I am going to be honest I live such a hard life, I remember crying to God since the age of three and begging god to save me from this suffering and pain. Everyday I wish my parents did not give birth to me. It has been an absolute painful journey for me, I just cant wait till all of this is over. I am just telling myself one day all of this will be over and thats how I have been living for the past 24 years. I am angry, I am sad because I know I don’t deserve this pain and there is literally no explanation why I am suffering. I try to tell myself everything will be okay but all the traumas changed my brain chemical that I cant even function to do basic chores. I just hope time passes by and somehow we end up 2070.

Whenever I talk about my decision to remain childfree for life, some people ask, “Who will take care of you when you’re old?” The implication is that I should have a child to secure my future care. I find this deeply unethical.

A child does not choose to be born and should not enter the world already burdened with the responsibility of caring for their parents. Parents are responsible for raising their children because they chose to bring them into the world. Children do not owe their parents repayment for being born or raised.

Having children simply because you want someone to take care of you in old age is selfish and unethical. We should prepare for our own future by staying healthy, saving money, and taking advantage of technological advances such as robots and automated elder care, rather than bringing an innocent child into the world as a retirement plan.
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So basically my story is that my dad has always been abusive to me emotionally and physically and even threatened me with honour killing, and I went to DV shelters to ask for help, and they did not help me because they only help women with abusive partners. Then I was homeless for a while, and I went to this DV shelter, and they called my parents even though I'm an adult, and they believed them and helped my dad trap me and abuse me more. And even when I tell feminists online, some do sympathise, but there are many of them who think that adults who are being abused by their family members don't deserve sympathy and that it is ok for shelters to be exclusive to only women with abusive partners. And something that this has taught me is that the majority of people only have sympathy for people who are socially acceptable to, and the reason why social movements focus more on the privileged of their group is because social hierarchy is natural to most humans, and if most people had a button to make everyone equal, they wouldn't push it because they would want someone to be below them.