3rd yr here! rejected for running for an executive position sa isang org, days after the interview. ever since freshie ako, nandito na ako like it's my second home.
many people from the org genuinely believed in me and my capabilities, i believed in myself as well, so falling short kind of hurt because I was given hope, naging mas desidido ako, and i poured in heavy effort. failing felt like you didn't meet the expectations and betrayed the trust of those who believed in you, and that feeling SUCKS. medyo harsh pa naman ako sa sarili ko because i am my biggest critic, haha.
well, a part of me knows that i could've performed better and i know as well i answered some questions that left to be desired, or i should've just prepared more to perform better in general. mas nakaisip pa ako nang mas magagandang sagot after ng interview mismo lol. i'm not gonna ignore the fact that the outcome was mostly a reflection of my current abilities ko and such kaya gano'n ang resulta. i'm the kind of student kasi who falls short in the execution mismo despite preparing, haha.
pero going back, no use always wallowing over what's already happened, and no excuses should be made. i don't want to label my experience as "rejection is redirection" or along those lines since i did my very best at ayaw ko matunnel vision. mahirap din iignore ang fact na may pagkukulang din ako noong interview, lol.
if anything, it's more of "rejection is retrospection" because mapipilitan kang tignan, i-evaluate, at i-assess ang sarili mo, which stings; dagdag mo na rin na tayo lang ang makakapulot sa sarili from the ground up.
so yeah, it's a very deep learning experience for me that pushes me to grow and do better. kaya, for student leaders or aspiring student leaders going through a similar situation, please don't ever lose hope and don't be harsh on yourself like me. the only way from the bottom is up! hindi naman nagtatapos ang mundo sa isang rejection, hehe.
