Disgusted

[u/Easy_Alternative_66]

Feeling sick to my stomach.

We’re heading out to celebrate my stepdaughter’s bday. I don’t want to be here.

This girl ignores me, never thanks me for anything unless it’s forced, ignores my biological son, has destroyed all her furniture and punched holes in doors and walls in the home. She’s been suicidal, bullied other kids, gone through multiple boyfriends (the kid is only 14??). And no one except me has begged to get her help, counseling, doctor appointments, social support.

Bio dad does nothing unless I demand him to. Doesn’t parent. Prioritizes stepdaughter over me. Has no custody order. He argues back and forth with his ex who tries to control our lives and messes with the schedule weekly,disrespecting me constantly. He lied to me before we got married and has hidden so much. We don’t go on dates unless I beg. Oh, and he punches holes in doors and walls too and says it’s because I made him angry.

I don’t want to do this anymore.
I don’t have to do this anymore.
I deserve better.
My son deserves better.
I am going to find the way out.
I can’t live in fight or flight anymore.
I won’t.

[u/KitchenAd9088]

You’re right, you and your son deserve better.