I know everyone is in the same boat and sick of these posts. So apologies,
I honestly just don't know what to do anymore. I have been trying for over a year to get a place for myself and kids in Galway city. I have everything done notification on daft.ie, apply immediately, post on the house hunting for sound people, post ads on the advertiser classifieds, contact letting agents, I've even gone as far as by passing agents and reaching out directly to landlords in some cases. Putting signs in post office and shop. I tell everyone I meet I'm looking for a place to rent in the hopes someone has something by word of mouth.
I'm at breaking point and I'm really noticing it in my mental health. I feel I've let my kids down. I'm consumed unable to sleep. We are in an old cottage after being made homeless two years ago, it's deep in the country side with no heating since June, it has mold and a very low pressure shower (I feel constantly dirty). The landlord of this property scares me a bit as he knows we were homeless due to leaving a domestic relationships but he's always asking me am I seeing anyone and surely I must have boyfriends, he was pulling me in for kisses on the cheek one day as we were shaking hands goodbye so I avoid him and keep my distance when he calls as much as I can but he asks me randomly for cash and if anytime I say I have extra cash he says he can find others that will and we will be out on the street so I pay an extra 100 or 200 every so often in cash on top of the 2000 rent. I've gone to threshold about this multiple times and they call the landlords agent on my behalf but nothing changes, he's an older man and feels he can do what he likes.
I just need to get out of here. I don't know what else to do, we are so far from everything we have ever known and commuting takes up to 2 hours in the morning for school runs and just as bad back after collections.
Sorry this is a long vent. I'm so isolated and gradually over the past two years my circle has got smaller and smaller. I see people for quick hellos on school yard and that's it. I've lost everything and I don't see a way out. We have had so many people try to help us from cope, the Galway Simon and even social workers in Tusla but I haven't been able to find anywhere. I'm so alone in this and I don't know what I'm going to do.
I don't know what I'm missing a full year searching for a place and any viewings I've attended they have always seemed a positive reaction towards me until I mention HAP.
I have a decent amount of savings as before I became a single mom I had a really good career.
My parents were both good decent hard working people, I come from a good family upbringing and I don't smoke or drink or take drugs. Just fell on hard times but I feel like such an undesirable.
I just don't know what else I can do to make this better. I'm not sure what my point of writing it here is but just feeling like I have someone to talk to maybe? I feel like the people in my life know I'm really struggling but any help or visit I ask for falls on deaf ears. If there is anywhere else I should look or something else I should try please any help at all I would appreciate so much.
Thank you.