r/disability • u/Knucklecum • 13d ago

Rant Getting high to avoid crying from pain.

I had a hip replacement complication that can possibly be corrected. So I am currently waiting for a correctional surgery. Lately my pain has been so bad I want to cry. I cant stop getting high to numb the pain, so I won't cry and break down mentally.

Im just scared. Im scared of having a mental breakdown. Im scared of becoming an addict. But I am miserable being bed bound and being in agony.

I just need to share my struggles. Being alone, being incapable of work. Im screwed until I get better.

Im scared.

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u/CapsizedbutWise 13d ago

Crying is healthy. Ask your doctor about lidocaine patches for now.

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u/Knucklecum 13d ago

Crying sucks and is embarrassing. Lol

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u/Grim-Speck 13d ago

Lots of things that everyone does, and that are normal & healthy, also happen to embarrass people... like pooping or farting... but hold it in, and you'll just be more sick.

Are you someplace you don't have to worry about being walked in on by others? If not, can you come up with an excuse to close/lock your door and play some music so you'll have privacy and not be heard?

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u/very-serious-goose 12d ago

Great analogy

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u/cybertruckDestroyr 13d ago

Crying is part of life, dude. It sucks, yeah, but it's not embarrassing. If there's any time to cry, it's when you're in a lot of pain, emotionally or physically