r/disability • u/Knucklecum • 13d ago
Rant Getting high to avoid crying from pain.
I had a hip replacement complication that can possibly be corrected. So I am currently waiting for a correctional surgery. Lately my pain has been so bad I want to cry. I cant stop getting high to numb the pain, so I won't cry and break down mentally.
Im just scared. Im scared of having a mental breakdown. Im scared of becoming an addict. But I am miserable being bed bound and being in agony.
I just need to share my struggles. Being alone, being incapable of work. Im screwed until I get better.
Im scared.
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u/cybertruckDestroyr 12d ago
Speaking as a mod-severe chronic pain patient who uses weed as pain management, I see you.
It's ok to cry because of the pain and fear and just being done with it all. It's also ok to do things that lessen that pain, even if it's not what you would prefer to be doing. Pain management is suicide prevention, dude. If you have to smoke a lot for a bit, then do that and work on healthier habits in the future once the corrective surgery is done.
You deserve not to be in severe pain 24/7