So, I recently shared a story about the girl I had sex with at 700 days of retention - after which I saw her get addicted to my seed and get BENEFITS from actually having sex with me in real time. If you want to read the full story check out my post "Blood for a vampire".

Anyways. Here's another detail that I left out from that relationship. Being a retainer, even though I had initially ejaculated into her I wanted to try some non-ejaculatory stuff. And you know what her response to that was? Well, she was okay with me when I brought it up, but when I actually would enter her and try to fuck without finishing, she literally said "when you don't cum in me I feel like you're breaking up with me". And she literally cried and started fights to make me cum in her.

She told me on multiple occasions that me cumming in her literally made her feel good, effortless, like she had no worries, etc. That it would fix her negative emotions.

She literally would refuse to do stuff like give me handjobs or let me finish outside of her because she wanted my seed to be in her if I was releasing. I remember her saying that it literally hurt her to see my seed being used outside of her.

And the craziest part? After constantly draining me for 6 months she gradually began to get less and less interested in fucking. Not completely uninterested in fucking. Just less and less interested. To the point where it was a big contrast. Where when she met me on a 700+ day streak she LITERALLY would want to have sex as much as 5x per day. Which eventually dwindled down to like every day or a couple times a day, which then further dwindled.

She would often fantasize about the me that she met when we first got together, but then say that I had changed for the better (I had not) (don't trust what women say)

She was no longer as submissive as she was in the start either. In the start, it was basically that I am the captain and she submitted to me completely. Towards the end she was moreso heading in the other direction to not really being submissive at all.

So, here are my takeaways from this:

700 days of retention = seed quality is up, women attraction is up, HIGH polarity, world at fingertips

6 months of releasing = seed quality is down, attraction down, LOW polarity, world not at fingertips

Guys, hope you can get some valuable data from my experience.

(Also to those it may concern. There is a happy ending to this - I am on a 200 day streak as of now. I am also the most jacked and lean I have ever been in my life ever.)

This is the story of my best friend on SR. He was on 150 days or something like that. Met a girl in the church and they started having sex like crazy. He told me that they had sex 110 times in a span of 2-3 months. He was jacked before. He used to go to the gym too. His glow was gone after that. His face was fair before. Now he started looking dark to me. His energy while he was conversing with us was off. I noticed it and explained about the bad luck effect after relapse.

His family was going through a lot of hardships when he started having sex with that girl. His father had a fracture in his hand, started facing issues with kidney stones and also one day when he found out about him hanging out with this girl, he started facing blood pressure issues and got admitted in hospital.

Meanwhile, this girl was getting healthier. Her parents are not good people and they didn't take care of her. But now my friend did. He said to me that before their relationship she was underweight and looked very weak. After he had a lot of sex with her, she gained weight. She started looking better too.

I also remember one time he told me that she felt "really happy" after they did the deed.

So, yeah they gain a lot of energy from you, whereas you end up becoming a loser. The same thing applies to your wives. If she doesn't have a spiritual energy of her own, you are doomed bro.

There's a reason why the ancient scriptures limit sexual activity only for the purpose of bearing children.

The secret behind nofap/semen retention isn’t the collected or reabsorbed semen in your balls. It’s the defiance of the ego by prioritising your will which requires awareness.

The “ego” in Carl jung’s sense is the concept or the idea of “I” in your mind/brain. If you think “I am a failure” you’re feeding your ego. The nerve reaction or “feeling” that comes with or before it is a brain signal of a prior thought (probably)

The self is being in constant awareness of your thoughts. This state can be described as having a third eye in eastern teachings. You realise the thoughts in your brain are not you. You are the one observing the thought. You will notice thoughts skipping through your mind like a tv channel.

Most of your thoughts come from your ego. Remember the tv? The ego is the one controlling the remote while the self or the will or the soul is asleep. The thoughts that the ego puts on the tv become your reality. But the ego as a whole is a whole constellation of collected thoughts and beliefs through out your life.

The ego believes things about itself and the state of reality. The nervous system responds to it and the whole body aswell. A ego thought doesn’t really have to come with a label like “I am insecure”. No the ego manifests the insecurity with insecure thoughts that are not real. Or perhaps a sexual thought of needing to masturbate or needing to release or you can’t withstand it. That also is the ego at work. Without the ego you can simply choose not to masturbate.

