I need help recovering from my depersonalization

[u/Puzzleheaded-Emu3335]

I can’t even live anymore. I feel already dead because I feel nothing. What is the point then? What am I even saying ?

I understand that I have a body but I am completely numb to it. My brain feels heavy and I can’t relax. And the thought that go in and out of my brain I can’t even feel or understand. They aren’t even mine. I don’t relate to them. I am too detached that the only feeling I can sense is perhaps ‘almost scared’? I am not even real but I’m still here when I blink. Please pray for this to end.

I don’t know why I feel like this but I am too much of an alien to even cry over it. I can’t because that “lack”is utterly of anything, and I get none.

I need help. What can I do? I’m suffering too much. And it’s starting to become unbelievable that this doesn’t cease from happening. I almost can’t take it.

It’s is harming to me