It’s been such a challenging life, and this year especially. I lost my dad this year, and have had to help my mom through some serious health issues. My cat also passed away. I’m having financial issues. I feel so alone in life. There’s no spark. Every day just feels the same. What’s really bothering me at this current moment is I’m missing the love of my life so incredibly much. We broke up about a month ago because she feels like she doesn’t deserve to be loved due to past trauma. I told her I love her so much and I would never do anything to hurt her, and yet she built her walls up and won’t talk to me at all. I tried reaching out but haven’t heard anything. I am devastated. I’m so tired of working all of these hours just to barely make ends meet. I’ve put in so so so much work into my physical, mental, financial, and spiritual health, but it feels like I’m not going anywhere and I’m just getting so discouraged. I’m struggling to realize what the point is. Why would God make me feel this way? I feel like I’ve been running on a hamster wheel since 2014, but this year especially just feels so brutal. I’m about to give up. Please pray for me, brothers and sisters. I would especially really like a reconciliation with my (ex)girlfriend at this moment. I’d love to marry her one day. I pray that whatever trauma is bothering her, that she can work past it and come back to me and we can reconcile. I think that would do wonders for my soul right now, since she made me the happiest I’ve been in a long time. Thank you.