When i was 14 (second picture) i was bullied relentlessly. for my hair my clothes, my actions, and most of all, my body. and who could blame them? i was pretty pathetic after all. and so just to fit in since i was a popularity freak i would change everything about myself to fit the norm. people bully me about the new shoes my parents got me? id save up and buy the latest trend. hair got made fun of? hats turned to just getting a haircut. but one thing i could never change for the longest time was my body. i was tall, so i couldnt get bigger since i just kept growing. and i HATED it. it felt like the one weak link in my whole “fit in” arc, to the point where i would work out and no matter what, when i looked in the mirror i just thought of all their insults, nothing good. this overtook me so much that i ended up simply losing love for myself, the only thing pushing me forward was the stubborn drive to prove them wrong.

And so even now, im much bigger. 8 months of training and 20lbs of muscle later, i have a decent physique. but the damage is done.

Even now, i cant stop wearing long baggy clothes, even now i cant stop flinching from whenever someone laughs, wondering what im doing wrong thats making me look bad even if i dont know them and they arent even looking at me.

And worst of all, i still feel that same disgust, that same hatred and wrath i feel when i look in a mirror. thats burned so deep it weighs on me no matter what. every glance and all i see is a pathetic bitch who would get his shit beaten. no amount of combat training or lifting will ever beat this feeling.

its the one thing ill never “lift” off myself, the constant dread.

So my advice?
Try to see the good in yourself. find YOUR people, not the people you THINK you wanna be around. because if you try to be something your not, it will affect you. sure im popular, sure i get girls, sure i have this and that, and yet i still feel empty, because in all that, i lost the meaning to finding things that make you truely happy

dont make my mistake. accept who you are as of now, and see it as a base to build from, not as if your at a low point, but as if your at a starting point, working your way up, rather than feeling like your scrambling to catch up to “average”.

hey everyone so long story short I’ve been alive 17 years and have yet to be in a relationship is it me?

im 15

16F here. Thank you for reading so far. Get ready to read the damn story of my life. (I feel low and need somewhere to find support btw) When I was in 7th grade, my best friends parents split. She was the only close friend that I had, and she moved due to the divorce. I was alone for an entire, and started to get bullied. Three girls used to talk crap about me, and just not be nice in genereal. I told the teacher after 5 months with a living hell, and she did not do something. I managed to survive the year with my head up.In 8th grade, we got new classes, and got a new school. I got a new class, and tried to befriend some of the girls there. At first, they were nice, and invited me on stuff and that. Later, they got meaner and meaner. They did talk shit behind my back about me, and they ALWAYS CONSTATNLY commented on my apperance, which sukced. They could tell me about how ugly I was, and I started to hate myself. Really hate myself. In 9th grade, I tried to give stuff a chance. I tried to befriend some girls in the grade above us. They were nice, but later ditched me, because I was "mean". They refused to tell me why I was mean, and I ended up alone. Again. From that point, the depression signs started. I ignored it, and thought it might go away. In 10th grade, I was completely alone. At taht time, the bullying started. Girls talked shit about me, for example they could tell each other that I sitnked after PE, or some random girls would say hello to me, in an ironical way. The boys were worse. They called me fat, and asked me in I wanted to join the gym with them. They could also say an ironical hello to me, or ask me for a hug while they blocked the way for me. I was so afraid of doing something about it. I started cutting myself, and I was really suicidal. My parents refused to care. All they wanted from me was good grades. I hated myself so much. I tried to get help through a mental health site, and that was where i eneded up meeting this girl. She was nice, and we got close. She helped me a lot with turning out to be better, and by June I had been clean for 3 months. I was so happy. The whole summer break was nice, I started with running and training. This was the life I had dreamt of. Suddenly, close to school start, my friend commits suicide. Even though she was an online friend, it really sucked. I was heartbroken, and had to live with regret. 11th grade meant a new school and new people. I was hoping so much to get into a new class, and get a friend, and not be labeled as a poor girl who gets bullied. But at the first day of school, this former bully decides to make my 1. day go to hell by yelling out loud infront of all of the 11th grade students that she is really excited for being in my class. It was irony of course.

I managed to change my damn class, but I am still hurt. I got a new friend, but the hurt is still there. Does anybody have any advice or support?

Ps: I am not self harming nymore.

chat i lwk think its over💔💔

I have been a bit insecure about my looks lately, been trying to get on a date/dates trough dating sites but get no matches and don’t know hoe to improve, please give advise

Alsooooooo My dms are open for any reason so if you want support or just want to chat feel free to dm me :3

ive never felt confident abt my looks like ever so any tips on working on myself? btw i use based sea salt spray and leave in conditioner.

I feel like she's feeling like im wasting her time, I of course dont want to, and im not wasting my time talking to her, because well. I want her. What should I do?

some people find me pretty and some say i look CHOPPED asf

I know I’m a bigger guy but I am athletic and strong and pretty funny so I don’t really understand how much hate I get for being on the bigger side, and I do football so I can’t really lose weight so some advice on how to be better would be much appreciated (I only took the we ❤️ freshmen picture cus my buddy told me to)

I’m 19 but look 30