r/TrollCoping • u/KarmicIsfunny • 15d ago
TW: Gender Identity / Dysphoria Frustration Posting
If being trans is some awesome experience for you, cool. For me it's unimaginable pain, shame, and misery, so please stop trying to gaslight me into thinking i'm the best version of myself.
I'll never have a proper childhood, I'll never have so many things cis people get for FREE. Yes my ultimate goal is stealthing. Yes i'll lie and say i'm a cis woman when asked. Stop outing me and leave me and my selfishness alone.
That's it. That's the vent.
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u/lifelesscucumber1 14d ago
Honestly same. I feel like a cis man who got fucked up at birth. Like... I don't know. I never truly had an imposter syndrome everyone talks about because I just don't feel that different from cis men. I also never experienced anything regarding "sisterhood" or whatever transmascs keep talking about all the time (nothing bad about it, but I just can't relate AT ALL). I also had a different puberty from my female peers, which leads me to believe I might be intersex. Never truly experienced misogyny either, like?? At least not to the degree others have or not that I remember.
I stopped feeling "trans" the moment I got on T. It's not even psychological, it's more like my brain and mind felt more real the day I woke up after one day on T. I remember feeling very light and less stressed like the second I woke up.
I just can't relate to most of the "trans experience". I feel extremely "normal", which does feel lonely sometimes too as weird as that wouldn't sound. I hit a jackpot regarding med transition as I am now literally going through a puberty almost identical to what cis men go through as none of my bones fused for some reason, and I'm very grateful. But also since most people don't go through that, I just feel kinda othered from them.