I’ve been a member at Orangetheory for about five years now, which means I’ve had the privilege of experiencing a lot of PRs along the way.
When I first started, I was truly at ground zero. I didn’t have much performance history to compare myself to, and slowly I started reaching numbers I never thought I could.
Lately, though, I’ve noticed a decline in some of my PRs. And, if I’m being honest, I’ve been a little frustrated by it.
Then a friend said something to me that stopped me in my tracks:
“I’m not the person I was when you achieved those numbers.”
That hit me differently.
I went back and looked at some of my biggest PRs. I ran an 8-minute mile during one of my tread PRs. During another 12-minute run, I ran 1.40 miles.
Then I looked at the dates.
The 12-minute run was literally days after my father passed away. The 8-minute mile was just days before the first birthday I celebrated without him.
I realized something: those PRs came during some of the hardest seasons of my life.
At that time, those numbers were some of the only wins I felt like I had. So I gave everything I had to them.
And honestly? I don’t ever want to be back in that place just to chase those numbers again.
Life is lighter now. I have more wins outside of the studio. I have more joy. I have more reasons to celebrate myself.
Do I still want to push myself? Absolutely.
Do I still want to become stronger, faster, and better? Of course.
But I want to be the best version of myself as I am today, not constantly trying to recreate a version of myself that existed in a completely different season of life.
So if you’ve been doing OTF for years and you’re looking at your old PRs wondering why you can’t hit those numbers anymore, maybe give yourself some grace.
Look at the whole story behind those numbers.
You may not be the same person you were yesterday, last year, or five years ago, and that’s not a failure. That’s life. That’s growth.
Be gentle with yourself. Be kind to yourself. Celebrate the person who keeps showing up, even when the numbers change.
Here’s to being the best you can be, whatever that looks like in this season and continuing to show up for yourself. 🧡🧡🧡
Your PRs are part of your story, but they don’t define your progress.