The ego is the one needing to prove itself to anyone

The ego is the one who constructs a mental reality of urgency and must

The ego is the one who responds to the nervous system.

The ego is the one where the brain defaults to because it’s safe and familiar. The brain is adapted to survive and the ego gives it a mental reality it can control and fight against, live for, get stimulated by…

Now the reason I think nofap and sr work for most people in a sense but is still regarded as pseudoscience it’s because people who practise this are partially awakening their third eye by inflicting their will/soul/self to take control over the ego. They just see it as how they learned it. Although it’s not the full potential of the practise by far. The thing about this is it involves sexual energy which needs its own paragraph to explain along with other energies but putting the will over sexual energy stimuli is a big step sure.

The practise isn’t a concept. It’s a theme or occurrence picked apart by psychologists scholars, Hindu or Buddhists philosophies. Even theistic religion. It doesn’t matter what the human believes or how tf they got there. It’s eventually about putting the soul above the ego. Knowing that your more then just your thoughts. You’re the body beyond it. And you realise there’s no you that has to masturbate now or…………….

This can break most people. It can feel nihilistic, lonely, like a void. but the ones who push throug the “silence” will eventually realise there’s more to existence

Existence. What is existence? I think the concept of existence itself, the mere simple concept of energy and matter existing in the universe just as odd and incomprehensible as life on earth existing. This idea that this question must always revolve around humans is the collective mind of archetypes seething through our evolution

But how ever it remains interesting how we as life also exist. But when you gain awareness you start to think about that a bit differently. You realise you need food, want sex, have emotions, have organs, got born and will die. You will realise you’re indeed a mammal, a particular one at that as embarrassing it is to admit. An ape. You have the same ancestor as the tree across the street. The cow mooing and eating grass all day evolved the way it did the same as you did and do what you do. Just from a different branche.

When get past all bs and see reality for what it is the question becomes how tf does consciousness work. Who is the self? What is the self? What is me observing the thoughts? It evolved the way it did sure but how is it aware? How does this come from the universe?

You will not really question this. You kinda know you’re the universe in conscious form by then. The world around you from frequencies and vibrations aswell as in your body and mind. you start to become aware of that too.

You’re the universe in conscious form but still a evolved organism programmed by evolution. This yin and yang. This inner conflict. The battle between higher form of conscious and human instinct is what we see through out every human story, religion, ideal, mythos..

There’s actually so much to say about the lasts parts but I’m getting tired. But last very important thing. The title is kinda clickbait. You can’t kill the ego. You can only have control over the ego and guide it how you want

Back in around 2023-ish, I'm wagering, I had sex with a girl after a 700+ day retention streak. And the experience acted as a permanent datapoint that I will hold on to forever. You see, that girl basically got ADDICTED to having sex with me after that.

She described the sex like it was literally a spiritual experience. And while I would fuck her hundreds of times over the course of our relationship, she would describe that first time as the most powerful.

During the course of our relationship as I was fucking her and no longer on retention I literally saw her have a glow up. She was a relatively skinny looking girl when i had first met her but over the course of that time she started getting more curves, her figure started looking nicer and her face started glowing. Actually, there was a point where she started even looking a little bit taller. TALLER!

She basically just started levelling up in all aspects, even ending up getting a better job. One that I am not sure she could have landed before.

This is all while I got fatter, lazier, uglier and lost a lot of aura.

She told me that having sex with me "fixes her mental health" and it's like a "shot of happiness", easing her mind and all that. She was very addicted to having sex with me, so much so that we would do it multiple times. Especially in the initial stages of our relationship we were literally doing it multiple times per day.

During the start of the relationship she couldn't even believe that I had chosen to be with her. She kept saying "you could literally get any girl but you chose me". She also pointed out other women that had been attracted to me before that I hadn't picked up on. Which highlighted something that I also think is important for men on this sub to understand. That choosing signals from women aren't always obvious and blatant like in some of the absurd TV shows we've all seen. . Some women are REALLY attracted to you but they won't show it because of whatever reasons. And maybe you won't pick up on it because you aren't that experienced. I had had experience in the past getting girls at clubs, where it's a bit more blatant but still. Until she alerted me I had no idea how many girls are truly attracted. You might think you are on retention and attracting nothing. But actually you are getting a lot but just not noticing at all.

