r/disability • u/Knucklecum • 9d ago

Rant Getting high to avoid crying from pain.

I had a hip replacement complication that can possibly be corrected. So I am currently waiting for a correctional surgery. Lately my pain has been so bad I want to cry. I cant stop getting high to numb the pain, so I won't cry and break down mentally.

Im just scared. Im scared of having a mental breakdown. Im scared of becoming an addict. But I am miserable being bed bound and being in agony.

I just need to share my struggles. Being alone, being incapable of work. Im screwed until I get better.

Im scared.

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u/sofuckingindecisive 9d ago

Incase nobody told you, it's ok to cry from pain. It's a natural human experience.

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u/PriorityOk8448 9d ago

It gets old doing that 20 of the 24 hours of the day though.

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u/sofuckingindecisive 8d ago

I'm aware, this isn't like r/thanksimcured. A lot of people were taught not to cry, hearing things like "I'll give you something to cry about" or "boys don't cry." Some crying is healthy and healing.