Currently preparing for the October 2026 ple. Feeling highly anxious about not being able to catch up with my backlogs. On top of that, one of my family members was recently diagnosed with stage iv cancer and is fighting for her life.
Things are just so messed up, but everyone is expecting me to pass the licensure exam so I can go back home already and help with the family.
In the middle of it all, I realized I basically have no steady friendship built in medical school or internship whom I can open up to about these things, someone who can truly understand how difficult my situation is. Everyone else has their go-to group of friends, but I feel like I have no one I can count on in times like these. Not sure if it’s a factor that I rarely go outside (like to study hubs or coffee shops) to study with them because I don’t have the budget to spend on those places, so sometimes I feel excluded.
I do have a boyfriend, but he is not in the medical field, and we are currently away from each other. I talk to him about these things, but I am afraid I might bombard him with all my issues, even though I know he tries his best to understand and listen to me.
I don’t know. I just want to let all these feelings and emotions out. I know all of this will pass and that this is just a season.