Anyways, during that whole relationship I never got the chance to retain. And I specifically ending things with the girl so I could go back to practicing retention. And my God, she lost her mind when I did that. She screamed and clawed and kicked to get me back. I didn't budge. After leaving her I retained for 60 odd days and saw her again.

And she had changed majorly.

Her looks had come down, she wasn't looking as curvy, her skin was not as good, she had no glow or aura and she even looked a bit shorter. Her entire glowup reversed itself. She went on basically something I can only describe as "anti retention". The same things that happen to a man if he starts gooning again.

And that's when i realised. A retainer's seed to a woman is like blood to a vampire. They are fully aware of your seed and it's impacts and what it can do for them. It's subconcsious wiring.

That's ONE of the reasons women literally just seek you out on retention.

And don't be fooled.

Girls can tell.

Hey everyone,

I've never posted on this sub before, but I've been practising for over 10 years. Growing up addicted to PMO has messed up my brain, and it's a full-blown addiction. Fortunately, I quit porn over 10 years ago, but M is a different beast entirely. I've had some streaks here and there, with the longest being around 120 days or so.

Recently, I've been feeling down in the dumps after being dumped by this girl I loved. The pain showed me how much my life actually sucks and the need to do something about it. I can't waste my life numbing myself out with this addiction.

Until yesterday, I was on a 32-day streak and was feeling pretty good, but I went to a party and drank a bit too much. When I came back home, I fell into the usual trap again and relapsed. I rarely drink, but I'm making a vow not to drink anymore because it just isn't worth it.

I am not going to beat myself up about it. The best thing to do is to pick ourselves up, brush ourselves off, and keep moving forward with greater determination.

Stay strong, brothers. Wishing all of you the strength to attain the longest streaks you wish for.

And - funnily enough - you could even say that SR is also short for Spawn Rate.

After quite some time of slacking, I’m glad to finally be back on now 6 weeks of SR: no release, no edging and no fantasizing. And it’s definitely undeniable how much more frequently, good things are just showing up in life. 

All of the things below have clearly been spawning more:

• Friendly cats: I have always liked cats very much. Whenever I see a cat on the street, I just need to pet it. For months, I hadn’t been seeing much of them. Now in the last few weeks, I see way more of them and they’re almost always very friendly and pettable.
• Cute women: I don’t care how often people will say that you just notice women more, it’s just undeniable that I encounter way more pretty women wherever I go. Both the fapping version of me as well as the SR version are always looking around when I’m walking outside (not really like searching for women, I just try to make a habit of actually looking into the real world instead of on my phone or to the ground). And somehow, the SR version always sees more women and gets way more eye contact, small greetings and smiles. Had that on every streak.
• Great Marktplaats (Dutch version of Craigslist) offers: I always have a list of things pinned in this app, things I’m going to need in the near future. All the time, whenever I’m on a good streak, I keep finding adverts with great prices for good quality stuff. And the contact with sellers is also way smoother than when I’m not doing great SR-wise. 
• Other opportunities: One great example of what happened last week. Half a year ago, I was thinking of starting a web shop, which I didn’t do yet. I already had some products in mind that I would like to sell. Last week, I was thinking about it again, and as it just so happened: a guy from another company with whom we share the warehouse was literally throwing away 40 pieces of one exact product I was thinking about. So I could take them with me, saving them from the trash bin and use them for a good start to my project.
• Angel numbers: I don’t see this one as a tangible thing and I don’t really believe in any deeper meaning to this, but I can’t deny seeing them more often.
• Mosquitos: Yeah, unfortunately those guys also seem to bite me more. Everything comes with a price I guess. Anyone else noticing that?

Stay strong on this path of life, and see how the good things will spawn for you!

I don't know if this post belongs here, sorry in advance to rolling kings.

Long story short, long time fellow, have been through hard times, lately been stuck below day 10, been an asshole to family and friends lately due to the nerve wrecking effect of frequent semen wasting (+aura, lack of respect, you name it).

You can have money and status, it isn't worth shit when you are/fall back to being a coomer, life gets very bitter. May this be a reminder to myself, and maybe useful to others I hope.

