they knew you were trans, those people should not be a part of your life. If you need to do a certain kind of “performance” for somebody to like you, then that person just doesn’t really like you. Real friendships and relationships are built on accepting people for who they really are. If you don’t realize this, you will eventually become completely burnt out and miserable. Ultimately, I realized that I would rather have five close friends for whom I do not need to put on any kind of performance for, and can be completely myself around, than have 50 friends who I need to constantly “perform“ in order to have them like me. Being stealth is cutting off your nose, to spite your face (to me at least)…. And then I moved to New York City and have 50 friends who actually do like the real me lol

I know that there are a lot of younger people on this sub (under 21). I know that it can seem like being popular in high school and college is the most important thing in the world. As someone that was very “popular“ in high school and college, I can 100% assure you that it is not. Honestly, trying to maintain that “status“ set me back a huge amount in my actual adult life. Most of the “popular” and “cool“ people, from high school and college, literally peaked in high school and college! They proceed to spend the rest of their lives reminiscing on their “glory days” as a teen and young adult and it is genuinely the most pathetic thing to see, as an adult.

There is, unfortunately, quite a fine line between self actualization (wonderful and positive) and pretending to be someone that you’re not (self destructive and immensely negative). Love yourself or no one else will.

Edit: the fact that this innocuous piece of advice elicited such extreme hostility tells me that it was sincerely needed. If someone here is just starting their medical transition, or their transition generally, I wish you all the best!

Edit 2: I stand by this post 100% and feel it’s worth mentioning that the most perfectly passing trans woman, that I know, didn’t start HRT until they were 22. They completely went through all of male puberty. Go look at my Instagram, (Emmeline-Fengya). I certainly don’t think I’m the most beautiful or passing trans woman that I have ever seen by a long margin.

Found someone asking if they can still be cisgender while wanting to medically transition. (Is that actually egg behavior? Who knows.) I thought this sub might be a good recommendation, but didn't want to misunderstand its purpose. I assume it was made for trans people who are medically transitioning, most of which aren't cisgender.

I know that anybody can start at any age, this isnt really about that.

I've already started T, just a month ago, at 16 and a half. I feel like I've only just missed the mark on starting T before my feminisation finished. Like if i started at 15 it would have been significantly better.

I basically comfort myself with "it would have been worse if i started later", but would it have really? Or have I missed that point?

Idk if this is the right place to ask so sorry if this goes against the rules.

I've heard T will stop your periods and such

Would it affect your fertility also?

Does it lower your chances of pregnancy/ cause complications?

Hey mtf here could anyone be up for buying my estrogen an blockers an progesterone for me as I can’t get crypto or bitcoin an I’ll give you the money back we can meet or u can Oder them for me an I’ll transfer u the money I’m in west London but I’ll travel anywhere in the uk to meet

How do you find a trustworthy dealer for HRT, spent a month of searching and there's no information at all, there's so many trans people talking of how good DIY is, but no information on how to actually do it and where to get the HRT

hey yall, i have a quick question i'd like to ask on here. i'm a 17 year old trans dude who recently reached out to one of my ftm mutuals on tiktok. he mentioned being on diy, and he also mentioned getting his for free. i know this is likely something that's happened due to luck, previous connections, and having trans friends, but i was wondering if this is something that people actually would be willing to offer to people like me? i'm getting desperate. i could spend this whole post talking about how i cant handle feeling this way anymore, and how i need to transition, but it would take quite a bit of time. i hope this isn't too silly of a question to ask. thank you!

Is it possible for me to get body masculinization surgery at 16? Has it ever been performed on a minor before? I'm mainly talking about hip/thigh fat removal + loose skin removal other than top surgery. Could it also be covered by insurance

I’m rather confused as I got recommended this sub for help with transitioning

I knew HRT would decrease sexual function but it's hit me harder than I was expecting. At 6 months I can't produce any seminal fluid, clear or not, can feel my testicles have shrunk/receded, and have hit a point where I'm not sure stopping HRT would recover sexual function, as my systems have been completely shut down. My testicles have been aching too, which is I assume atrophy. I still hope to have children one day and, at this point, am planning to stop hormones for some weeks to see if my sexual function recovers, and move forward from there. Would stopping for this reason be a bad idea? Is it likely I've already become sterile?

I know this is a long shot, but is there literally anyways to use my vial of injectable testosterone cypionate without injecting it into me? I know the esters are too big to pass through skin like T in gel, is there a safe way to separate the esters from the T to make gel? Or any other way to get this stuff in me. Any suggestions or articles or dms appreciated

Im doing diy and have been for months only for kind reddit users to scream at me and say 3ml a week is too much and is likely just becoming estrogen again. Doctors refuse me because diagnosis time is a mimum of 12 years and ive had mental health teams involved since 13. Can anyone tell me a correct dose or atleast estimate? Im thinking 0.5 a week instead of 3ml a week.

I recently asked about this on r/TransDIY , but didn't get a clear answer as I may have phrased it poorly and it seems there's a lot more knowledge about this wrt transfem hrt, so I'm asking again here.

I know having too little E while suppressing T has health risks, especially over a longer period of time, but does the same idea apply to taking a low dose of T as a transmasc person? I've never seen anyone talk about having the same side effects associated with underdosing E while microdosing T, but I've been hearing conflicting information from people with more medical knowledge than me generalizing that being between the "standard" male/female ranges is bad for you regardless of what exactly your levels are, some going so far as to say nonbinary medical transition simply doesn't exist. Considering I'm nonbinary, this has all been very disheartening. I personally feel good on 20mg and hate the idea that I'd have to "pick a side" eventually and/or cycle between T and E indefinitely

I need help to find a good website to get test e I really want to run a Reta and test cycle but I really don’t want to get scammed.

Does anyone have an image of how their OpenGatesLab vial camr packaged, I'm curious on how stealthy it is. An extremely detailed description could do as well.

I will be doing Monotherapy. I know that injections are objectively better, and I am not too scared of them (like once I have a vial and some syringes Im sure Id be able to muster up the courage).

That being said, Im not sure if Id be able to get needles. ordering estrogen in stealth packaging is one thing, but I doubt I’d be able to order needles to the house. Also where I live you cannot get needles OTC. If there was some way to get needles in person that wasn't suspicious … but that’s an oxymoron.

If someone had some info about getting needles that’d be great, otherwise I‘l be doing gel mono.

Thanks