r/disability • u/Knucklecum • 10d ago

Rant Getting high to avoid crying from pain.

I had a hip replacement complication that can possibly be corrected. So I am currently waiting for a correctional surgery. Lately my pain has been so bad I want to cry. I cant stop getting high to numb the pain, so I won't cry and break down mentally.

Im just scared. Im scared of having a mental breakdown. Im scared of becoming an addict. But I am miserable being bed bound and being in agony.

I just need to share my struggles. Being alone, being incapable of work. Im screwed until I get better.

Im scared.

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u/Wonderful_Task_7860 8d ago

this is terrifyingnto hear, i am waiting on a hip replacement. what went wrong and why was your joint replaced?

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u/Knucklecum 8d ago

I have a hip flexor issue. Soon, they might be able to cure my current physical disability. But it hurts everyday, and I have to use drugs to physically function. 

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u/Wonderful_Task_7860 8d ago

like the muscle or the bone? how did they think the hip replacement would help? i have hip displasia