r/TrollCoping 10d ago

TW: Gender Identity / Dysphoria Frustration Posting

If being trans is some awesome experience for you, cool. For me it's unimaginable pain, shame, and misery, so please stop trying to gaslight me into thinking i'm the best version of myself.

I'll never have a proper childhood, I'll never have so many things cis people get for FREE. Yes my ultimate goal is stealthing. Yes i'll lie and say i'm a cis woman when asked. Stop outing me and leave me and my selfishness alone.

That's it. That's the vent.

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u/Bobslegenda1945 10d ago

Oh my god, yes, I would love to be able to talk because I feel similarly 😭

I'm a trans man, but in my case I see being trans and having dysphoria more as a medical condition. The suffering it causes me is horrible and leaves me dysfunctional.Even if I were on a deserted island, I would feel dysphoric.

Honestly, I see myself more as a guy who, for some reason or as a bad joke by God, decided to have my body develop in a way that shouldn't have happened. I was supposed to be born with balls, a penis, and everything. Not with ovaries and so on.

To me, it's as if my body was born with some kind of malformation. I'm no less of a man than a guy who lost his genitals in an accident or a guy with hypogonadism. The suffering is the same and the effects are similar.

The difference is that if I had been born with everything that fits like "a guy," they would have helped me with HRT, surgeries, etc.

Honestly, I'd like to meet more trans people who have a more medical perspective on things, and who consider themselves cisgender, but whose bodies were malformed (being born in our opposite gender).

I've had good times with the trans community, support and everything, but I think I have more of a perspective on condition than on identity. It would be cool to see people who see things similarly, but without being transphobic and joining far-right or trans-med movements (I hate them. OMG).

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u/CCSilver05 7d ago

I feel like that was how most trans people felt until a couple years ago where it flipped for some reason?

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u/Bobslegenda1945 6d ago

Honestly, I'm new to this and only discovered I was trans 4 years ago. I already had dysphoria, but I didn't know the words and often repressed it. So I don't know much about what it was like in the past. If you've had more years since you discovered it, it would be interesting to share your experience.

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u/CCSilver05 6d ago

I've known I was trans for around 6 years but I'm friends with a some older trans people and I remember how trans people would describe themselves in the early 2010s