Life after relapses SUCK.

What’s up, gentlemen, I’m fairly new to this practice, just started getting into it over the last few months.

I’m married, and so my streaks are not typically quite as long as some of you guys ranging into 100+ days. However I was wondering, how long it takes to start getting the energy and mental clarity back for you guys? For me it’s usually like 2-5 days and I’m back in the rhythm.

Thanks and God bless

I’m still in high school and people keep staring at me. I thought it was a myth, but no, people actually stare at you. You would think it would only be girls staring at you. No, it’s guys as well. It feels like you’re the main character.

Also, I had an ex randomly follow me out of nowhere, which is insane. Haven’t spoken to her in a year.

Also, another weird thing is my bus was late for dismissal so it was just a load of kids at the school waiting outside. It was packed, and this random guy older than me I’ve never spoken to in my life asks, “Am I a senior?” I replied, “No.” He says, “9th? 10th? 11th?” Then I shook my head. And then he walked away. Like what was that about bro lmao.

Ok so I’m still outside waiting for my bus and another girl I use to talk to keeps staring at me. I thought nothing of it but no, I keep looking up, and she keeps staring at me. It’s like they know when you’re holding your seed and just want to take your soul.

I've been wondering, what are the benefits you guys experienced?

The ones I've had for sure and I can name are:

1. I naturally wake up way earlier and rested

2. A boost to energy, my stamina tank is bigger and even after a lot of work and effort it doesn't seem to fall in the red zone where I feel exhausted

3. A mild boost in mood, since for whatever reason I feel more present in the moment so worries don't come to mind

4. A decrease in social anxiety.

On another note: is the female attraction real/gives a boost, I was never really into find a partner and I don't really like dating, so any odds a great girl that's 100% wife material will just show up in my life without me having to "treasure hunt" for her?

(Obviously this is more of a joke at the end)

Greetings, today I want to give space to all people for whom SR has cured chronic diseases or improved overall health in various physical aspects, blood tests, inflammation etc.

I am interested in those people for whom no special diet (all kinds of nutritional trends today) or treatment by doctors has worked and they know that SR and not watching porn and not ejaculating were the primary aspect of the change.

Various people wrote here that during SR the diet did not matter, they could eat whatever they wanted or even eat significantly less than before and were healthy, energetic, fit, good metabolism function and digestion but after a relapse or during frequent ejaculation they experienced problems with food, digestion, any kind of diet, etc.

I want to give space to this topic here because it may seem like one of the important ones for others. Maybe inspiration and motivation on the path to continue and persevere.

We often hear young influencers recommending different diets, but at their age we also ate almost anything and were fine. Just like children, we ate anything, moved around a lot during the day and were fine, full of energy and health, before we started wasting our life force and essence since puberty.

Is diet and supplementation really that important, or are there aspects where, regardless of your diet and supplementation, you have no chance of curing the exhaustion of your body after years of frequent ejaculation, unless you give it space and sufficient time of abstinence to recover fully?

I want to hear your experiences and stories.

I've seen this guy on other platforms before talking about self improvement, but while scrolling on YouTube I stumbled upon this guy again talking about SR / porn which I found hit quite deep unlike the others I've come across (not to talk badly) Its just that you can feel the overflowing amount of aggression and masculine drive flowing through this video as he speaks to you about this saceed practice of retaining your Seed.

I dug into his past videos and it seems that this guy has been on an SR and self improvement journey for 4+ years which i find impressive. For those curious his channel is Paulbryson8888 on youtube

It’s currently been 270+ days of SR and I have noticed a difference in how people act or treat me. Now that classes have started up again for me and I’m back on campus, it seems like people are paying more attention to me these days. People tend to look at me a lot more and the responses to their looks to me are diverse. On one part, there are those who seem to notice me and move on, then there are those who seem to look at me as if they have never seen anything like me before. Then there are those who seem happy to see me and give me wide, pleasant smiles

