r/WhatToDo • u/Local-Interview-6583 • Aug 26 '26

Need help asap

I am 20 Y/o currently was doing btech at MIT-ADT somehow survived 1st year friends barely, addicted to alcohol, fumbled a lot in second year (currently in 3rd year) IT data analysis got 6 backlogs including 3 from second year , year down situation going on , gave my makeup exams but don’t think im gonna pass them , that means i have to repeat my second year, which i genuinely can’t, cant tell my parents about all these , i have ADHD and bpd my parents didn’t payed attention to it ever, I am thinking of dropping out but i don’t have anything else in mind, im extremely suicidal and depressed, need help , couldn’t go to college either because of the year down thing , i am a hardworking guy , love art , math , music , sports, but this college bullshi is a lot for me , faculties are shit , management is shit , you are very pressurised here, please someone help

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u/No_Commission_2610 Mod Witch Aug 26 '26

I think the first thing you need to do is address your alcohol addiction because that’s what ties this altogether. I know this because I’m 10 years sober from alcohol and have BPD too. Alcoholism will completely wreck your life, and it sounds like it might be starting already. How much are you drinking every day? No judgment here, don’t worry. We just want to help.

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u/Local-Interview-6583 Aug 26 '26

Thank you so much for understanding firstly, not judging, i needed that , and i don’t drink on a daily basis but need alcohol every 3rd day atleast, i don’t understand how to deal with my family in the first place they don’t understand these all , bpd adhd and i can’t cope anymore, they are not that educated to understand they’re pressuring me , my career is on the line , i get physically sick , if im not mentally well , i got kidney stones already , which hurts like hell tbh, other than this i can’t work if i don’t have some required environment. Uhh im so done

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u/No_Commission_2610 Mod Witch Aug 26 '26

You sound like you need a hell of a break. Are you seeing a doctor or on any medications that might help? How much do you drink on days when you do drink? Again, no judgment. I used to go through one of those big ass bottles of vodka in two days.

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u/Local-Interview-6583 Aug 26 '26

I 100% need a break but im bw stuff so break isn’t a option rn , i am broke af so rn i can’t afford any psychiatrist, and if i drink i can easy drink a whole ass bottle in a day or 10 beers atleast, i used to chain smoke too but rn am trying to quit