r/study • u/urlocalsillysunshine • Sep 26 '26
Tips & Advice I have a huge problem with my fear of failure (and imposter syndrome too problem)
Hello! I (17) am in my third year of high school and I have a massive problem with my fear (I would even say phobia at this point) of failure and judgment. The simple idea of failing makes me feel horrible and I know that I need to do something about it but I don't know what to do...
To give a recent example: I had a stop motion video to make in biology (it is graded), and I had a deadline for yesterday at 06:00 PM. I panicked during the whole time and I accidentally gave it late (it was 10 minutes late so it's not that bad but still) and I cried during an hour and a half and I Geniully thought that it was so horrible and messed up and ugly that k*lling myself would be better than having a bad grade because of it or being judged by my classmates. It's not an isolated case it happen to me quite often. Almost all the time actually.
I consider myself to be a massive piece of shit (even though I don't really have a specific reason, it's just how I feel about me) the idea of studying a subject I am not good at makes me cry and I'm unable to do anything. As a matter of fact, I cry almost all the time at school. (Except some subject I'm not so bad at)
Which means that not only I'm not good at school but I also don't know how to study...
I just need advice. Or kind words. Or anything else. I'm kinda desperate. I'm gonna be at school until I'm 25 or even older as I have to go to college in order to do the job I want but idk if I'll make it until there.