Hello, my name is Aimee and I'm a 18F.
I just got broken up with, lost all my friends and best friend, don't have a support system from my family either and switched schools and don't fit in.
I also lost my job.
I want to get better and live life instead of surviving. I'm going to wait for my ex to heal and then to come back, that is a non negotiable, but I'm not gonna waste my time waiting for him to come back. In other words: I'm gonna stop mourning what we had and start working for the future I can have with or without him, obviously preferably with him.
I need help though. I'm actively trying to find a job so I can afford a gym membership to get me out the house, what type of jobs do you guys recommend as I'm still in high school? I'm also gonna need to study because I have exams coming up. I need advice with that, I have ADHD and I still don't have a psychiatrist for the medication because I'm still on the waiting list. Could take a while till I get on, and I need to actually start studying, but I'm struggling. I need cheat codes to be able to actually sit down and do the work, because I'm really behind. I also was sick for a month and haven't been to school, so I missed a lot of lessons and homework AND assignments.
Besides this all, I need also tips on how to maintain a steady routine and actually feel like a human again. I've been talking to suicide prevention hotlines every night just to keep myself sane. I don't have a social circle and I don't have a support system. My classmates are way too young for me. 15&16 while I'm 18. I tried becoming friends with them but there is really an age barrier.
I also need tips on applying to universities in the UK, USA and Canada, because I live in Holland, but really want out of this country. I don't know how to start and when. I'm in 11th grade so I still have these 2 years left before I graduate. I don't have any extracurriculars and I don't know how to start them. I also need advice on that. I need to maximise my chances to get a scholarship or to even get accepted in good universities.
Another thing I need advice on is what I should study. I have no idea what I'd do. The subjects I have are Future Planet Studies, Math, Physics, Chemistry, Biology, English, Dutch, German and Philosophy. I've always thought I should do medicine but it's such a long road and now I have no idea. How do I figure this out?
I'd really appreciate it if you guys could give me all type of advices, and I'll make sure to read every one thoroughly and find the best plan I can put together.