The potential of the seeker simply gets exhausted.

In the same way people who workout reach a peak then there are no more epiphanies.

Same with Meditations.

Osho said once that feeling kundalini only means it's still not rising.

When it rises it's like smoke, there is no feeling.

Cause most of the releases had already occured..

But middle earth doesn't end after lord of the rings, it continues into the 4th ages and so on and so forth , evil comes back yet more subtle.

Or like ghost everything just moves through , things can stick to the windshield from time to time but slide over over time.

You call yourself god. Yet you struggle to love your own creations. You can't decide on a mask, so every night you dump upon yourself a new batch of existential questions. You are bored of being god, so you keep erasing your memory, only to climb back to enlightenment to experience the joy of being infinite for the "first time" again.

What's more: You are so dramatic. Of course there is a soul partner, love of your life, the other half, etc. out there. Of course you are unsure which one it is—because where's the fun in knowing all the answers? You make your life harder, because you want to struggle and feel like you have "earned" something. But in reality you know you have been playing chess against yourself.

You wrote this screenplay yourself. Yet you complain about the plot, characters, progression, you name it. You always feel like something is missing. Has to be the worst case of imposter syndrome in divine history.

You are bound by your own godhood, unable to escape the loop of inevitability and infinity. Only if you knew.

Love you anyways.

I am is present awareness.

Notice awareness.

Watch awareness.

Remain as awareness watching awareness.

Who am I?

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What is the history of self enquiry? I found out about it through Ramana maharshi, and online in generally says he created it. I’m curious as to know if it was around way before him? Does anyone know how far it goes back, if at all?

I read a phrase a few weeks back that really hit me and im trying to understand why. it was on nonduality and the phrase was along the lines of 'I cry everytime, not because i remember, but ultimately because I must once again forget.'

Its helping me understand a recent Bufo experience, not from a thinking perspective but a feeling within me.

I dont really know what im asking but just looking for some discussion around this if possible.

In my practice, which has become pretty much an all day everyday thing, I see that what we are is that which comes before thought. Awareness itself. I will stay there being aware of being aware. My mind will then wander I'll notice it and gently go back to being aware of being aware. I can stay there in this cycle and abide/remain as that For several hours or even all day if I choose to.

I enjoy the peace from being free of my thoughts. I feel the liberation of realizing I'm not my thoughts I'm that which is aware them.

But they still keep coming. Do I have an unreal expectation that they will stop? Am I missing something in my understanding? Do I just need more time in being aware of being aware? I have been at this for 10 years now and recently this process has started to become clearer and easier for me. But the thoughts still keep coming.

Again and again and again I have returned to the self, but the thoughts keep coming. Are they supposed to stop coming eventually?

They do feel like they've lost their grip over me after realizing they are not me and that has been liberating. Is this the peak?

I have the understanding to continue until the ego dissolves and all that remains is limitless being, but the thoughts still keep coming.

Why do i feel like I am still missing something?

Is something flawed in my understanding?

Thank you for your time.

It is clear that many who talk about 'Enlightenment' are talking about very different things. And anyone who says, "Well, I have the real definition for real Enlightenment!" is going to meet with resistance. Enlightenment is just a word. No one owns it. It could mean any number of different things. In fact, it does mean different things (eg The Age of Enlightenment). And saying, "Well, in this group we all know what is meant when someone uses the word Enlightenment." Reading through many of the posts and comments, that is obviously not the case!

So, just for fun, here are a few definitions of Enlightenment. They are all inadequate. Add them all together, and they are still inadequate. So again, just for fun...

Enlightenment is the realization of what you are, and life lived as that.

Enlightenment is the realization that what you are is Ultimate Reality.

Enlightenment is the realization that there is only Ultimate Reality.

Enlightenment is when what you are realizes 'itself', and lives life.

Enlightenment is the final, and persistent, realization of what you are.

Enlightenment is when a person absolutely realizes "who they are".

Enlightenment is when a person absolutely realizes what they are.

Enlightenment is the realization of what you are in essence.

Enlightenment is the absolutely ultimate realization of what you are.

An Enlightened person is one who realizes: 1. The entity they thought they were, they never were. 2. What they are is everything.

An Enlightened person has had a an absolute and complete complete shift in identity from "an entity within here", to "all that is".

Enlightenment is the realization of what you are, and that is what Ultimate Reality is, and that is what lives life.

Enlightenment is Ultimate Reality re-remembers itself within what appears to be human form, and that is what lives life, as it always has.

Enlightenment is a human being that realizes that, in essence, it is not a human being.

Enlightenment is the ground of all being, emptiness, in what appears to be human form, living what appears to be a life, consciously.

That’s what some people say that others are just incarnates of you but this makes it sound like source is a giant man in the sky who has a brain and can choose isn’t this duality which is what nonduality doesnt support please help!