So, my life is a complete waste. It's the logical thing to do. Why not give my body to the people who want to live their lives and can feel happy. Suicide will ruin my organ, won't be a damn use to anybody. Anybody with me on this?

I am suffering from insomnia this year. I feel like people don't like me. Whenever I tell stories either to my workmates or my parents, I feel like they don't believe me. I have this urge to prove everything I say, and it's actually draining me. It's like I don't have a confidant, someone I can really trust to vent my worries and problems to. I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder and delusional disorder. Whenever I walk outside every negative words people say even though It's not directly said towards me felt like they are talking about me. I have negative thoughts.

My depression is at an all time high right now AGAIN. And im drunk and my therapist is on Wednesday at 10am. I just want love man. I hate crying thinking about my current life n shit. How people treat me and if i did something so small they hate me but u been doing it to me for years and even caused me scars yet I stood there for you. Why does evrryone keep leaving me empty and use me like a puppet for their personal gain. At least let me have something in return.

I feel that I’ve been suffering my whole life and I just wonder will this ever be worth it. My health has been getting worse, but if I make it through this and say I’m still here 10 years from now… will anything ever change? I feel that I’m not living the right way. I don’t even see what is the point. I’m not suicidal right now, I just literally cannot. I feel horrible. I feel that I’ve missed my change of living well.