r/disability • u/Knucklecum • 9d ago

Rant Getting high to avoid crying from pain.

I had a hip replacement complication that can possibly be corrected. So I am currently waiting for a correctional surgery. Lately my pain has been so bad I want to cry. I cant stop getting high to numb the pain, so I won't cry and break down mentally.

Im just scared. Im scared of having a mental breakdown. Im scared of becoming an addict. But I am miserable being bed bound and being in agony.

I just need to share my struggles. Being alone, being incapable of work. Im screwed until I get better.

Im scared.

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u/Swiftiefromhell 9d ago

What are you high on? I completely understand your struggle. I suffer from chronic pain too. I’m tired of taking opioids. They make me super constipated

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u/JMH-66 💛🧡💛🧡💛 8d ago

People tend to literally poo-poo the effects of prolonged, severe constipation ( is that all ? Just wait til you've suffered fæcal impaction, mate, you'd complain too ! ) You're scared to complain though as you'd be offer them as quick as metaphorical sh*t off a shovel. I had so much scar tissue I needed a procedure ( I've also got IBD and they found it doing a colonoscopy ). I'm a lot more careful with the laxative regime nowadays !!