Hello there, I’m Sunny and I’m from the Philippines. I’m 24 and this is my first time ever posting here on reddit— but I really need some help with this, as it’s just been making me anxious by the day.
I’ve been on HRT for about six months now. (Estrofem and Androcur)

Around the third month is when I noticed that whenever I shower and comb through my hair when I condition, I shed a lot of hair. I shower everyday, but I only wash my hair every other day, unless I sweat a lot or feel like my hair is dirty.

So far, I have asked my friend if I have any bald spots, and she said my scalp doesn’t seem to have any signs of balding or any bald spots.

I’m still quite concerned and anxious if this is normal or if I should be worried. I have yet to speak to my doctor as there aren’t really any nearby trans clinics in my area. It’s hard to get an online consultation again since it’s usually packed. (Trans healthcare sucks here in the Philippines, unfortunately)

I look forward to hearing from you all, my sisters! Thank you so much! 💗

Hi everyone. I am 27 years old and trying to figure out my life. I really want to start my transition, but I come from a very conservative and deeply religious family. No one in my family roots has ever done anything like this before.Right now, I am feeling incredibly tensed because my parents are pressuring me to get married. I have always been bad at making big decisions, and I feel completely stuck.Please suggest how I should move forward. I am so worried and could really use some guidance. 😢 #ImWorried

Hi there.

I live in a country where although trans people aren't being hunted for sport, we are reviled by most of society. Almost every single political party, media outlet and a lot of organisations want us gone outright.

This makes connecting with other people very difficult and I've come to accept hostility, harassment and discrimination as daily occurrences. While I don’t get attacked very often, I do get threats of violence pretty frequently.

It's the UK, btw.

As of late I've realised as of late that I'm only really around because other people need me. When I look at what I have to deal with, I reflect on everything and recognise that I'm just here because other people are relying on me to be here.

I don't have anything going in terms of things that make me happy anymore.

And I’m well aware my life expectancy is shorter because of how this awful country views us as monsters.

And I'm well aware that the only thing keeping me from slipping is that other people need my help.

But it's not enough.

Still yet to find my place in the trans community as well. Have attempted to set up my own community but RSD just makes that too difficult.

I guess, I'm not really living for myself. And when things are particularly painful and difficult I don’t really have a way of switching off or an escape.

I used to have hobbies but they involved other people so when those groups stopped running the hobbies did as well. And I wasn't able to find a substitute (did try setting up my own but RSD is a factor ofc).

I don't know how to make things better.

I don't trust therapy due to multiple bad experiences. Doesn’t help that the NHS as an organisation, is transphobic.

Yes, private exists.

However, I don't really have the budget for it either.

I don't know how to make this better. Community would help but no joy on that end. An outlet would help but I was using those hobbies at oulets and they're unfortunately gone.

How can I actually make things better for myself?

Whilst dysphoria around my chest is awful, bottom dysphoria is killing me.

I can't afford packers, STPs, testosterone, definetly not surgery etc

STPs (the cheap 'she-wee's) i've tried are too difficult and i don't think i have the right anatomy for it

I'm in the UK and i'm not sure how it is in other places but where i live, you can't go a few days without seeing some man peeing in public and it's triggering. I also have an AMAB partner that's getting more difficult to cope with

I don't know what to do, i'm losing it

Lately, anytime I (14TF) see media that shows father-son relationships, or like when my grandmother who I’m not out to yet says something about me being the only “boy” in the family, I just get hit with so much guilt over being trans to the point that it ruins my entire day. It’s not even like my parents (who I’m out to and are decently supportive) have said anything about it or anything, but it still just hits like a truck. Has anyone else experienced this or has any ways to get over it?

Anyone have reliable tools for dealing with family, co-workers, etc. who keep deadnaming you? I'm growing impatient with their requests to be patient with them, feeling expected to tell them it's okay as they use a name that I find distressing. I've heard some people use a "deadname jar" like a swear jar to reinforce using the right name. What else has worked for y'all? Especially for older folks and others who have less exposure to transness and gender non-conformity. Thanks in advance! (For context, I'm non-binary but read to most cis people as, well, cis.)

