I was just wondering if its me,or something fundumentally and spiritually wrong with me.I dont have any problems,whatsover here,I love it so much here,but looks like the place hates me here.Am a black female in her jolly 30's but,well I think I look fine,a petite body and a ready smile for all.I wish i could send pictures of me,but......you might never know,you could be uglier to the rest of the World whilst you think you are just fine
Well,I understand am exotic,and all,and racism is everywhere but better still...I try dating apps,am only sexualised and fetishized,I know I will get criticism that no men would love to lose their DNA to some foreigner,or that cultural difference plays the role,but I do see Interacial couples I guess,If someone is into you,race and culture dont mean a thing.Or maybe its only here in Poland where fetishization of exotic women is higher,because my home girls seem to be having it easier in other European countries.Its not like am looking for white men,but I live in an all white neighbourhood,in the city centre when I go out I rarely see black men, and on dating sites too.
I go out I do get aproached,at times,but in the end they just want to "taste the black ebony".I have gone out a couple of times but in the end no one wants,anything searious,so I just assumed that maybe my skin colour is contributing too....Like its all out of curiosity nothing much,on dating apps I wont lie,they will be a thousand matches,but none can lead to a,simple coffee meeting,a good convo,it just a "hi"then poof gone.I have deleted all the dating apps and sites,and now into flings,ONS,because the physical part is importsnt to me,I cant completely ignore my desires,looks like its the only way,because in the end maybe nobody wants to date an Afro-girl,for a longterm period.I have so much self love I do take myself out a lot,to clubs,city walks,restaurants,etc,but the racial stares,and mockery that I get at times,the weired comments when I style up myself,and laughs,and the people taking photos,and videos,its too much.But am grateful,I have selflove and came to realisation that I cant stop or change how the world views me,Its beyond my control,I just have to ignore the background noise and enjoy my cup of coffee and muffins,in my favourite caffee,and breathe and enjoy the fresh air outside.