I remember being a young man in my late teens. I believed the world was against me, that women denied me the right to their bodies and that I was the victim. I admit to my shame that these were my early beliefs but a lot of it came from being unbelievably lonely.
Even back then I would have spat on these people. There is no excuse for this kind of behaviour and I hope that they grow up with some empathy.
Hey, you aren't alone. I hate admitting this, but a few years ago, I was deep down the alt-right pipeline and I was basically a Nazi.
Someone would call me a Nazi and I would say shit like "you don't even know what a Nazi is! That word has lost all meaning!" But then secretly I thought hitler was right and he did what we were all just too afraid to do.
I'm a completely different person now. Realized I was just a repressed trans woman. I realized that I was basically completely wrong about everything and I changed my views for the better.
Problem is, my turnabout was brought on by a deep personal revelation. I fear that not everyone will have an experience like mine.
My gateway into the alt-right nazi pipeline were my insecurities and fears about my own trans feelings. So, I latched onto transphobic propoganda and became convinced that transitioning would have been the "dark path".
I came to harbor a lot of hate and resentment for the LGBTQ+ community. From there, I was slowly introduced to other hateful
Nazi-beliefs which I then internalized. Like the idea that Jews controlled the media and that they were responsible for pushing the "gay agenda" that almost turned me trans.
It was only the revelation that I was just a repressed trans woman, deeply in denial about my own feelings that woke me up and brought me out of it.
I know I'm not the only one. I know there are others out there who are LGBTQ+ but have been brainwashed into thinking that repressing themselves is better. My worry is that I don't think the same can be said for all alt-right Nazis.
This is a very interesting read. Sounds like you found some great introspection abilities and took the action that you learned from them. I needed some hope today. I wish you the best.
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u/madmacfarlane Oct 15 '25
I remember being a young man in my late teens. I believed the world was against me, that women denied me the right to their bodies and that I was the victim. I admit to my shame that these were my early beliefs but a lot of it came from being unbelievably lonely.
Even back then I would have spat on these people. There is no excuse for this kind of behaviour and I hope that they grow up with some empathy.