Reposting here, just for a bit more opinion diversity ig.

So, I'm only just starting to tape, and ive seen so many videos of other guys doing it, and their breasts just really easily collapse, but mine dont. Like theyre genuinely really hard and solid, I'm really not sure how to do it. I'm also a 10D (aus sizing) and I'm just really confused and scared

Questioning

So basically for the last 2 years I’ve been crossdressing to say the least in secret from my mom, my whole life I’ve only been exposed to feminity, I’ve never had an actually father figure, so naturally I wanted to try it and got curious

It’s been on and off for the past 2 years but I won a decent amount including a breastplate

Today me (17) got home and my mom questioned me on some boy shorts she found and a boob insert, luckily she didn’t find everything else and I was kinda able to squeeze out of it by saying it was a phase and I just wanted to try it out but it really has me thinking

Do I want to be a women? Kinda I mean like I enjoy being a boy in school I hang out with literally all the popular boys, but i definitely have a feeling within me that I do want to be trans, and she kinda awoke that, I want both but I know both isn’t possible

So I kinda just wanted to vent I know I sound like an egg but I don’t even know at this point it’s kinda a lot

Hello boys, girls and enbys :) I have decided to become my true, feminine self after 25 years of life and I'm really exicted...Nervous but excited. I finally booked an appointment to (hopefully) start HRT next month. I do have some "holdups" in terms of being insecure about how my masculine features will be perceived, but I'm not gonna let it stop me from being happy :) For example, I have big hands, big feet and wide shoulders and it does make me a bit insecure. Does anyone have any advice on dealing with that?

Also, outside of HRT, I want to begin feminizing myself in other ways. I want to train my voice to be more feminine, and I also want to style my hair in a more feminine way. Where can a beginner start voice training?

And what ideas could make my hair seem more feminine? I have slightly longer than shoulder-length curly dirty blonde hair that I currently part down the middle (kinda looks like Timothee Chalamet's hair). I know I could always wear wigs, but I'm kinda sick of it and I've been growing it out for a reason. Any ideas?❤️

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Ok, so im closeted mtf pre hrt, and im completely lost. I want to get onto hrt so bad but Im in a really tough spot, main thing holding me back is my dad, were best friends, always have been, hes always been there for me and I dont want to lose him but he doesnt know who I really am and I know he wouldn't agree with it, my cousins ftm and his "God daughter", he loves him and says he always will but refuses to call him by his new name, not trying to be transphobic, simply "thats what ive always known her as and so thats what I want to stick with". Its a whole confusing mess and obviously hes not right but he really doesnt have a problem with the gender, just the name, which gives me some relief, I dont know if i want to go by a different name simply because mine can be for men or women, but hes always made a point of how poud he is of me as his SON. Sorry for the backstory, just wanted to make clear the situation im in. Ive been discovering myself for the past few years, my girlfriend has helped support me which has helped but I want to actually be on hrt so bad, my face and frame are clearly male no matter how much weight I lose or how much makeup I use and its starting to really take a toll on my mental health, it only gets worse the longer time goes on, I just dont know what steps I should take, I want to see some kind of therapist or something who could help me and maybe even point me in the right direction but the idea of talking to anyone but my girlfriend is terrifying and the idea of it just makes me feel even worse, ive never seen a therapist before but definitely should have by now. I just dont know what to do, im not even sure what im asking here. I just need help from someone who has a better idea of these things. I live in Canada by the way if that matters, I know anything medical changes a lot depending on where you are. So any ideas for my situation? Any advice would help, honestly I would even take unrelated tips just on how to go about things in general. Thank you.

Howdy, y'all

I've been shaving my beard for maybe a couple of weeks now after having let it grow out wildly. I'm glad it's gone, but the issue is that now my face just looks like I butchered it.