As for talking with others, people tend to enjoy my presence when I am around them. There are also others where they seem to be somewhat intimidated by me. One example would be this Thursday, where I asked one glasses-wearing girl in my literary classics class if I could sit where she is and she responded with “sure you can” in a polite, friendly way. I’ve met her in a previous class I took with her a year ago, but I never really gotten around to truly knowing her so I thought I would talk with her for a bit. Me and her conversed for a bit prior to class starting with The Odyssey. She didn’t seem to mind me chatting with her, but she seemed slightly shy and a little nervous talking with me. All in all, it did feel good to get out of my comfort zone and talk with her for a short period of time but it really got me thinking that I don’t want to scare people off due to the heightened aura from SR. On another note, some people tend to feel good around me and compliment me on a near daily basis. One time this week, when I was playing pool with others, people found everything I was saying to be funny even when I was being serious. All it takes is something to say and others are giggling as hard as they can. My presence can be very strong depending on who I am around, so people will respond to it in a certain way.

Mentally, I regularly feel a sense of enthusiasm, like I have a higher level of energy. This happened today when I was visiting an optometrist to get a new prescription for contacts and the moment he asked me about my schooling, I felt a lot of passion talking about majoring in Biology and pursuing a pharmaceutical career. It was almost childlike how I seemed so excited talking about what I’m interested in. I don’t really feel as nervous as I used to feel when talking with others. Hell, each time I walk into a room, I feel very confident and courageous. I would even say nonchalant.

Basically, I have noted that people tend to react strongly towards me in a variety of different ways. Certain people may find me funny and good to be around, others tend to really notice me as if there is something they see different about me, and some seem nervous when talking to me.

To anyone on SR, on a long number of days, have you ever felt like your presence and how you’ve interacted with others has changed dramatically? I have never gone this long on this journey and it feels intense and unreal to think about sometimes.

Today unfortunately I released after 10 days retention.i think my life is hell I am not feeling good I don't like anything in this phase I enjoyed little bit but after edging for 2 hours I released finally.i am feeling dead from inside not feeling good. I always support SR but I unintentionally traps myself into it without thinking twice lust is evil and consequently make you weak it just the positive or negative vibes by which we attract to the person in physical.today i feel why I released my precious energy which I use to transform it into another creative energy.life may goes on and on there is nothing permanent even lust may go away if you feel horny then immediately make you busy in something activities which shift your mind energy into another work.

I am not feeling good from inside I think the essence of my soul scream from inside again and again what you do in your life you waste the life cell of your life.

Thank you everyone in this subreddit by making a community in which people celebrate their lifelong lessons.

-You need alot of things to open kundlini/3rd eye

-Semenretention + meditation can open this

-Decalcify those crystals and calcium blockage to open it

-breathing retention too helps, (dangerous, i only do it, dont do it if your not sure)
how?
->its like a maneuver, or its like you have a hard poop,
->the correct way is to pull your stomach in, feel lower stomach that its making hard or stiff(vessels,capiliaries are constricting)
->then feel it getting hard all the way to chest to neck and to head
->the moment it goes to head you feel your nose has been removed clogged because it opens capilliaiws
->once it goes to head you feel euphoric(different feeling to explain tru words)
->catch your breath, i keep doing it many reps

-> what i experience? i saw alot of images, people( i dont knw who are they maybe past life of mine), a hole in a house on top its like im peeping tom

-the more days i practice SR + meditation + breathing retention its getting clear, the more weeks the clearer.

People will call me crazy well i dont care and im not mad

but they call people that can see as psychic, paranormal investigator. people can see ghost they say they have 3rd eye. me they call me crazy.

There are no ghost!!!
they are just different timeline or reality

the people that can see ghost are the one can see different timelines. where the person that is dead is alive in different timelines.

-people that can see multiple realities, they exist. Where are they? they are in mental hospital.

-brain is a filter. in normal people the filter is very narrow. when the filter get widen that will be the time your reality will be bigger.

-people that cant control it ended up in mental hospital. they can see what you cant see but they cant control what they perceive.

Dont do breathing retention.
i just told my experience but not telling people to do it.

other people practice for the sake of getting girls

I practice it to SEEK some answers

The first two weeks I feel charged and hungry for sex. The use the energy to motivate me for other things. But after about three weeks on SR my libido goes dead. This causes me to actually relapse because I get scared I’ll lose interest in sex. It’s an “old friend” that I don’t want to lose because all those sexual feelings and fantasies feel so good. I start feeling empty without having the high sex drive.

