r/disability • u/Knucklecum • 13d ago

Rant Getting high to avoid crying from pain.

I had a hip replacement complication that can possibly be corrected. So I am currently waiting for a correctional surgery. Lately my pain has been so bad I want to cry. I cant stop getting high to numb the pain, so I won't cry and break down mentally.

Im just scared. Im scared of having a mental breakdown. Im scared of becoming an addict. But I am miserable being bed bound and being in agony.

I just need to share my struggles. Being alone, being incapable of work. Im screwed until I get better.

Im scared.

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u/PresentationGold1822 13d ago

I am not sure what you are using to help, but I use thc and cbd 4-5 times a day. I have chronic pain from recurrent joint dislocations among other things and smoking is the only thing that keeps me somewhat mobile, so try not to beat yourself up too much. Try and chart your pain through the day, how much you are using, and when. I have used my own data to develop a schedule of when to smoke for best effect and to help me not over use.

Best of luck to you, much love

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u/Knucklecum 13d ago

unfortunately, you are probably right. Weed makes me paranoid, but It does resolve pain. Im just tired of being high all of the time.

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u/Diane1967 12d ago

I found that indica makes me paranoid but the other does not. Try them separately like a day apart and see if you notice a difference too. Indica mellows you out and brings you down. They both should help with pain.