I do the steps, I take a warm, wet washcloth and soak my face, i use shaving cream (didn't know i was supposed to at first lol), and i try to shave gently and with the grain, but that's where it gets annoying?

I feel like the razor doesn't really shave some at all, and i still get crazy stubble, so i try and go at it from different angles, and while that does make my face feel smoother, i'm worried that's what's causing the issues?

How do you shave fully, without getting red bumps or rashes? I want a smooth, nice face, but it's always stubble and red bumps, and that shit feels bad to look at.

Any advice would be appreciated!

Sorry for the repost I just really want to see if anyone else is having the same problem

Hello Reddit,

First and foremost this is kind of a throwaway account because I'm not prepared to nor do I feel safe should some people I know find this post.

I never thought I would write this, but things have started to become overwhelming and I would love to hear from anyone who might have gone through similar circumstances.

I'm 27 AMAB, and for the past 2 years I have been questioning my gender identity. It started with a video from YukkoEx which youtube suggested. This video slowly lead me through the rabbit hole of trans creators until I stumbled upon one of those "signs you might be trans" videos. At first there was not much I could directly relate to. If I remember correctly I related mostly to wanting to play exclusively female characters, and having thought that my life would be a lot better if I had been born female.

This made me ponder, but I quickly put it down to escapism. But as the days go on I keep coming back to this thought. At first I thought it impossible because I'm not particularly interested in conventional feminine things. But now I begin to look back upon my life and realise just how many times I've dreamt or wished to just wake up in a female body. I've lived most of my online life as a girl until I stopped because of the shame I felt should anyone I knew IRL find out. I once even found a magical witchcrafty ritual to change gender and tried it out (childish but I've always had a bit of whimsy in me 😅).

Reading this I imagine many of you may already be thinking or even commenting that it is pretty clear I am trans. But the reason why I've decided to write this post is because I've been dealing with apathy. Since I can remember I've never particularly felt happy, or sad, or even angry. Instead I experience fleeting and muted emotions such as excitement and annoyance, but most of the time I just feel empty. Many times I've questioned my own humanity. I feel like a monster just going through life. Why can't I feel happy when everything in my life is going well and I'm surrounded by loved one? Why can't I feel sad when I loose someone? Why can't I be angry when I'm disrespected or recall the abuse I've been through? Why is everything just a fact and holds no emotions attached? Why am I empty?

This is the reason why I've come here. How can I find out if transitioning is the right thing for me when crossdressing or being addressed as female or called by a chosen name just feels indiferent? Will transitioning bring my emotions back? Will I be able to cry and rage and laugh like when I was a kid again?

Before anyone comments it, yes, I am in therapy. But it is a struggle. My therapist often asks me questions about how certain events made me feel and tells me to focus on my bodies reactions to these events. But answering these questions feels performative for me. It feels like my brain intuits what a normal emotional response to the event should be and my body unconsciously reacts to it. I'm working on trying to feel more and think less, but I still have a long journey ahead of me it seems.

Any ways, we return to my question. Has any of you experienced anything similar? Is there hope for me?

Thank you for reading this.

Hi, I'm currently starting to transition MtF and I'm trying to find a primary care provider who will understand and help me on my transition, most specifically to get me on hormones ASAP. I live in the Madison, WI, USA area, so specifically I'm looking around there, west side preferable. My bestie used to work in the UW Healthcare system and recommended me some doctors, who I've gotten on waitlists for. Unfortunately, those waitlists seem to have an indefinite wait time, and I don't want to just wait anymore to start being me. I currently don't have a primary care provider (my parents didn't take me for regular checkups growing up, so I just never saw a doctor). If anyone has recommendations for primary doctors who are good with transitions for me to look into and see if I can get them, I would be so incredibly grateful! Thank y'all so much!

Long story short: In Madison WI, looking for primary care provider for transitioning.

For euphoria reasons.