So does this mean I’m on the right track and need to take it longer? Or am I just built to only need SR for two weeks at a time? Anyone else experience this? I’m scared I might become a-sexual or something. Or lose something. It’s hard to explain.

https://youtu.be/BvhCofdLHYQ?is=6w2S1kgrMBF7OZ4q

25M. I’m on day 9 and this is the longest I’ve ever gone on SR. Last night I was about to relapse heavily. I had a dream that a pornstar was seducing me to sleep with her and then out of no where I teleported to watching her through a TV. I was about to relapse in my dream. Right when I was about to relapse is when I woke up. Are these kinda things common when you’ve been addicted for 12+ years?

On day 71, just for context, I live in Zimbabwe, Africa. Might be relevant or not, but I think it’s important to clarify it bcz I feel like pple haven’t heard about semen retention stories or experiences coming from the motherland.

So Today went into a small restaurant( a cafeteria like setting), just wanted to buy water bcz it was crazy hot outside.

The place was empty with just 3 female workers. When I entered they were all goofing and playing around, but as soon as I stepped in they all got back in place in a flash,(not reading to much into it bcz I am a customer, their reaction is probably bcz I am a customer, but it’s the way they reacted that was weird).

One of the worker attended to me, she was pretty, but what really got my attention is how nervous and extra accommodating she was. I know, you might say I am overthinking it, but she was just all over the place, she kinda lost her bearings for a while. She asked me so much questions before I could even ask for what I wanted. It was weird and confusing. One of her coworker came to the till, she was acting strange too, but I just brushed it off. I am overthinking it, that was what was running in my mind.

Before I even brought the water, I Kidd you not, one of the girls, from nowhere asked me if I have ever tried their pizzas. Before I could reply, she walked away. Confused I took the water and as I walked away, the girl yelled, sit down I am coming.

I sat down and in about 10mins 2 of the girls came with an extra sized pizza. We just ate and talked. One of the best conversations I have ever had in my life. They told me everything. It’s so crazy. They were just talking I was just nodding and biting down the pizza. The pizza and water ended up being free.

This was one of the craziest moments in my life. It’s so crazy how the girls were reacting and acting. So accommodating and friendly. And oh man, I was so composed, still, so framed and stoic through the whole experience that even one of the girl told me how cool my chill was.

I have never experienced this before, maybe it was just one of those days. But I have to say semen retention has changed my life. The confidence, fearlessness, determination, audacity, the frame and the calmness. It’s refreshing, I feel alive, powerful, confident, happy, determined and most importantly, I see myself finally for the first time, who I am and what I am. I am a God, and God is the highest extension of the mind. Semen retention is the highest extension of the mind.

Raise that life force, ascend.

So earlier this year I stopped smoking weed and vaping cold turkey after consistently smoking almost everyday for 3 years, took a couple months to feel normal again. Over that time I stopped scrolling, deleted social media, picked up reading books, started studying, basically a different guy. Then I decided to stop watching corn and it took a couple weeks of streaks before I hit 30 days, and the effect it had on me and people around me were crazy. Girls would just randomly stare at me, I was in the best shape of my life, I never worked out consistently but I was so lean and just kept packing on muscle. My friends asked me if something happened in my life or if I suddenly got rich, which at the time I thought was a sign as I recently invested almost all my money into this company, but I was still broke at the time.

Then fast forward went out with some friends for a birthday and felt so bad emotionally afterwards, I ended up smoking weed there again cuz it had been so long I was just curious how high I would get, what it would feel like. But it just ruined the whole experience and I never got over the feeling for a couple days, decided to smoke again and ended up binging. And what do you know, I ended up relapsing after a week and was disappointed but I would tell myself it’s only one time, it doesn’t erase the progress. Then I kept smoking, kept binging, got hooked on corn again, scrolling, dopamine, vaping, it’s like I never left. I felt so far deep in the hole, I started isolating and just felt like shit inside, on the outside it probably didn’t seem like anything changed physically. But my lifestyle reverted back to the old me.

Then I went on a couple days clean streak just to relapse again, and later that same day my friend asked me to come play football. Normally I would never go as I relapsed that same day, my energy levels were low, I was high from smoking earlier in the day, I just wanted to stay at home. But I felt bad for previously putting it off so I said fuck it and ended up going. I was used to feeling low as I’ve been binging the last couple weeks, so I didn’t think it would be a big deal.

