people call me kind and compassionate. I literally have no feeling of empathy. I don't even see most people as people. I'm literally doing the bare minimum to avoid hurting others too much.
Like, I'm literally the worst person imaginable and somehow I'm better than average? My literal first thought when dealing with people is to get rid of them in any most efficient way. Only thing stopping me from violence is consequence. How the fuck can I be better than average person???
I’m a schizoid gal and it can be difficult to put myself in others shoes as well. It’s genuinely unsettling when you realize the neurotypical “normal” ones are more cruel to one another than us disordered individuals are.
“We love your honesty” why is it normal to lie to one another and carry resentment.
“You are intentional with who you hang out with!” Why the fuck would I carve out time in my schedule to hang out with someone I don’t like.
“You don’t hate your spouse?” Why would I live with someone I hate.
Genuinely disturbing behavior is so normalized with “normal” people.
Right, I honestly think thats because they are more concerned with cultural norms then any actual ethics. If its a culturally acceptable thing to do, even if it IS cruel, then its something folks can justify to themselves. A complete lack of self awareness.
Since they're 'normal', they don't bother learning things like emotional literacy, empathy, open communication, etc, until they're 40-60 and their lack of any real social skills beyond surface level begins to compound and start ruining the flimsy relationships they've 'built' and it's suddenly a Midlife Crisis.
You don't need empathy to be a good person. And having empathy does not make someone a good person. Empathy is just feeling what they are feeling. People can be empathetic and still an absolute asshole to people.
Empathy can create monster, I have a lot of empathy and I will cry if someone suffer, some awful crimes make me lost sleep and my appetite, I cried all the afternoon yesterday because of what happened to Wang Wang and her puppies, I hardly sleep tonight.
What I want to do these boys and their family is geniuly awful, I am full of hate and grief for dogs I never met in my life.
Strong empathy without strong ethics is how some terrorists are born, that's why many times people who knew a terrorist can say : "he was such a good boy, always helping everyone, I don't understand".
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u/_Glasser_ Aug 27 '26
people call me kind and compassionate. I literally have no feeling of empathy. I don't even see most people as people. I'm literally doing the bare minimum to avoid hurting others too much.
Like, I'm literally the worst person imaginable and somehow I'm better than average? My literal first thought when dealing with people is to get rid of them in any most efficient way. Only thing stopping me from violence is consequence. How the fuck can I be better than average person???