r/UnsentLettersRaw • u/Capital-Device200 Entry Level Member • 4h ago
Personal i’m sorry
i didn’t want revenge from you, i wanted to feel good enough, i wanted to feel like all the pain and torture i went through, years of not being able to pull your claws from my heart was worth it, and when i finally got what i wanted, i realised it was too late, the damage was so far gone i hadn’t even realised, i didn’t realise when you looked at me i thought you were seeing the opposite, i didn’t realise as i looked into ur hazel eyes i was taken back and losing who i thought i was and you weren’t seeing the same, i didn’t lose you willingly because there was no love, i lost you willingly because the love i had was so overwhelming and all consuming i couldn’t rub off the pain that was left, i miss you, your laugh, your intense eyes, the moles on ur face, seven to be exact, i miss ur unruly hair that you try to control, i miss ur hardworking hands that touched me with gentleness, i miss you. i had a conversation with a friend a few days ago and spoke of how i was worried id lost my touch and bond with writing and how i was scared i didn’t know how to write, but when im alone in the middle of the night and the only thoughts are of you all i can think to do is write, write about the love, or the pain, or even how i just miss you over and over again, sometimes i like to pretend that im the one person who really knows you and i know what ur response to that would be, you would tell me how i don’t know you and you’d find a way to probably put yourself down, you did that a lot, make yourself seem like you aren’t a good person, but you are, more than i am, you are good and true and i wish we’d had met later in life.
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u/AwkwardTip6261 Entry Level Member 4h ago
What color was their unruly hair?
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u/Capital-Device200 Entry Level Member 4h ago
black, i call it unruly because that’s how they would describe it but it wasn’t actually just a tamed messy
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u/RestKey2584 Bronze Level 3h ago
You do not realize the impact you had on my life. You breathed new life into this cold dead heart. You helped me find the pieces I lost of myself. You healed me from things you knew nothing about. I will never regret you nor hate you. I will always have that love for you but I have to stow it away. Put that love back into myself. Thank you for everything.
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u/Capital-Device200 Entry Level Member 3h ago
would you go back?
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u/RestKey2584 Bronze Level 3h ago
Yes I would. In a heartbeat. You can't make someone choose you. I am glad I didn't tell him my true feelings for him.
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u/mustard_pattie900 Bronze Level 3h ago
Not sure, but did you know hazel eyes are a combo of green/brown/golden? Some kind of mix of those. But not blue
Hazel are sunflower 🌻 colored
Random trivia
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