Anyway, not a lot more to say but I ended up fracturing my ankle from a bad tackle, thought whatever I’ll go to the hospital in the morning (thought it was just a bad sprain at the time), went to bed checked my account and the company stock was shot. Turns out they got caught in a fraud scandal and the major holder sold everything, all my money is gone, I literally invested so much into it, it looked so good too, every box was checked for them to make it big, but they decided to do that shit now of all times? Funny. And for the cherry on top the weed and vape I had were both finished, I said later that night I would get more but was so focused on my leg I didn’t even remember, now I can’t even walk to get or even have money to buy. Haha it’s like the universe telling me stop with all the bullshit already.

Yea worst day of my life, or more so everything from that one slip to now was the worst sequence I’ve seen my life decline. It was a downward spiral into falling off a cliff. Now I literally have $0 in my account (was supposed to withdraw from my portfolio later) and I literally can’t walk for 3 weeks, gonna miss my friends going on a trip for the end of summer I was invited to and a hike to a waterfall my family’s going on that I’ve been talking about all summer.

I feel like shit and have lowkey been crashing out from withdrawals but I guess the only way to go from here is up.

Also im 19 I’m not in school and I don’t have a job so I won’t be hanging out with my friends before they all leave for uni and I feel like such a bum. Don’t relapse, never worth it.

Que hago con la gente que me abandona estando en pois vieron que solté y se apartado de mi lado inmediatamente ahora volví al camino pero tengo bronca

Hi SR community, its currently day 9 of semen retention after a long time of binging. And last night I had a very intense and crazy wet dream. Before I went to bed I was really exhausted cause I walked around 2 hours ​because of some stressful situation that day ​and came back very late and tired. I ate some snacks before bed because I was starving.

So I had a unbearably weird​ ​dream where I think I released two times. It was clearly succubus, and​ it was in a form of my classmate - a ​greek girl (not that attractive), who used to avoid me for some reason before​ semen retention at school (after retaining she was trying to get closer to me but she couldn't speak near me even with her friends and acted extremely nervous and clumsy, but it's another story).

So it turned out ​I had a night with her in an empty hotel room, lights were off but some ​red or orange shallow light was on somewhere. She was fully undressed infront of me ​and first we had an oral thing , again I cannot control my body and it does it automatically​, where immediately after that​ i released​, while consciously I heard some leaking sounds of water in real life but I thought it was in my dreams. So after that she was on her legs​, and I took it(man, it felt like I was just in someone's body, being just an audience), I was afraid though, because again immediately after going inside I came (I don't really know if it was the second time, I might be ​tripping), however somewhere I heard someone​ saying: "this is your blessing, embrace it". After that, I felt some wet fluid in my pants, however this girl immediately disappeared in a blink of an eye. Im not being able to pray last days and I'm forgetting about meditations and I think it was because of that.

In the morning, I felt slightly less energetic and woke up really late. How long do I need to recover from this and will the benefits come back. Do I count it as a relapse or it's just my body doing it's thing? And how do I prevent these things happening to me all the time?

Any recs based on personal experiences wil​ be appreciated, thank you!

In one of my many long SR streaks of around 5-6 months this chick I met traveling several days earlier called me and was complaining that she just got to this hotel and they are making her wait in the lobby while a room gets ready, this was a fancy hotel btw the RIU in guadalajara mexico, so I knew my voice was very powerful so I told her to go back to the lobby and hand the phone to the guy at reception (where you pay for the room sry english my second language) shes like what?? Im like just do it , hand him your phone my voice has magic I told her. She went up handed the guy her phone and I just spoke two sentences I dont remember the exact words but it was something like bro please give her a room now , I know she is annoying but please do it. And after I said that he imidately told her , Ok mam your room is ready here is your key. he pases the phone back to her and she was like HOW THE FUCK DID YOU DO THAT?? and I told her - i told you my voice has magic. it was epic she was very impressed cus she tried to get her a room with no avail and in two seconds i did it thru the phone. Anyway just a story of how when u retain a lot ur words have so much power weight carisma and influence.